I didn't believe in love at first sight tell I meet you
But that doesn't mean our fairy tail ended happily ever after
We had differnt dreams then
I still have the same one
Still get butterflies when you enter the room
But do you?
You seem cold, distant, and unrecognizable these days.
And I can't do it
I can't love someone who doesn't love me
And say kind things to brighten my day.
Not once did you tell me I was beautiful, pretty, or gorgeous.
But I'm telling you this now, no one could love you like I could.

The moon is only a fantasy to me.
In life it seems so cold,
So distant,
Like numb fingers chipped ice
And flung it into the void
And it froze there,
Among lonely stars eternally far away,
Almost lost to the dark.

its a cigarette singeing the fingertips
sirens crying to a deaf ear
a hammer smashed against necrotic flesh

can’t you feel that?


                                                      you are a wind that rails against the moon:
                                                                                    thousands of miles away
                                                                  she cannot hear and cannot feel you
                                                                                she can see but never touch

                                                    how do i feel after so much disaster?
                                                                         what world could we have?
                                                                                              what could we be?


old callouses thicken and spread
but the blood inside is dead
and the feeling fades
pressing again draws no special ache

bruises blooming like
lies from your lips like
nightshade in the dark

tell me the truth that i might feel the wind
the burn, the pain, the blood.
chip off the callouses and expose my skin
melt my heart to feel your infirmity

                                                    or else entomb me in the stone
                                                                                            of my own making.

We have the kinda love
where I can only love you from afar,
feel you in the lyrics of songs that
I fight the urge to send your way,
see you in the stanzas of poems
I desire to imitate.
I am forced to love you like the
vegetation loves the sun;
distant but omnipresent,
refusing to forget you even in
the depths of winter.

If I was there,
I'd whisper to your ear how much you mean to me
If I was there,
I'd take you on dates so you'd be reminded of how true the first verse was
If I was there,
I'd hold you close and never let you go
If I was there,
I'd laugh with you at our silly jokes and goofiness
If I was there,
I'd show you how proud of and happy I am for you whenever you achieve
If I was there,
I'd hug you whenever you feel depressed
If I was there,
I'd wipe your tears, and comfort you whenever you cry
If I was there,
I'd be able to tell you how sorry and hurt I am for hurting you

Oh if I was there,
You'd realize I'd fall apart without you

Oh if I was there,
You'd know that you're the best **** thing that's ever happened to me

I know, its hard to believe
But one day,
I'll finally see you and be able to hug you tight, bearing the weight of those days just missing you
And I wouldn't have to say
If I was there

Oh, how must a star not suffer,
seeing all that pain and tears;
yet bound it is, to it's throne up high,
can do nothing, except to shine;
and to sing it's silent songs.

It wants to keep save,
all those soles it holds dear;
but far away, it has to linger,
and can only hope, it's light
will reach those lonely hearts, at night.

Wind makes us sway
like dancing trees in the rain
washing away the pain of tomorrow and yesterday
dreams of bigger and better on the horizon
But falling farther and farther from reason
Questions as i see your phantom pass me'
yet you are alive, and you here with me just a fantasy
where has the time gone?
Long passed the time where you thought of me
for now i am nothing
Just a distant memory