i pull away
i don't know what to say,
it's too familiar
my apprehension
at simple questions,
at gentle whispers

we'd spend our evenings
chasing feelings
we'd try to capture
hypnotized
by those lattice lies
we manufactured

but i can't talk
i missed so many calls
and i can't think
i just can't get involved

i'm on a break, i just can't take this,
i'm suspending consciousness
my reality
has lost all consonance

but, oh,
there's nothing much i miss
and, oh,
i just wanna stay like this

A Single's Life of Romance

If you have ever drowned in a dream
In one night
You dreamed of living romantically
Even though you weren't romantically involved
With someone
Someone was saying to you;

Walk the streets tall
Don't let them swallow you
Be clean in the inside
So be on the outside
Wear the sweetest scents on the outside
But radiate them more in words, from the inside
To every single thing that lives
That you ever come across in the streets
Oh, oh, to the ladies in particular

If you have the time, and the situation allows
Smile and tell every lady you meet down the streets
That she's pretty way more than what society has said
It doesn't matter how you think she actually looks
She doesn't deserve yet another silent gaze from you
Pat and brush her shoulder
Careful not to be too invasive

See if she smiles
Be happy if she does
Find out if she would like a date some time
Or just to catch some air and escape from anything
That may be draining her from within
Make sure your intents are clear and honest
And there is no ulterior motive to your act
Be happy if she says yes
Don't be so sad if she says no, also
After all no one loses anything at the end of the day
Right?

So she loves dinner, or the idea of catching some air
Together, determine the date, time and venue
On the day
Make sure you arrive at least ten minutes earlier
On your right hand a fresh rose flourishing
On your face, a wide smile glamouring
Say hello and extend your arm, let her hold on to it
Walk her into the venue, don't lose sight of her
Let her wait while you pull out a chair for her
Call her a princess and politely ask her to sit

You're here to listen
Allow her to bare her soul
If she's happy then you're all happy
If her soul is bruised, then guide her
Towards what could heal
Be bold but not intimidating
Be strong, let passion guide you
Be in control, don't let lust derail you
Let the day be over and take her to the cab
Give her a call later and ask if she arrived safe
Now lay quietly in your bed and know you've saved the day

Be proud for not having been proud
Be happy for having an ear to listen
Be joyful for having seen a smile on her face
Be thankful for being even the slightest love
That someone could touch
Be humble, after every good you would have done
Be grateful for the amazing company you'd have had
But more than anything,
Be focused on your course in life

You're shaken awake by another friendly call
Just wake up and smile
What are you waiting for?
In one lifetime
Live romantically
Even though you aren't romantically involved with someone...

Mongi C. Nkabindze

Everything in the present is somewhere, somehow connected to what happened in the past.
Over a period of time it’s realized,
a thing of past is a thing of past,
will remain in past,
no matter even when efforts are made to bring it to life in the present,
however,
even then it will remain in past,
from where it came,
to where it belongs.
Definitely a thing of past is a thing of past and it will always remain in the past.

The good thing is what happened in past cannot be changed,
either ways whether right or wrong,
over a period of time it does not make any difference in the present.

Better way is to accept the present in it’s present form,
then move ahead with the same in mind.
Best way is to be a part of the present moment in time in the present,
move ahead along with the same in mind with regards to how everything needs to be done in the present.

One of the best way is to get involved and remains absorbed with regards to what is there that's going on in the mind.
Desire and dreams remain in a contrast, play hide-n-seek.
However, dreams and desire must not affect the mind with regards to what’s going on in the mind at the present moment in time.

A time will come when it will be realized that efforts made till now have got something to do with regards to future and time now is to ascertain future.

Lost is the present moment in time
Lost in thoughts of my own.

Absorbed is the mind
Absorbed in thoughts of my own.

Engaged is the mind
Engaged in thoughts of my own.

Involved is the mind
Involved in designing, discussing and deciding about an uncertain future.
Involved in thoughts of my own.

Very soon it will be realized that all the efforts which have been made up until now,
all of them were made,
sepcifically to reach a point of conclusion,
so as to make a definite decision.

Interesting are the ways of life,
interesting seems life,
but still,
even then,
even as of now,
it's life and life continues along with the passing moment in time.

I've been waiting for the phone to ring or even just for that whatsapp ping.
But the phone stays dead and I'm left with these paranoid thoughts in my head.
You get in touch much later but by now I'm your biggest hater.
You wanna tell me how much you miss me but our relationship is too evolved.
So I turn around and tell you "don't worry now, I'm not involved".
See you expected me to chase after you, forgetting that after three days my caught feelings are through.
I won't call you on the phone, asking if you're home, hoping to spend some time alone.
I'm thoroughly over you, so don't expect any invite when you're feeling blue.
See your commitment issues can't be solved, and after everything I've been through, I swear, I'm not involved.