If you take your life
I take mine too,
Because a life here on earth
isn't worth losing you.

i feel like a soul
trapped in a body
that is trapped in a mundane, sad life
and i need a weapon
to break this body open
so that my soul come spilling out and i can be free

oh what should my weapon be?
so many choices
so little time
before the time bomb in my mind explodes
leaving me a mess of thoughts and emotions
resurfacing repressed memories
makeitstopmakeitstopmakeitstop
the demons have been let out of their cage again
and they're here to play
tugging on my heartstrings
constricting my throat
crawling under my skin begging me to join them
it's so easy, you can do it i know you can just hold on tightly, pull the trigger, that's right, you're doing so well
we'll see you on the other side

I can create the
      New world
I'm capable of it
          and
Must do it even the
Whole world is not
With me.
This  is  the
  Confidence.

Putting in proper
           Place
Everything is OK
Even the entropy
            Of
The world becomes
             Zero

Silence
   and
Peace
  are
Bases
  of
Spirituality

Remembering
sad days
makes me happy,
I met
You there.

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*Piece by piece she picked herself up
Stitched each broken parts
Until she's whole again
There are holes and cracks
Marks and scars
But still, she's functional

Soon her tears will dry
Soon her soul will recover
Soon her wounds will heal

And when the healing process is over
She will be the best version of herself
That nobody expects her to be
Braver, stronger
Nobody can ever hurt her
Nobody can ever break her

Yes she will
She will recover
But she will be untouchable
Emotions will never consume her
And her heart
Her heart will turn into a stone