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Nov 2014 · 703
Raven, oh Raven
Bluejay Nov 2014
The embers have died
the fire is lost and gone,
all night she sat and cried,
for her, he spent his life to fawn.

She is the girl of any guy's dreams,
tall, pale, and long ebony hairs.
She belongs in the movie reams,
in love with the hero who really cares.

Alone she would hide away,
a ghost girl to the town and all,
at least it seemed that way,
until her life truly did fall.

He would give his life
just for one single kiss.
She would be the greatest wife
of all, she deserved eternal bliss.

So on this bleak, winter night
with strong, howling wind
snow covering the land in white,
each emotionless plant, twinned.

Out he ventured in fright,
filled with hopes to see
his love before she was out of sight,
or deprived of gay and glee.

Something over took
him, when he saw a soaring
raven, on the edge of the brook.
It jumped in the water that was roaring.

Intrigued and enticed,
he followed without will.
On the side was a body iced,
however heart beating still.

The body was his love,
the kind madden of his heart,
whom had been taken above,
despite his pain of her depart.

"Raven, oh Raven,
save him from his pain
and the love he's been cravin'
turn the snow to pouring rain."

This her soul cried
with everything it had;
completely unaware, she had died,
and why he was so sad.

How could he know
she would be alright and fine,
if his love he could not show,
nor could he say, "She's mine."

Don't expect a smile
from one who can only cry.
This pain will be more than a while,
cause now he decided he too must die.
Nov 2014 · 345
Go For It
Bluejay Nov 2014
Everyone knows
that you love her so much.
There are sparks without a touch
and the love only grows.

Dear friend,
she loves you too;
she's just waiting on you,
so the friendship won't end.

Four years,
that's how long you've waited
for a girl completely unjaded,
held back only by your fear.

Make a move,
tell her your little secret,
I promise she'll keep it.
See your together in this groove.

Love her,
love her at all rates
after all you are soul mates
of this I am more than sure.

Hand in hand,
for you this should be
its time for you to break free,
together as one you'll always stand.

So say
all that you feel
and know this love is real,
there's no risky price to pay.

Be yourself
she loves you as you are,
you are her superstar
perfect without wealth.

Do it now,
wait and the chance will fade
and I'll wonder if I should've stayed.
By the way, do not ask how.

He and she,
that's you two lovey dovey birds,
she blushes even without words,
together you should forever be.
Nov 2014 · 1.3k
Anti ode to a Spider
Bluejay Nov 2014
Anti ode to a spider
Oh, little spider,
how can you be so tiny
yet ever so scary?
Why are you always around
when nobody wants to see you?
On all my best days,
you show up and my heart races.
Oh, little spider,
how can you be seemingly
harmless yet ever so deadly?
Why is it I know fear
will do no good though I scream?
On the ground is where you belong,
not crawling up my leg.
Oh, little spider,
I will never be your friend.
And that's my anti ode to a spider.
Nov 2014 · 375
mirror Mirror
Bluejay Nov 2014
Mirror, mirror on the wall
who's the fairest of them all?
Oh her name is Madison Rene'
but what else can you say?

Tell me now, is she alone
has she ever had a home?
Is she a broken little kid
or is she a winning guy's bid?

Does anyone at all care for her
anyone who would show for sure?
Has she ever seen true love
even from someone up above?

Mirror, mirror on the wall
who's the kindest of them all?
It's that girl Madison Rene'
is she the only one with emotions at bay?

Tell me does this girl scare
does she know what its like to care?
Is she truly a kid at heart
or has her innocence been ripped apart?

Why is she so badly hurt,
how did she become their dirt?
When did this happen here
cause all her life she's hid in fear.

Mirror, mirror on the wall
who's the most broken of them all?
Of course it's this Madison Rene'
but will she ever be really okay?
Nov 2014 · 441
Devastation
Bluejay Nov 2014
The devastated people are
the seemingly happiest of all
but what happens if the fall
will they have gone down far?

Who's to say the sad
are the ones with the broken
hearts and souls wide open?

If a person is hurt
how can they pretend to be
so freaking lively and happy
yet be treated like dirt?

Well every single day
she puts on a huge smile
but it only lasts a while,
but has she ever been okay?

She is ever so fair
the beautiful kind of pale
her heart is for sale
and she has long dark hair.

Every morning she'll wake
with bright red eyes,
cause every night she cries,
but she'll smile for her sake.

She hides all she can
so they won't be able to see
the her without any glee,
though she doesn't have a single fan.

Walking down the lane
not one ray of light
with herself she must fight
to try and forget the pain.

Her goal is to lose,
to lose herself in
the world hidden within
and live in the blues.

But of course that's not it,
never will that be the story
and the world won't say sorry;
maybe for life she's just not fit.

Is this going to end,
will she continue to bleed,
will she get all that she needs
or for death will she fend.

Will she ever meet
somebody to love for real
or is that something she won't feel,
what fate will she greet?

