When i first saw you,
I captured my soul with your gaze.
How beautiful that moment was.

when i say i love you, i don't mean just love.
But i can feel you.
I can feel every inch and edge of you.
And i can feel smallest details of the things 'bout you
The more clouser i get, the more i feel your happiness and your pain too.

I love you so deeply,
and in doing so,
i lose myself in yours,
i surrender into your soul and see all your fears,
and i love you utterly, totally, wildly.

Somewhere between forgetting the past and dying with the memories you gave me courage to love again.

Get out
just get out...
don't look me in eyes.
a night where things seemed perfect
a morning filled with lies
GET. OUT.
so eager for my entrance
so hasty to come back
you held me like you wanted me but then YOU THREW ME BACK
you tricked me like a child
and rocked me in your arms
I gave you every part of me
you broke down all my bars
I laid there with no doubts
no sadness
no pain
you wrapped your arms around me
to a MONSTER its a GAME
you have never given everything
AND MY GOD YOU NEVER WILL
cause you're too **** scared to miss out on all the thrill
too **** scared to finally open up
too **** lonely to believe in real love
admit it you are scared! you don't understand real love
you've been hurt and you've been damaged
so you've tried to rise above
you have never been so...vulnerable
so you took my heart and tossed it
no second thoughts
like something that's reusable
my mind was filled with questions
why
how
when
you never wanted words
just where they'd been
and that is when it hit me
just a "single night of fun"
I KNOW YOU
I really know you
so in the morning, you could run
when I woke that morning
instead of making an escape
NOT a WORD
not a sound
not whisper
nothing loud
GOD how can you stand there looking at me with those eyes and expect me to just forget?!
God I'm standing here screaming inside every reason I've ever loved
you and you're out here making bets
you crushed my soul like no one in my life has ever been able to
HOW?
how can a person make someone feel so loved and then act like they don't exist?
God, I don't understand!
so just get out
God GET OUT

oh wait... you already have.

"why won't you talk to me?"

"if i do,
i'll fall for you,
i'll want to hold you close and kiss you, that's what you make me want to do.
But i can't,
you're with him and he's my friend,
i can't talk to you,
i'll fall for you."

I lost my best friend,
he lost his first love,
me.

He is like a fresh breath of air on an Autumn morning after being trapped inside all day from the storm the day before,
But he can also be the exhilarating feeling of dancing in the rain with the sky thundering just as hard as your heart in your chest.
He is the chaos in my peace.