My consciousness has been elusive— Most thoughts are intrusive. Subconscious stays refusive. I breathe in and eat up nature, hoping it’ll be my savior— Turn all my bad memories into Distorted visualizations and vapors.
i’d really love to thank her for being so, so strong. for not taking our life when everything was wrong. i don’t know how she did it, the flashbacks paralyze me still. must have been nothing less than strength of will. even sometimes now i’d really like to back out but i hear that small girl screaming, “we can’t just give up now!”
is this what it feels like to be a fossil in the making? to have pebbles, sand and grit swept slowly on top of me. not to mention the crushing and deafening of miles of water pressing it all down to bury me.
but sometimes sometimes there's relief and light when someone digs through the weight to reveal the shadow of the creature that once lay there. but then that husk is reduced to cinders in a mountain of others. and i guess you could say that 'power station' is adulthood. or life.