The air is crisp and cool,
ebony and silver are the sky
hearts and souls long to fly
the ground is painted in crimson drool.

Where is she now?
Who is she anyway?
Oh it's that Madison Rene'
I see why death's her vow.
Nov 2014 · 333
Spiders and Dreams
Bluejay Nov 2014
Along a never ending path
I was walking without hope,
there was no reason to hurry
so I trekked on a while.
Until I came to a fork
in the road, I could take
left or right, either or,
then I saw a spider
strolling along side me.
He looked at me and smiled
"where are you headed?
Which will you choose,
cause one wrong move and
your life you will lose."
By his voice I was taken,
a spider that could talk
oh my, so not right in this place.
"Well, which way would you go?"
I mocked with anger
feeling the heat of deceit.
"That I cannot answer,
because this path is yours,
I already lived a full life,"
He answered speaking
more than just wisdom.
"Then why are you on
the same path as me,
running away like I am?"
I asked enthralled in rage
that spider was
wiser than even I.
But I turned left and he stayed
back, lingering in the silence
my rage paralyzed his words.
Before I got too far along
I turned back with a smile
thanked him and walked on.
Only a few moments later
I arrived in the land of
candy cane trees and
bubble gum skies.
Thank you Mr. Spider,
I am happy yet again.
Nov 2014 · 1.7k
writing cows
Bluejay Nov 2014
Who knew cows could write?
I barely knew they could fight,
But I was ever so wrong
Cause here comes one singing a love song.

What is it, click, clack, moo
Or is it more like Dr. who?
What is this world coming to
Cause one day cows will be ruling you.
Nov 2014 · 584
Bye bye Froggy
Bluejay Nov 2014
There once was a frog,
just a normal frog,
sitting on a plain log
until along came a dog.

He was speckled and green
but the dog was ever so mean
so goodbye froggy green
don't mess with a king
who wants you as his lunch scene.

And that's our dear friend's end.
Nov 2014 · 232
Realization
Bluejay Nov 2014
Snowflakes are dancing in the wind
its been a month since you did the deed.
I thought forever your voice was all I'd need,
but then you went and killed yourself.

I went for a walk to clear my head
but the voices came and their message
I could not even dream to do nor defy,
they told me go to your grave and see you're dead.

Onward, I trekked into the blinding snow,
to the tomb covered and laced in flowers.
Yes, I tried to retreat however the voices have powers,
those powers that make a person go insane.

All of a sudden there was a flash of lightning,
a gust of wind that nipped at my very soul,
then rain began descending, calling my name as it did
I looked up and an old couple was down the way, fighting.

"I took my life cause I stole yours!"
The old man said watching as the girl bled,
"No! You listened to their lies and claimed me dead!"
She called noticing the tears welling in his eyes.

"Mads, what was I supposed to do?
It had been four days since you were awake!"
He protested with fire in his eyes, passion in his heart,
"I always said I'd die for you, cause I love you!"

She shook her head, bit her lip, and screamed,
"Wait! You should have waited on me!
Then if I was really dead, you'd be able to see!"
Away she tried to run, but he grabbed her arm.

A moment later they were sharing a passionate kiss,

"Who cares how we once lived? We're together now,"
he smiled as he held her hands in his,
"Let's love and spend death in eternal happiness."

"I was so young and you just left me alone,
so innocent in a world so cold. How could you
even pretend I'd know what the hell to do?"
Her shameful voice cried, realizing now, why he died.

With another flash of lightning covering the sky
the couple was gone and I noticed it was us.
I saw why you left me and that I really am insane,
I dropped to my knees, called your name, and said goodbye.

Thank you for making me happy,
thanks for breaking me too.
Nov 2014 · 323
A Poet's soul
Bluejay Nov 2014
Every rose has a thorn,
but they are so beautiful.
How can something so small
be so extremely versatile?

Each one has a story,
they'll all be glad to share.
It's just so sad to know
that nobody would ever care.

You know what, words,
these words are pathetic.
There is no use to this pain
and I hate people empathetic.

All hearts are black,
so whats the point of love now?
Nobody will admit it
but we are all already dead somehow.

The world is ending,
not from 2012, but greed.
There were warnings long ago
warnings nobody had the sense to heed.

Oh forget this crap,
forget my words and all about me.
I think it'd be better if I died
and went off to forever be free...
Nov 2014 · 386
I'll Always Love You
Bluejay Nov 2014
Don't leave me.

Not unless you want a war,
this cant be the time or place
and its been years since our
last encounter face-to-face.

Don't say goodbye.

Not unless you want to ****,
**** the soul of a little girl
who's not so little anymore
and still has space to uncurl.

Don't push it.

Not unless you long for anger,
cause I will bust and you will lose
I'm stronger than I look but
uglier than you'd think to choose.

Don't ask why.

Not unless you want to know,
that the girl you love is dead
and that she's forever been broken
because she couldn't get you outta her head...

Here's the end.

