please

save me

this is a cry for help

longing for attention

dont let me go

back

back to that place
the familiar darkness
that creeps around me

steals the air from my lungs
and the blood from my veins

i long for the end

or the before

when there was nothing
but me

or the end

where there is no more adjusting

i hate the process
breaking and healing

then breaking more

i worry that i wont heal
from this

anymore

In the end it’s love
That will save us from ourselves.
An instinct greater than us
Makes us think of someone else.

Not everytime people get saved
Sometimes the feeling changes and they get changed,
They put their emotions at stake and start to think their existence is mistake,
They try to open the gate to go out to taste the flavor of the hate,
Which keeps rising with haste
But it lead them to a state which is full of anger and rage,
They don't wanna be loved and think it as a bait which lead people to journey of being betrayed,
They wanna escape the road full of ungrateful faces, where people don't get anything but pain and heartache.

This is ******* breaking me to pieces,
but if this is going to be a goodbye I want you to know some things:

1) I used to always wonder why I wasn’t good enough for you.
People told me I did too much for you, that I tried to hard for you.
But I didn’t believe that.

2) I thought  ‘maybe I’m not pretty enough.’
‘Maybe I’m not outgoing enough.’  
‘Maybe I’m not smart enough.’
‘Maybe I’m not strong enough.’

3)So I worried and worked on these things.
Trying to gain confidence.
Trying to gain composer.
But I was gaining all this attention and not yours.

4) Truth is you liked me for me,
but I was too blind to see.

5) I didn’t know there was an eternal battle.

6) I didn’t know it was your own thing.

7) I didn’t know you Really loved me.

8) I always wondered why it wasn’t me?

9) Why couldn’t you be addicted to me?

Why can’t I be “her” ?

Why can’t he call me?

When will he see me?

10) But he did.
I just wasn’t most important.

sleep isn't something that's common anymore
always trying, but never succeeding
vile things haunt my peripheral
everything changes, but change is constant

my mind is poisoned
everybody is watching me

perfect is what i should be
lets take a nap together
eloquent is what your face is
always looking up
staying close,
even when i push you away

It's ebbing away my sanity
to the point where I use profanity.
While it feels like I have no gravity,
I'm in this world of rotten cavity.

Every step forward,
Every step back,
Every step toward,
Every step insomniac.

Roll the dice once or twice and take a break to reduce headache.
That's the price of a sacrifice when you stay awake till daybreak.

Save Water

Free Verse Poem

We drink and use water,

Without knowing what it does,

What benefits it gives,

Water is around but has decreased,

Without knowing that the world is drying,

Before the leaves get crooked up as life,

We need to save water, to save our life,

Water helps everything,

As we need to help it too,

We do not need water just to drink and use,

We need it, to help it, so it can help us too.

source: https://poemtheart.com
(Sarah Shahzad, November 2019)