I was your best friend, 

But, one fine evening,

You surprised me by the words you said.
You, had proposed me that day,

And our relationship status got changed by words that day. 

I was quite happy because I knew, you will never take any wrong step. 
And will never break my heart,
And will never hurt me hard.

Best friends now had become boy friend and girl friend.

It was cute and different.

But that was not love, I thought. 

That was friendship from heart. 

You said, "it's love, true and pure love dear, you will also feel the same, spend some time other than being best friends."

Finally, one fine day some miracle might have had happened, 

I fell in love with you. 

It was truly a love relationship for me, by words and heart. 

From then some feelings really changed.

A few days later, you said, you want to confess something, 

I thought, you now might want to marry me. 

I was so happy, I can't share in words. 

I was waiting for your arrival.

Sayed, this was true and pure love- friendship, then lovers and then married couples.
I was awesome happy from core of my heart.

You came, but accompanied with a unknown girl,

And said, "let's be best friends again, because she is the girl for whom I have fallen in love forever."

"What about us?", I enquired.

"We! We were not made for love affair. Friendship is only ok for us."

I was shocked, surprised and shattered.

You have by then broken my heart.

It took long two years since then, 

To rise up and live again.

I, finally promised myself,

Not to fall in love again.

Then again we met on a cloudy day.

You said, you are single again.

Your words, your behaviour, your attitude,

All were strange that day.

I felt, I was talking to some stranger,
Who is not my best friend.

That night you came at my place again.

And said, "let's fall for each other again."

I was very sure with myself,
And rejected your proposal face to face.

You requested me to think over and over again.

"I am sure, I don't want to fall for you again."

Hearing my words, you left the place.

No talk, no promises, no connection since then.

And, now, after a decade, you have come again and saying,

"Tell me something so hurtful that I don't miss you forever."

Why such downmarket things you are speaking?

What I said that day, are still my words, today.

If this is not hurtful, then put yourself in my shoes,

And imagine how much hurt I have got,

Which had made the heartful girl so very heartless.

I'm sorry that I was born ugly
I'm sorry I was even born at all
Just to grow up and be an idiot
I'm sorry that I fake my feelings
I know everyone thought I was doing fine
Truth is in my head I'm lying dead on the pavement
And in my heart, there is nothing there at all
All my ambitions went flooding out the door
Now it's just me and these four walls

©2018 Written By Benji James

the city day is overwhelming
but the night is never telling,
sound is discrete
but always neat.
time slips away
and there is nothing left to say.
without thought nearby
there is a heartless sky.

As a little kid i looked upon broken teens,
Wishing never to become like them,
And it was true i was never like those teens,
Until i met you.

The start was fast like crashing waves,
We did not look as we laughed with joy,
But after time those waves turned to floods,
And you left me behind instead of enduring.

I tried everything to find you,
The real, old you that once loved me,
It seems as if you disappeared,
And i wish my feelings disappeared with you.

Soon they did and everyone backed off,
You’ve grown cold, you’ve grown heartless,
That’s what i’ve been told by you and others,
But if you’re the one who turned me cold,

Wouldn't you be the heartless one?