excruciating disgust boiling inside push down into my wounds bleed myself dry because i am but a weak man with no spine looking above spit dripping down my lip salt excreted out of my pores gasping for the strength to melt away i cry at night rotting away because i’m not right misused and disregarded i am the rotten apple when you picked me you were mistaken because you didn’t check the other side
what could you say spending every night in doubt feeling empty and alone next to me light dwindled on reeling memories flickers of hope died in vain gut wrenching burns within letting go is slower than it takes to die but you want to stay here the slightest hope in this love i just want to be next to you forever even if you don't
you don’t want me anymore the touch of my skin crawls from your insides what is it baby
you used to love laying next to me now you stare off when you say I love you if you’ve fallen out of love with me please lay down by my side one last time
i know how it feels you finally typed out that sentence with tears in your eyes it’s more real than ever
im so sorry you’re hurt but i still want to hold you
Now I know You’re flying high Take my scars Our feelings blow into the wind Sometimes I wish one day I could take your hand Walk in the strange path that nobody sees it I want to say That you are always mine As you’ve loved me As you've loved me
Indonesia, 21st July 2021 Arif Aditya Abyan Nugroho