Because you said goodbye
and you really did move on
it hurts like hell, but its what
you wanted so I'll be ok while you're gone.

Just know:

I'll always love you
Nov 2014 · 266
My Death
Bluejay Nov 2014
One dark and stormy night,
I was sitting in my room
all alone as usual,
when all of a sudden...

"Welcome to the end,
here is where the truth is revealed.
Where He is found,
and we will say our final farewells.

As we will part for the last time,
I hope you have learned the secrets.
I hope you are brave
I hope you are ready to learn the true story.

Please listen and listen well,
because once I finish
I will never speak again,
This will be the last "the end"

I won't repeat this,
and you must be warned,
you will cry,
You will be scared.

This is where
you come in
and now,
let us begin, the end."

Came from out of no where,
it was a deep scratchy voice.
Then the next thing I knew,
I was in the land of fiery pain.

I don't know what happened,
but this is the story
of my unexpected, long awaited
journey to the land of hell.
nightmare
Nov 2014 · 276
Christmas Kills
Bluejay Nov 2014
Look, its not my fault.
I want to cry,
She woud give me jobs,
But no chance to try.

Christmas is always
The death of me.
To make maters worse,
They never let me be.

Today I met a guy,
Who fell in love
With me, but I dont
Care I wanna die above.

People keep saying
If I were to die
That they would only
Be able to cry.

They say I am pretty,
Some think I am sweet,
Others say I'm the devil
Cause they cant take the heat.

Whatever choice is yours
Get me out of here.
Dont tell me its death
That I should really fear.

Let Christmas come and go,
Tell me its love or hate.
But you cant make me stop,
For that its far too late.

I'll drown in these painful
Tears and poison my soul.
Cause I am done with
Sitting for life to take a toll.

Thank you Christmas,
For finally taking it away.
I really dont think
That I could last another day.
Nov 2014 · 239
New
Bluejay Nov 2014
New
Its a new year,
guess that means
its time to try
something new to me.

So I'm going to
say something
I've never said
before, to anyone.

Hello and who
the hell are you?
What are you
doing in my life?

Why are you
reading this
piece of my soul?
Will I get it back?

Am I really supposed
to try and be nice?
Or am I able to live
like I've always wanted?

You said I'm sweet,
innocent and not
going to cause trouble,
but my god you're wrong.

Someone else said
I am a monster
and they don't know
why I am still alive.

I wanted to
rip their head
off and run,
but I didn't.

So once again
hello and who
the hell are you?
Why are you here?
Nov 2014 · 312
Angel
Bluejay Nov 2014
When she smiles
the whole world lights up
and it lasts a while
that will never end.

But she sparkles and glows
when she laughs and even
those in heaven and below
are filled with joy.

Gloom and doom
don[t stand a chance
when she is in the room,
so don't even try it.

I wish you could see
the twinkle in her eye
and all that she brings me,
whenever she is happy.

No matter what she does
its cute and I wish to
make this last forever cause
she is the best thing to me.

Once shes up there's no
turning back and be ready,
cause my god will there be a show
with her you have to have fun.

She has a halo and wings
and shes always in a good mood
I love how her laugh rings
cause she is my angel.
Nov 2014 · 285
Alone
Bluejay Nov 2014
The wind can blow and the snow can fall,
I'll watch as the land is covered
in a sparking, dazzling white blanket.
But here I'll stay, once and for all.

I'm tired of standing alone,
waiting for someone to be my friend,
like you did so many years ago.
Though, then, I was without a home.

You built me up and showed me fun,
told me you'd always be by my side
but somewhere along the way, you
ran away and our friendship was done.

I decided to run away like you,
however I ran from everything
and everyone even myself.
You made it seem like the thing to do...

For days on end I ran away,
through the blinding storm and
freezing cold, scared outta my mind.
Yet I longed for pain to stay.

Somehow I found a big crooked tree,
sturdy and calm with nothing
for miles around, except a grassy ground.
I sat down and made it a part of me.

