I tried to create a distance
I tried to stay away,
but then **** happened
and here I am again.

Falling down the rabbit-hole,
but still trying to climb up.
Fleeing from this feeling,
which people call love.

I don't want to fall,
my heart, I'll hide it away
so that nobody ever can touch
or reach it again.

My head tells me
that it's right to stay away,
but everything else inside me
screams "Don't let him get away!"

So a war is going on in my head
and I'm so confused
'Cause I'll have to choose
What the hell I am going to do.

So it really happened again.
This stupid ***** never learns
from her mistakes.
****...I think I fell in love again...

WHEN I SAY I WANT TO DIE,
I DO NOT MEAN PHYSICALLY,
BUT MORE SO,
MENTALLY
AND
EMOTIONALLY.
I WANT MY FEELINGS
TO DIE
SO
I MAY NO
LONGER CRY
I'M TIRED OF MY THOUGHTS
SUFFOCATING ME
AND MAKING IT
HARD FOR ME
TO BREATHE
DON'T YOU SEE?
THESE THINGS
ARE RUINING ME?
JUST DIE,
PLEASE,
SO
I
CAN
BE
FREE
AND
LEARN
TO
SURVIVE
.

There are no words
To compare
To how I feel inside
You've taken a broken heart
That'd forgotten how to beat
And brought it back to life
You'll never know
Because nothing compares
To how much you mean to me
But I'd give up the whole world
Just to have you
I'd give up everything
Just to keep you
And I know I'm not the best
With words
Nor am I good at expressing
My feelings
But I wanted you to know
That the time I spend with you
Is the only time I am living
You are my life
Because it's my life, you have saved
You are my hope
And the only time I see a future
For me
Is with you
I want you to know
That I put on the ring you gave me
And wore it to work
Eventhough I'm not supposed to
But it's the small things
That mean the world to you
And I never want to hurt you
You will be mine
Forever and always
Until the end of time
You will be
My love
....