When you feel the deeper calling,
Something yearning to be expressed.
A definite thing
Felt,
Yet unseen.
Elusive,
Stirring sleep, bringing unrest.

You’ve become shrouded
in years, my friend,
decades even,
of wonder and mastery.
Your noble craft, the role you play,
Has reached its brilliant totality.

Yet beneath the fading light
A gift for others’ lives.
A new reason for being and
Perhaps, It speaks,
my friend,
From nothing
beginning to Rise.

It leaves the body of knowledge-
Your blood, sweat, and tears.
Obsolete,
like gas station receipts
That wallpaper the rooms
Of victory over the years.

What you’ve achieved in life,
Grand and monumental
No Doubt!
Has become, as it should-
Just a shell.
Protecting Divinity within, what was,
and the fragile human without.

So sit, my brother,
With the pain and grief
Of longing.
And hear its funeral song.
For beneath the Melody,
Sweet sorrow brings with it
The birth of how you belong.

There is so much I want to say to you,
But words can hardly capture the depth of my feelings.
You are patient, faithful, unfailing, devoted, steadfast,
With a deep sensitivity and a shy expression.
You are always there to discover me, if I truly want to know you.
You stepped into my boulder blast and marveled at my righteous rage,
Mixed up and confused by my inexperience,
But smiling in wonder at the speed of my resurrection.
You never let go of my hand, especially through the storms,
Over the deepest terrain in this life and all its possibilities.
Through the boulder blast we grow deeper, I grow deeper in love with you.
The pebbles are a reminder of the path before us and the endless potential.
I guess I did it to myself, but I want you to know:
I believe in you, in us, in our day in the sun.

the wind is blowing
but the world is still
when you laugh
the hurt in my heart
grows flowers in the cracks
I can feel you try to mend me
as I re-write the memories
but it is your sweet nectar
that keeps sticking to me
as I endlessly try to
wash myself clean
of all I was tied to

and I look back at those places
that once felt like safe spaces
and I feel weak in the knees
for not being brave enough
to open my eyes and see
that you never were
what you promised you'd be
I had made up this story
told it so well

and dressed it up in me

and now that you're gone
I spend my nights
un.dressing the ache
of the never-ending
echo of the child
I never got to name

yet for you,
it's nothing more than a story
an "almost, what-if, thank-goodness"
kinda thing

and that is why
it is always the mother
who carries the weight
who has to bleed

a power I have embodied the best
ever since you decided to leave

infinite possibilities lie within your frame
and even if people don't show it enough
i hope you know you are so much more
than what you have lost

so much more than those who
have walked the other way
~specific to the reason~
you shine brightest today

you see clearer now
because things once didn't go your way
the way you picture your life to be
isn't always what you need

surrender to what you now see
let your highest self take lead

this life’s a gift—so let it be
if you can focus on the love
and trust you’re guided from above
you’ll see that darkness wakes your light
and feel your magic come to life

the world is shifting in your eyes
your laughter gives the sun it’s shine
so as you align, don’t let yourself
get caught up in all the “why’s?”
for in you, all the answers hide

healing is not linear
it is a balance
an ebb and flow

don’t you know
the work is never done?
sometimes you have to
come undone
to remember what it’s like
to feel complete on your own
to remember the worth
that settles in your bones

there is a whisper
inside your soul
aching with growth
it’s getting louder
can you hear it?

can you dance to the beat
of your fleeting intuition?

can you feel the strength
blooming within you?
coming to fruition
if you just listen...

can you feel the earth
moving at your feet
the mountains
of all the defeat
you’ve climbed upon

you are an echoing
of everything

feel the oneness that surrounds you
the goodness your heart pumps to

that rhythm in your spine
it’s all aligning
with your dreams

there’s cosmic reason
sewn into all your seams
there is nothing you cannot be

you are
e v e r y t h i n g

let it all go
b r e a t h e
there is so much beauty
hidden underneath
so much love still
left to see

and your greatest days
have yet to be...

Let my love be so brutal
Let my love be so wide
Let expansion make a home
Inside my chest;
And let the doors be always open

Human has been a passenger
to its limited mind

now it must become the driving force
to steer it forward

or keep crashing into its limits