She stands there,
In her own world,
Siging to her music,
Lost in the moment.

I stand watching,
Loving every inch of her,
Loving every second,
Lost in her and in this moment.

Her shirt,
Her underwear,
Her soft,
Beautiful,
Warm,
Skin.

She wears her gloves
Her dorky,
Purple,
Rubber,
Dish gloves.

Hairs in a bun
Hips,
Legs,
Shoulders swaying.

Soap,
Dishes,
And water,
All of it together.

I watch,
My heart swells,
This is my love,
This is my favorite moment.
This is the moment I knew.

She was there,
She was everything,
She was perfect....
So perfect...

these thoughts in my head
they're destroying me
painfully

I wish it was slow
so I have more time

I am losing it
I hate this
I am trying
but I am failing

she is hurting
and I cant do a thing

maybe i should just accept that
that could be the answer
but I have to help
I cant leave yet

I cant leave her
she is the one

I would give my life
just for her happiness

I am at a loss of words
I dont know what to do

I hope you feel better
I hope I can help you
because you helped
my life
you helped me

"When I close my "Eyes"
I find "your picture inside
my oval shaped eyes,
it shows a screen
with black and white
frames of channels
where "you switches
with different memories"
Perhaps,
I forget to change the next
channel of life
"Where you are with someone else"
time goes on,
but I'm still on the same place,
waiting for you
from inside the windows
of heart "Searching you,
but
"whenever I woke up.
You Fly somewhere
" it Switches you off, at the end
the reality is "you aren't coming back".

How can I love you 24 hours?

"I can", He said in a very low voice.

At first he said hi and he treated you with respect, something you never thought you could get.

Suddenly he leaves and for a day you do not see him

You begin to think, I wonder what he is into, how is he doing.

Realizing you've cling to someone you are into but don't truly know what he is about, yet it  doesn't bother you, for it is he you let your guard down hoping one day you can feel what you felt before.

How could you ignore such a feeling.

Then that day comes the day you see him again, in that same building standing in the same line maybe a few people ahead, but he is right in front of you.

He says hi and he treats you with respect, you say hi and do something you regret.

Somehow now he has changed and u wouldn't believe some of the thing he be saying.

Treating you with neglect, giving you disrespect, he just played his cards right just to give you good ****.

Now you question your heart, insecure torn apart. you took a chance but the state he left you in ....
tears and pain from the disconnect ...

-ShaiSoul