Suger kisses Silly crushes Candy hearts ask "Will you be mine?" Wandering eyes A glance at her thighs Thorns on the roses in the bouquet you bought yesterday Two things that can pierce And in between Two things that bleed Heart shaped cardboard boxes Filled with chocolate And caramel Walking through target Commercialised, consumerisim And everyone likes talking about how This holiday is what it is for more sales Than romance And its true Sugar hearts do not equal ancient love But we love to spend Money and time On someone we love Or someone we are saying sorry to Maybe its the same one Humans are so cute Making cards Red and pink And surprising with favorited Chocolate things But today is take out The girl your 'one true' doesn't know about Or maybe they do But choose not to mention it Because maybe they Really
Lacy black things Long receipts Long nights Not at the office Where you claim to be Let me ask you Were the flowers for her
As large, and as beautiful,
As the flowers for me?
Things I hear about in wine tainted conversations between the wives
I'm not saying you made all the bad stuff go away! I'm just saying! You made me not care if it was there...
There was so much wrong in my head
I'd stare at the ceiling, lying in bed
Trying to figure out why my brain leaks out of my ears if I hear a certain song or why when the sun hits me just right I get triggered for too long or why in all my relationships I couldn't move on or how the ******* priest thinks he can preach to me saying daddy never left and that's why you love buying Christmas trees
A word that fits weird in my mouth a word with a different meaning behind it than everyone else
they say blood is thicker than water but they both run in the river after you jump...
hold the edge of the bridge
hold my hand
feel my ribs
jumping was never in my plans but death felt like the option at the end of the tunnel for me
don't get ******
let the love wash over you let the fear and drama drive you
let it make you want it so much more
I knock on your door twice
I used to dream that it was his but then I realized he, wasn't it.
God, fought so hard, never did anything but kick up sand now I'm trying to fit the love of my life Into my 20 year plan
it changed so fast sometimes I feel my love lag he's moving onto the next episode and I'm not passed the intro..
That's all this is, is buffering. And if you wait long enough.
trust me I know,
and I never trusted anyone but me.
The light at the end of the tunnel is not in fact a glowing exit sign
I was her, the girl in those poems you wrote the girl you lied to the girl you wanted, but never enough the girl you argued with when you were lonely, or bored the girl you made up with just so you could do it again
I trailed you obsessed over you some of those poems were true but I know they aren't about me anymore
you said one day I would laugh at them. I didn't believe you until now