My heart is beating
My heart is pleading
To be saved
It's going bad
It's going mad
It needs help now
Before it stops making a sound
It's yelling and yelling
It's swelling and swelling
But when it screams,
No one ever hears
They are just standing there
They just stare
It's breaking and breaking
Everything's shaking
I feel a sharp pain
Something that feels like a chain
Suffocating me
It rips through my soul
It's making holes
Then it gets to my heart
And tears it apart
Then it crumbles
And tumbles
Down a dark hole
I lose myself
And I am forced to live in the shadow
Of someone else.

I Choose to be without you.
Because I choose,
To be sad without you,
Rather than ,  not happy with you.

the grass is greener where it is watered, so watch where you sow your seeds
to do so in just any garden, could get them choked out at sprout with ease

When we're together
you put my heart at ease
But this still hurts
You're no good for me
Can't say I don't jump
when I here you're name
Because of you
I'll never be the same

All this "love"
Is crushing me

thinking about the way we used to be
and then looking at your face
its like
shoving cotton into an open wound
it's soft
but it hurts
you're so happy
without me
and i don't know why i act like it's my fault
i know it's not
but
i can't help but feel
that i wasn't good enough for you
i miss you
i really do

And I love you when I’m sober and aching for your touch.
And I love you when I’m drunk and out of my self made funk.
And I love you when I’m swirling my hair on the shower wall and even the nights when my knees shake and I’m ready to fall.
And I could list the ways I love you until there’s no more air and I will love you as you push back my hair.
And I was made to love you, oh how I’m ******* sure.
I was made to love you even though you now love her.