I walk into my room and kick the heater over to stop it from blowing hot air in my room. It's boiling in here. I kick off my pants and lay on my bed. *Why is life so hard?

That moment when you're caught off guard and you suddenly see the face of the one you used to love.

You repeatedly steal glances at that said person and just miss everything about that them. The way you hug and you feel, the warmth, security.

The way you hold hands. So tight and like never wanting to let each other go, holding on and feeling the tips of every finger intertwined with yours.

The way you'd stroke through every hair strand and feel it ever so nice as it glides through your hands.

The way you'd kiss those lips so soft and warm. When you kiss, you feel the love and you're sure, in that moment of blissful awestruck. You're sure that you've set your feelings for this person.

But, it wasn't just about the physical things you miss about the one you used to love.
It's also about the emotional investment you have that was wasted and gone with the wind.

As you stare at the face of the one you used to love, you remember every moment you had and feelings that came along with it. And you're sure, in that moment.. You still have set your feelings for this person, and it's not going to fade away any time soon.

A l m o s t
Is that all we are meant to be
To come so far, get so close
Whoever said love is free?
Open your eyes, really look
Look at the way I see you
Like you're all I've ever wanted
I wish to be that for you
Not just an almost

I've touched your hand
And you've touched mine
I've been in your arms
Every single time
We've danced and sung
Laughed and loved
Looked in your eyes, smiled
I'm so much more than an almost
P l e a s e

I almost said it.

But it wouldn't have been saying it.

Why am I such a coward......

No pressure?

She said:
I'm ready now -
Ready to be
in love

He said:
Someday, soon.
You will meet someone
who will constantly
and continually
move you.

She thought:
Not you?

He thought:
Please
let it be
me.

I want you, but I'm okay with your essence
Basking in your scent long after your presence
The pursuit of my happiness
Seems to wrapped up in your arms
Yet I'm wrapped up
And you seem to be gone
Our fate is as good as whitewashed
Unwritten history in the making
Sanitized love
I give and you're taking
I should never be ok with half
When whole is available
I was ok with your essence
Until it became untraceable

Maybe there is a reason
That I remember the curve of your smile
And the sound of your laugh

Or the way my hands traced
Over your face
To just know your skin
To feel the laughter lines
I had created

You knew how to warm me with
your body
And your heart
Still I'm remaining cold
With my guard fiercely in place

There are barriers between us
Preventing the words
That are ready to bleed from my veins
Or anything to break through
That might save this

Those three words you spoke
Set off the smoke

That put our flame out
As my mind filled with doubt

Bringing out chapter to an end

I guess you're still a *friend