stop forgiving and cutting slack
to those who don't love you back

I scream towards emptiness
as it only echoed a numbing silence
its no used to abused
the strained voice
and struggled curses
all seems useless
so just give in
to the given
feeling
for a time
just once in a while

There is no more happiness
Only the pain
Exist without meaning
I'm trapped in my brain

Each day brings a struggle
I don't want to meet
A white flag; I surrender
Accept my defeat

I find myself on the edge of
Giving up or just giving in;
But standing still right now, I know,
There's nowhere near a greater sin
Than staying mute and allowing
My emotions to overflow--
For all they do is ******* me
As they play out a picture show
Of all my regrets, doubt, and fears,
Memories I wish to bury,
Future failure I've accepted--
My collection of misery
Running on repeat, on and on,
Know all the words to this old song,
And it goes, on and on, again;
So up or in, I can't be wrong.
I have a choice to make tonight
But at least know, I'll be all right.

i remember

the warmth i felt
the euphoria
something i’d never felt before
there in your arms
with your heartbeat in my ear
you were alive to me
i could hear it for myself

i closed my eyes
keeping it
my hand on your chest
eyelids flutter
smiling
my cheeks hot
that warmth everywhere

i feel you look down at me
watching
i knew i mattered
in that moment
i gave in

that feeling

so ephemeral
i knew it wouldn’t last
with you
i was right to want to preserve it
it really was but a moment
one moment
gone

The only thing we share is a difference in opinion
At least it'll always be interesting