Forever this would be my home
hiding me in the shadows of its
huge trunk and letting me stay
quiet and alone.
Nov 2014 · 279
the Beginning of Nothing
Bluejay Nov 2014
I watched from the comfort of my bed
as rain drizzled down my frost painted
window in the dead of winter's night.
The silky sheets below were red
with golden flowers, before I fainted,
ready to give up the fight.
When I came back all was white and black,
however nothing else made sense
and I was lost in a new technological world.
In came a women who gave me flack
then a man erupting in lava, hence,
me screaming even after my head swirled.
A moment later the man came back in
smiled and said, "you are radiant as the sun,
you are sweet as nectar of a daisy,
why are you here in this crazy place?"
"I am nothing, this is the hell I must live in,
besides I am gloomy and have never had fun.
I'm arrogant and so pathetically lazy,"
I answered and eyed the scars dancing on his face.
He chuckled and gasped, "YOU?! Really in Hell?
I can't see that being something real,
so quit the act and come with me;
I'll show you something, you don't wanna miss."
"Never has my life gone well,
all my life pain was all I could feel.
Just **** me, set me free
and okay, as long as its not bliss."
I responded and crawled off the cold table,
I shrugged and followed quietly,
well as quietly as I was able.
He kept joking and I laughed more than slightly.
Eventually, we got to a room
with no lights gleaming, had a bed and two
beat up chairs somewhere in the space.
He smiled again, though sly now, evil beginning to loom,
"Come on, sit down, I've been waiting for you,"
I did as he said, a moment later we were face
to face sharing a passionate kiss,
that tasted sticky sweet, and lasted forever.
"I told you it wouldn't be a miss, here's true bliss,"
He smiled with darkness in his soul, time to sever
all today's memories from my ****** up head,
because then he vanished and I saw
the real hospital and colors again
it was the beginning of nothing, so ta-ta
cause here's the end of something that isn't something at all.
Nov 2014 · 316
addicted and fallen
Bluejay Nov 2014
She took a wrong turn on
the road to some see me,
ended up in California with hell to pay.
He handed her something to try
that made her feel so free.
Then she did it every night and all day,
claiming it was all she had.
Apparently she can;t see
she has family and friends
and of course she's always have me.
Her life was filled with smoke,
ash, pain, and she fell down the drain
now that her life is nothing
at all without smoke
and that **** they call dope.
I watched as she fell
faster and faster by the second,
nothing could stop her until
she finally reached inevitable hell.
Though she had no money
to pay the fairy man, yet he took
her away because her life was
already gone. Now she's stuck down below
never to be seen again, except in my book...
Nov 2014 · 222
Star
Bluejay Nov 2014
You said that we
are doomed to be ******.
Because apparently,
somewhere along the way
of secret phone calls
at two am and
kisses out in the rain
before the school bell rang,
and all the secrets that we told,
and all the blood promises made,
we never thought to ask
each other for our names.

So we called each other
dreamer and star,
but star, I miss you.
Star, I love you.
Star, you are the brightest
star in my life and
I think that maybe,
just maybe somewhere
between our runs at dusk
and our walks til dawn
I might have fallen
in love with you.

But now you are gone,
and here I am, all alone...
waiting for a hero
that will never show.
Why'd you have
to meet the knife?
Why did you take your life
that night?
Why did I fall for someone
I knew would never stay?
Will I see you again one day?
Nov 2014 · 349
The World's Grace
Bluejay Nov 2014
Listen to the thunder,
hear the steady beat of the drum.
Watch the lightning,
as it dances across the ebony sky.
Advise the warnings of the rain,
they are wise, much wiser than I.
See the trees sway,
in the cool, crisp breeze,
as though they were praying.

The flowers will thank you
for your kindness.
They can sense emotion
through the Earth's vibrations.
All the bugs will
soon come out to play,
for they love a moistened stage.

Little kids will splash
in the crystal muddy waters.
Moms and dads will fight
uselessly against the games.

I will be smiling,
maybe singing.
Rain helps me think,
it led to this piece.

When it's all over
the sun will shine yet again
inviting birds to chirp
and butterflies to cloud the skies.

And this is our fabulous world,
it's nice to know we haven't
destroyed everything that once was.
Nov 2014 · 258
Let's Play a Game
Bluejay Nov 2014
I am going to find myself,
and so are you.

Let's play a game,
if I win you are free
if you win I'll **** me.

I want you to wear
something colorful or crazy,
to laugh and smile
just for you to be happy.

Come on you can do it,
be happy with me
that's the game.

I am going to find myself
and so are you.

We will play a game,
and I know you will gain fame,
It's quite easy.

All you have to do
is dry the tears,
stop the worry
there's nothing to fear.

It's really fun,
once you get to see
you too can be happy.

I found myself,
the game is over.

Thank you for playing,
I hope you enjoyed it
did you find you?
Nov 2014 · 238
God and the Girl
Bluejay Nov 2014
Didn't I call your name
before I got pulled in too deep?
Didn't I prove myself to you
when I saved that poor little boy?

"You did," A deep voice said,
"But it was your time.
You needed to leave that place
because you ruined my plans."

Oh I see, I messed your plans up
and you call yourself God?
Oh and why do you show up now
but I called your name for 12 long years?

"Well, yes," He spoke again,
"I couldn't do those things,
well, I could, however I felt
it was unnecessary, like you."

Wait, what? I was unnecessary,
yet I saved people and was good?
Wait, I was a mistake to you,
wasn't I? You never cared."

"I cared, just not for
the games you played.
I did not create you for
you to want to die," It continued.

Sir, with all due respect
it was your fault I did that.
Sir, with all due respect
I detest you now.

"No, my dear," He chuckled,
"You do not lothe me,
no, no that's not it at all,
I banish you to Hell."

Okay, do that if you must
I don't give a ****.
Okay? I'm done playing at this
I called on you a time too many.

