All I know has failed me
Caused me grief and pain
They say I should have learned by now
That the fault lies in my brain

I will try to correct my thinking
Disconnect some wires in my head
So that instead of being hopeful
I'll just suspect the worst instead

I hurt on a daily basis
So maybe it's time to accept
Redirect the patterns in my mind
So that agony I will expect

That self, that version
The one who's been forgotten
The one they never accepted
The one who was hidden
That inner self, that inner nerd,
The one without no emotion...

Time has come!
The song has been sung!
No point in running no more...
The time has come..

Time to unleash the "one"
Time to be truly "me" !!!

I am looking for validation,
To staying focus on the right path.
Or, at least, in the right direction.

I am reaching for your approval,
Some sign for your judgement.
Balancing out the principles & merit.

I am waiting on acceptance,
Love of belonging somewhere
Rather than out in the world.

....Then I realized ....

I no longer need validation
I no longer want to seek approval
I no longer wait for acceptance

Expectations leads to disappointment
You said, “You could’ve done better.”
I know.
But you must know:
I can’t be everything you want.
I make mistakes too.
I hate how your expectations change
From person to person.
I just plain hate your expectations.
YOU NEVER GIVE ME A BREAK.
You give the breaks to my sister.
Why can’t I,
Just for once,
Be the one whose mistakes
Are okay.
The one
Who is proficient
Enough for you.
But you dwell on my errors.
YOU START YELLING.
You say I’m not trying hard enough.
Why should I?
I’LL NEVER MAKE YOU HAPPY ANYWAY.

My kind of love
is...
The kind of love that has no limits.
The kind of love that has no face.
The kind of love that shouldn’t take a lifetime to find
Nor should it be a race.
The kind of love that’s purely soul
The kind of love that will never get old
The kind of love I wish to win
The kind of love that is the happiest I’ve ever been.

if you don't accept me,
you don't accept youself,
if you don't accept yourself,
you don't love self.