through cycles of laughter and anger
for the smallest of reasons,
you cut me off as i say “but
it’s-”
lost, the words i search for,
scavenging, but not found
x marks the spot but the map lies within
you
the ocean that separates us figuratively,
literally, as the tide rolls in to cover the last remains
of a thought not said, just left as
that
emotions masked by a blank stare
as that’s the only option
where does the problem lie, in
i?
if we can’t see eye to eye
why would i wait for a lie
to turn into a dream if that’s not what i
want
dreams are meant to be chased
but how can that be when i see
differently, just to hold on to hope and say
“but-”
six feet remain available
but the hole too deep to dig
i can’t **** a dream if i can’t write the
will
and i push myself to believe
but some things aren’t meant to be
even though i don’t like to say
never
but this time maybe
and i can only hope
but it’s easy to hope for something you don’t
have
and it’s easy to say it’s me
how could it be you
When the issue is that
i’m
not in a position to have you close
not mentally or physically
and i think it’s because i’m
too
caught up in my own world
i reach and hope and pray and wish
but you’re too
far
and if it’s not meant to be
then where’s the sign
no hands to tell, so it’s indefinitely
away
because there’s no time to tell
and no time to figure it out
and i’m not there, so there’s no time
to
ask, or talk, so silently,
i watch and listen
and wait on
hold
however long that may be
my heart and hope lies within
myself, and the faith in
you
awareness in one,
and the other unaware of the awareness
because i’m just
the
boy from far away
the wanderer, the dreamer
hoping that the
girl
far away can one day
watch my dream come true
as i say “hey, i’m
from
far away, and i’ve been dying
to meet you, and i’ve been longing
and i figured i’d find you in
france”
but for now i find you in my dreams
as i grasp onto wavering faith
dreaming, hoping
that
one day i can find you
and when i do, i’ll tell you about these dreams
and make promises that
i’ll
keep, but, it might be time
to recognise the truth
that it will happen
never
truth is, you never cut me off
because you’re the girl from france,
the one i’ll never
have
it’s you that i want but will never have
i’m too far away to hold you
the girl from france that i’ll never have