"Please sweetie," The man added,
"Why can't you see,
I did what I had to do.
The rest was up to you."

Say whatever you want,
I'll gladly die again.
Say whatever makes you feel good
I'm not buying it.
short story prose ppoem thing
Nov 2014 · 747
For One Person
Bluejay Nov 2014
I'm not losing another one.
No. I'm not losing you too
you say that it won't happen,
but I can see through you.

Honey, don't go, please,
there's so much you don't know,
you say that you care about me
but there's pain I don't show.

I need you, you kept me alive,
go away, and I'll surely die
you say I'm okay but you've only
seen me when I start to cry.

Darlin' I love you so much,
please don't leave me alone
you say I'm your little sister
but you don't know I'm without a home.


I'm not losing another one.
No. I'm not losing you too
you say that it won't happen,
but I can see through you.
For Alex (Nei)

i still refuse to lose you
Nov 2014 · 746
A Soldiers tale
Bluejay Nov 2014
It's been two weeks too long,
she's crying, hurting all alone
just waiting to hear him on the phone.

Three years without him
is far too long, especially now
when it's too bad to even wow.

"Baby, I need you hear,
Timmy's gone too
away with death he flew.

I lost my job
and they took my heart,
no more can we be apart.

Love, I need you,
where are you
and what can we do?"

She screamed and
oh my god she cried,
for fear he too died.

You see, I was off at war
a war we weren't meant to fight
though we tried with all our might.

The day passed away
night inevitably came
but she was no longer sane.

I thought the moon brought hope
I guess that is not always true,
cause she got even more dark blue.

Then she found a knife,
"Babe, I'm done waiting,
look at the time I'm wasting.

Here's goodby to my
prince that never showed!"
In it went and her breath slowed.

Just then the door opened
and I walked in, "Honey, I'm home!
And oh I've been so alone!"

Down the dark hall, I went,
into our room where I
saw more than should any guy.

The love of my life
on the floor covered in blood
the room drenched in mud.

On the bed was one
unfinished note
and have a root bear float.

"Dear Marshall,
Late last night, Timmy died,
and Jacob really lied.

Please come home soon
we really need you here
I'm living life in fear...

Are you okay?"
Is all that it said,
I whispered, "Me too, I'm dead..."

I sat down and held her tight,
sang her one last lullaby
and for both of us it was goodbye.
i know way too many people in the united states military
Nov 2014 · 657
Pretty Girl #3
Bluejay Nov 2014
Pretty girl, pretty girl,
you bought their lies.
Pretty girl, pretty girl,
dry your sweet eyes.

What did they say
this time honey?
Was it just play,
did they really mean it?

The clouds are gone,
why sit and cry?
there's a happy song,
can't you sing along?

Pretty girl, pretty girl,
sew that heart.
Pretty girl, pretty girl,
it's not too apart.

Come on girly, smile,
I'll laugh with you.
You've still got a while
not everything is pain.

It's just a little rain,
everything's gonna be okay.
Just maybe not the same
in every little way.

Pretty girl, pretty girl,
get up, please...
Pretty girl, pretty girl.
they aren't all ******.

If you stay in bed
he can't make it better.
So he's got her instead,
is that what you want?

I'm done here,
I've tried, its no use
have no fear
they say they'll stay.

Pretty girl, pretty girl,
I really, really tried.
Pretty girl, pretty girl,
they only ever lied.
for katie ware
myself - from a friends perspective
Nov 2014 · 1.1k
Moonstone Baby
Bluejay Nov 2014
One set of triplets
and four singles
born this morning at
about half past two.

Five new mothers
seven new kids,
wow, that's huge.

As the moms and dads
sat giving babies love
one stood away from the rest.
A baby girl refused to cry
and her eyes wide open
from the very start.

She was the picture perfect
baby girl, with blonde hair
and glistening blue eyes.

The lack of tears
brought everyone fears.

Her mother remembered a legand
depicting a child of such beauty
yet would not cry and then
began to wither and die...
So the legendary baby was
held while parents wept.

Then the baby's eyes
turned foggy and the babe
joined them for days.

This time alive,
alive for good.

Chances are in this
day and age such a thing
would be absurd,
but once the family sobbed
the little girl began to whine.

