Wash the dirt out of my hair.

Fox Academy lowdown.
Stone flannel in the wind.
Killer n a frown.
Hair long on 15th.

Watching the doors in the morning.
Mire more then ever.
over and over tired.
Take sadness for my fever.

There might be a road.
Take off your mask.
I’m scared of every.
Thing that you ask.



Garrett Johnson.

There is this girl named depression
She doesn't care if I'm happy
She will bring in bad news when i just got in a good mood
She doesn't care if I'm with a good dude
She tells me he just wants me to send nudes
I tell her to leave her presence isn't needed she doesn't listen
She wants to live with me forever
Whoever this may concern if you see her avoid her

you can feel it coming sometimes
the other part of life
the sad one
the anxious one
sometimes when you are alone
there is no happiness
only nervousness
maybe thats the real part or
just a phase

Every time I do, the person leaves my life.

That’s why I’m terrified to tell you.

I know you’re accepting but I’m still scared to death.

What if my mom finds out?

What if you tell other people?

What if you leave my life too?

I just want to have a supportive community around me but it’s difficult when no one is.

I want you to know.

I need you to know.

But my mom is right there.

And I don’t know how to tell you.

Why am I so scared to just be myself?

Please help me to understand.

Guilt,
Spotted on my bones
Spilled along my guts
Crawling up my spine
To greet my eyes with tears.

Ready for a new life
A whole school
Of three hundred smiles
Hopefully, the autumn breeze
Will take me where
I need to be
My blacked out eyes
Will yours meet mine
On the very first day
Or will the current
Rip me away

I want to be grounded
I need to be strong
But something's eating
Up my insides
Telling me I've been gone
For far too long
I can't make up
For the wasted days
Rotting away
Behind reinforced glass
Wishing that today
Might be my last

I lay down and feel the rush,
The speed of nerves running through my body,
As my sound turns to a hush.
I don't speak. I just feel,
I lay there and wonder,
If I'll ever heal.
It speeds up when the phone rings,
When the light shines through the blinds,
Or when the bird at my window sings.
The world is waiting on me but I cant move,
I always seem to fail,
Any time I try to improve.
Stuck in my head being tortured by my own mind,
No one can see me,
The world is blind.
I fight to get up I fight to keep going,
But the feelings get worse,
And my movements are slowing.
So I close my eyes and try to escape it,
In all reality,
I just need to face it.

It’s in my mind now
Can’t erase it
Can’t do anything but move on.

But I don’t want to
Can’t stop thinking
Heart is pounding and eyes streaming.

What if it goes wrong?
Can’t stop worrying
Can’t stop anxiously waiting.