i escaped 2,226 miles away

in hopes of finding
what i've been missing

in hopes of escaping
your
deadpan
tight-lipped
cold stare

in hopes of
peace

what i've been missing
all along
is me

overshadowed by the
hatred of myself
built by you

overshadowed by the
thoughts of suicide

why would i want
to be me when
my own family doesn't
seem to want me

and i know i'm not
the only one with a
story like that but

knowing so doesn't really make
this much easier to handle

i will admit that
i've had a lot of help
and i'm beyond lucky
to have the family i chose

they teach me things like

just because you used to be
doesn't mean you have to be

and

patience and kindness can
tear down the tallest walls

the ones i’ve spent my whole
life building just so i didn't
have to feel all of that **** again

but i’ve been
getting better at getting better
at 2,226 miles away

i think i’ll stay

We, the children of today
and the adults of tomorrow
will guide this world
enhance and refine it
we, the generation of miracles
will go forth
and destroy the word impossible
the destined ones
who will know all
blessed my god

Why did I choose you?
Out of all the others, you were the one who drew my attention.
Even when I felt like I didn't care,
My emotions were brought back by your overwhelming words.
Such chocolate brown hair.
A bright smile to flow throughout the room.
Puzzling faces that just brighten my day.
Must you be so cute?
It's irritating to see such perfection in just one person.
I never knew you'd be the one, but I'm glad you were.

"What Else"

If i have to live a little bent
From the common straight and narrow

Disparity of inner vision
Is acceptable to me now

How better to peer beyond the walls
Of socially formed realities

This sight is governed as my bones
Unconscious physics of life mostly

Yet joints i have and mind waves too
All of we mysterious and deep

Nothing new can pass the pen a face
Is but a face for all that

But to sing the tones revealed in clouds
Of thought that are the wellspring of this

May add a drop of compassion to
The ocean of sentient beings

Then what is there for me to do but
Seize the task with open hand and write?

"his twinkling emerald eyes, meet mine"

And when I turn back
the first thing I see
were his eyes
eyes shining like stars
his emerald eyes
which looked straight at me
with a force
I’ve never before felt.
And in that moment,
I knew
he was my chosen one.

Because one man died
You can live again.
Are you living in peace?
With power so great, it must be that
God is by your side.
Nothing can escape his love.
Will you bear your cross?
Stop all the evil within
You.