The child of the story was
given a necklace of moonstone
that he wore the rest of his life,
and so was the little girl,
for which Moonstone became her name.
Short story poem prose combo thing.
Nov 2014 · 234
Random - Love Poem
Bluejay Nov 2014
You changed me -
Not the way you'd think-
But you made me happy -
And tickled me pink -

Who are you -
How did you do it -
And what did you do -
Oh, can I tell you a secret -

I think you should know -
I love you -
Please don't go -
Don't you love me too -

Oh well, I'll just stop -
Cause I think I am spewing -
Way to much and it'll flop -
Yes, it's only hurt I'm cooing -

Thank you for it all -
I'm glad we met -
Here, I'll end the call -
Now that I don't fret -
for alex (nei)
Nov 2014 · 190
Let's Go
Bluejay Nov 2014
The sun will rise -
The moonlight will fade -
I am ready to run -
and forget their lies -
let's leave the world behind -
Follow that butterfly -
Just have fun -
who knows what we'll find -
I'll be yours -
And you'll be mine -
We'll laugh and love -
so step away from the doors -
off we go -
to see this place -
all its beauty -
or simply watch the show -
For Alex (Nei)
Nov 2014 · 358
How Poets Forget
Bluejay Nov 2014
Maybe I write to rhyme
in meter and fair time,
I'll use cryptic phrasing
to describe my vision hazing.
Perhaps I'll run away
inside the words I say,
or bring you back
and not give you flack.
I could alliterate life
and cloak the fearsome strife.
But tonight I'll write
to forget our fight;
imagining your smile
or us playing a while.
You don't know it
but I am a poet,
wrapping you up in
my web, not so thin
Nov 2014 · 307
I Wonder
Bluejay Nov 2014
I'll watch as the moon comes up
and the sun goes down,
it reminds me of us that night
we sang and danced all around.

I wish we could re-paint
our lives and the one we shared,
but that's really hard to do when
there wasn't a second that you cared.

The moon reflects my heart,
I try so hard to be the sun
yet somehow I'm always short
not to mention that I'm no fun.

I'll listen as they chatter about
all the silly things going on
around this little old town
nothing matters now that you're gone.

I wonder if you miss me
even half as much as I miss you,
cause I cry by the river every night
kinda like you used to do.

The water looks so beautiful
why am I poisoning it with my tears?
Is this what you did too
or am I just succumbing to my fears?

I'll smell the cupcakes across the street
but I promise I won't buy one,
nope not without you here with me
in fact I think I'm actually done.

Done with everything,
pain, crying, mostly though love.
I can't take it here alone
and forget the tale with the dove...

That only makes me think
about you more and more,
I'll just rebuild the wall
only this time there is no door.

Do the sun and moon
also feel love's everlasting pain
since they are so far away,
are their tears what we call rain?
For Alex (nei)

i hate it when you disappear for so long
Nov 2014 · 329
We Are
Bluejay Nov 2014
Monday is still asleep,
Tuesday tries to wake him gently,
when she can.
Wednesday doesn't know what to think,
he's very emotional.
Thursday councils him to no avail.
Friday is quite a handful,
but a cute one,
for she is the baby.
Saturday tries to be a "good boy"
yet he doesn't even know what that is.
Sunday, well, she is a stay at home mom,
that lost her husband to a war way back when. She prays day and night that
her children will have good lives,
but she does not believe it is possible.

January is the oldest of the months,
though he doesn't really care.
February is a hoplessly lost romantic.
March is lucky, but far too realistic for her taste. April dances across the lawn
in the rain
and smiles all the time,
even when she is not happy in the slightest.
May is haughty and he doesn't get it.
June sings songs outside of July's window,
he is trying to win her heart.
August, the loner,
does well in school and carries a million issues. September secretly loves him,
but is too shy to say.
October the prankster pranks us all
but never gets into trouble.
November is thankful
for the tears and laughs alike
but not for himself.
As for myself,
I am December,
they say I am low-key with a heart of gold,
but I think not.

In a way we are a family
and we mean the world to each other.
Though we do not share the blood,
we fight,
we cry,
we bleed,
we tear each other apart
when the moment feels right.
One day people will know
just who we are, but for now,
I guess this is as good as it gets.
Nov 2014 · 372
I Hate You
Bluejay Nov 2014
I hate the way i trusted you
I hate that youre not a good friend
And youre never very kind
I hate the way you let things end

I hate your awful laugh
And the way you make me cry
I hate the way you always joke
I hate that you wouldnt let me die

I hate your stupid neon shoes
I hate the names you called me
I hate all your ******* friends
Theyre just so **** creepy

I hate that you arent around
And that you never did call
Mostly though I hate the way I dont hate you
Not even a little, not even at all
For Marshall Jacobs

2011
Nov 2014 · 283
Burnt
Bluejay Nov 2014
Fire rises yet again
everyone thinks this
is the final end.

Ask me if I think so
I'll only shrug because
I really don't care - or know.

Sorrow, agony, pain,
that sound of a broken heart
and crying in the pouring rain,
these are the only things I know now.

Tell me that this
is what they call the end
there's nothing I will miss
so it doesn't faze me as it
would do to you,yet again.

They came here before
and burnt everything
to the bottomless floor.

Still it is all black
with ash everywhere imaginable,
there's only one thing it lacks,
and that would be you.

Since this place
is my lifeless heart.
Nov 2014 · 206
Just a storm
Bluejay Nov 2014
Listen as the wind does softly blow
stay quiet and it will tell you
all that one will need to know.

Stay still, stay here, you'll be alright
it's just a little storm, nothing bad,
it'll only last one tiny night.

