When I layed
With her body against and on my body
Her head just under my chin on my chest listening to my heartbeat
Her light brown hair with hints of red when it hits the sunlight just right
against my skin
Steady breath compared to my uneven, nervous,
Her hand across my stomach
Rising and falling
My fingers tracing circles on her back
Like I sometimes do with him
Our strong legs tangled
Worried if I move she will shift
Like a cat that has fallen asleep on your lap
When I see you
I feel so warm
Come talk to me
I see you
Working at the library
Or every night at dance class
And you like that I flirt with you
And you like that I like girls sometimes
And I like that you like girls all the time
But you are slightly out of reach
Me, tied to another
You, tied to nothing imparticular
Him, I love him, but....
Tonight I push these thoughts out of my head
Tonight we are one body
More intimate than ***
And it didn't last that long.
We were in a room full of other people watching a horror movie and pretending to be scared so we could touch each other innocently...
but I'll never forget your warmth,
Or your hair
Or that couch
Or what we did there.
I've never had love before, now I have too much.