I’m running out of ideas.
They never come to me.
I have to find them.
But they’re all just the same.
                            I don’t need help.
Going from place to place.
I always end up in the same spot.

Writing and writing.
Just to throw it away.

I light a cigarette.
Lean back and relax.

Clear my mind of everything.
But everything's the same.

I have a place for all my ideas.
But there’s nothing for me to find.
                                     It’s broken and old.
I’m left with only one thing on my mind,
And that’s filling up the empty jar I still hold on to.

I’m lost in a box of toys.
My childhood memories.
It’s little world for someone small,
Even a demon could fit inside.

I used to play with them.
But never did I realize
that they were the ones playing with me.
I'm a doll.

It was never a secret,
But it was something I could never speak of.
The voices I heard at night.
The shadows scaring me for life.

They wanted me to play, and play and play.
I was trapped in a corner of their twisted intentions.
I didn't give in to them.
I was calm but with a hint of fear.

Now I'm running in circles.
Getting chased by living things.
It’s still a little world for someone big,
Even a demon could stay.

Run. Hide. Repeat.
Scream and scream for them to stop.
No help, no listeners for my prayers.
It’s endless.

It should’ve been the opposite.
But I had to pay for my sins.
They put me back,
And closed the lit.

I was never a human to begin with.
I’m the doll that are meant to be abused.
Forever and ever.
I’m still lost in a box of toys.

You’ll have to be insane to
*feel sane.

it’s like i’m trapped inside of an oyster
hidden away from the world;
except i am not a precious pearl
waiting to be found

I fell and I fell,
I’m still falling.
Deeper and deeper down,
it’s endless.

I thought and I thought,
and I’m still thinking.
Forgetting and forgetting,
more and more.

Errors and errors,
you reside in my mind.
I’m getting blind and blind,
you’re the only one I see.

Colder and colder,
you kept the warmth.
Silence and silence,
you’re the only one I need.

Darker and darker,
you and me.
Abuse and abuse,
still you’re the one I choose.

Wounds and wounds,
can’t heal them all.
Sane and Insane,
that’s what we are.

Alone and alone,
time’s longer.
False and true,
I still love you.