See the lightning, watch her dance
she makes them all smile just look
it seems like they are in a trance.

Shush darlin' don't you cry,
it's just a game that they play
up in the midnight sky.

Oh, you feel the thunder boom,
and you think it's going to
break into your little room.

Don't worry babe, it'll be okay,
I'm here with you, have no fears
'cause I'm here for you, I'll stay.

This storm is protecting you
since daddy went away and
you really shouldn't be so blue.

It's okay, just go to sleep,
there's nothing to hurt you
not even the secrets that you keep.
For alex (Nei)
Nov 2014 · 382
Stormy Thoughts
Bluejay Nov 2014
The lightning will flash
so thunder can pound
but I know that I
know I am safe and sound.

Although I do wish that
you weren't quite so far
because things would be
warmer if I were with my star.

I miss you night and day
I wish things weren't this way
so maybe I'd know the truth
and what you meant to say.

The wind will blow
so the drops can fall
but I'm alright even
though this place is small.

God wouldn't let me
die just because a storm
surly he wouldn't take me
before she is born.

She will be good,
she will grow up strong
as soon as this passes
and I hear a better song.

Love, come find us,
we've always waited here
get to us please
we're losing to fear.

The lightning will flash
so the thunder can pound
but this time I don't think
we are safe or sound.
Nov 2014 · 705
Cloud watching
Bluejay Nov 2014
Lying here watching
All the clouds going by
I can't think of
Any better days.

~I see a unicorn~

Don't tell me that
They don't exist
Because I know they do.

~Theres a mermaid~

I've seen her before,
Swimming in the lake
And drifting through
My beautiful mind.

~Ooh twin faries~

Maybe they will
Grant me a wish.

~My favorite, the phoenix~

The soft green grass
And brilliant baby blue sky
Dotted with these friends
Are the perfect companions
For a gorgeous day...

I think I'll be back tomorrow.
An old piece. very old
Nov 2014 · 421
Our Phone Calls
Bluejay Nov 2014
You say that you
don't want to
hear it,
any of it.
Not these words
so delicatly spun
like the web
of an ebony widdow
or the rays of
marvelous golden sunlight.
So I guess
you will never
listen to anything
that I say,
since these words
come from my
very soul,
as do those.
I guess I can
never
again say
I love you
I miss you,
or even goodbye.
So I'll just sit
here
and listen to
the sound of your
breath dancing
through wires
and landing so softly
on my ear,
just one last time.
Then you will never
here this crap
again,
or any crap again
from me.
For Taylor Hocutt

I miss you so much
Nov 2014 · 578
Thatched Sunflower Ceiling
Bluejay Nov 2014
Off in a place
with walls of secret words
carpeted in sheets of moonstone
and a ceiling of thatched sunflowers
resides a girl.

This is not a place
for an ordinary girl,
who parties till midnight
and runs off with boyish men;
no, no, no.
So she is not an ordinary girl,
who acts then speaks.

In fact, for being
a red head she hardly speaks
at all. She has crystal blue eyes,
and the body of a ballerina;
though she has never been athletic.

And in this place
she hides.

Away from the chaos
of family or friends,
away from the pain
of broken hearts and
lost wishes.

Her voice is strong
though her will is weak.
People take her for granted
and leave her on the street.

But this place is hers,
to weep and to think.
Too bad I am her and
it is in my head...
sunflowers start showing up in my work when im depressed. i dont know why. sorry
Nov 2014 · 322
Hey Love
Bluejay Nov 2014
Hey Love, I miss you,
when are you coming to visit
me again, in our tiny little town.

The streets are busier
and no one seems as nice
now that you are gone.

Hey Love, I need you,
how are you today and
are you still smiling?

Children throw sticks and stones
at animals and at me, their
parents to mind it now.

Hey Love, I love you,
why do you have to be
so far away all the time?

The sun burns too bright
the nights too cool
without you by my side.

Hey Love,
will I ever see
or hear from you, again?
For Alex (Nei)

it would be nice if you found the time to visit
Nov 2014 · 338
Our secret Words
Bluejay Nov 2014
Your silence kills
me...
Your words somehow heal
me.
But it seems you
have nothing left to
say,
like you've used up
all the words you
ever had and
you
used them all up on
me...
Does that mean
that us talking
with our language
the way we used to
is a good thing?
Are you going to
stay
or once again will
you run away?
Please, please know
your silence kills
me...
I'll forever need
you.
I'll always love
you
and our secret words.
For Taylor Hocutt
Nov 2014 · 179
Only us
Bluejay Nov 2014
There is only us now,
we have an entire life
to lead, just for us.
Nobody to please,
nothing to do,
nowhere to go,
except have fun.
All we have left
is us and only us.
But if all we have is
this life time,
if all we have is
this love, our love,
if all we have is
only us;
then I'm okay with
what we have.
Because all I'll
ever want or need is
ever going to be
only us.
Nov 2014 · 855
Dance With Me
Bluejay Nov 2014
Dance with me tonight,
like we used to
under the moon
after sneaking out
in the summer time.

Dance with me,
hold me close,
like we did
on those cool September days
after school in the park.

Dance with me,
keep me warm,
like we loved
in the winters
snowy mornings
when school was canceled.

Dance with me,
kiss me
as the sun comes up
like we did
in the early spring
out in the meadows.

Dance with me,
one last time,
please...
For Alex (nei)
Nov 2014 · 521
Places of Hope
Bluejay Nov 2014
As I stand
at the water's edge,
the warm sand
packed between my toes,
I look out
as far as I can,
hopping that you
are doing the same
thinking of me
thinking of you.
The moon is
just barely
above the ocean,
we are standing
in the only two places
negativity
can never touch.
Because I know
one day soon,
when things are ready,
I will come home
and so will you.
I miss you,
but the serenity
reminds me you
are still alright.
I hope you
have a great night
and know
with all your heart
that I will
forever
love you.
For Alex (nei)
Nov 2014 · 273
Pure Beauty
Bluejay Nov 2014
The television went off
The children stopped in mid laugh
The mothers sat drinking lemonade
The fathers ran out of gas on their way home
The dogs crawled under the bed
The cats lept off the counter
The fire between us burned bright
You stood beside me and held tight
I kissed you and the world stood still,
as we danced in perfection
For Alex (Nei)

a dream i had
Nov 2014 · 581
Definition of Love
Bluejay Nov 2014
Adventurous impulses
Become beautiful
Creative
Delights.
Exhilarating
Falls for
Gathering that thing
Happiness we want.
Inquisitive innocence
Jaded so quickly,
Kindness rare as
Love seems to be.
Money the only goal
Nothing else matters now.
Occult beliefs
Plaguing the supposed
Quaint minds
Revealing so called
Sins and regrets.
Truth no longer
Ubiquitous as it was.
Violence
Wafting delicately
X-rays often needed.
Young wishes for
Zealous days shall remain.
An ABC poem
Nov 2014 · 1.4k
Hurricanes Did This
Bluejay Nov 2014
Water
that's all I see.

Rain
day in and day out.

Floods
everywhere and anywhere.

Plants
don't need so much.

Humans
don't know what to do.

Water
its literally all over.

Rain
its ruined a lot.

Floods
deeper by the moment.

Plants
drowning in their only friend.

Humans
going crazy unnecessarily.

Water
it needs to dry up.

Rain
it needs to stop.

Floods
they need to go away.

Plants
they need some sun.

Humans
they need to chill.
living in Louisiana during Hurricane Katrina really effects a poet
Nov 2014 · 550
Ghost Flashes
Bluejay Nov 2014
Unjaded swift memories
flood my inquisitive mind
easily yet forcefully.

Seeing you again,
watching you smile,
hearing your laugh,
and sitting on your lap
remind me of the games
you played with my feeble head.

How could you expect
a child like me to
understand the drama
you ****** upon my
tiny soul.

Who did you think
I was? Who did you
want me to become?

Where was your heart
in all of the stories?
Where were you when
rain beat down my
corrupted dreams.

And now I know
just who you were
and what you wanted.
Though those day
you were my friend
still haunt me
like the ghost of your past.

I still remember it all
the taste of your words
that poisoned my soul.

The smell of your
potent dreamless
thoughts and solid
fears and bravery.

The feel of your arms
around me when you
wanted me to fall
for your poor me
victimized scenarios.

The sound of you
breaking my heart
each night then again
when the sun rose.

And most of all
I remember watching
you tear up everyone
and everything
in your smooth path.

I often get these
ghost flashes from
being under your
so called care and
fading from my true self
into the transfigured beast
you wanted instead.
for my father and my "kidnapper"
Nov 2014 · 924
What I Appreciate
Bluejay Nov 2014
I appreciate you
though I despise you
to the ends of the earth.

I appreciate you
for helping create me
yet I loathe everything
you do and say.

You killed me so many times
and still I appreciate you
for teaching me the strife
I will
never
need to cause my friends.

You ripped me apart
every single day
but I appreciate you
for reminding me that
I deserve much better.

People hate you
I appreciate you
though you've done me
more wrong than them.

I love your soul
but I can't stand
the rotted rat you
really are.

In the end please know
I appreciate you too
for my father
Nov 2014 · 237
Upon a Canvass
Bluejay Nov 2014
One tiny dip
into the paint
of soul.

Just one sip,
a little one
please.

Then I will
form a true
masterpiece.

A moment until
I will really
dance.

Colors of blue,
green, purple, and
pink.

To create you
within my life
again.

There's no heart
but lots of
pain.

Why'd we part
with so much
left?

I'm off to paint
another work of
art.

I'm no saint
but its for
you.
For Alex (Nei)
Nov 2014 · 383
Pondering
Bluejay Nov 2014
Someone has an answer
where are they and who?
I need one, don't you?
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