"I met a demon with the heart of an angel."

I'm dwelling in the catacombs of my mind
Where the bones of past me's come to be grind
Fuel for my Demons power, just temporary
But it all goes except the memory

It contains my deepest fear
But nothing draws near
As if I'm welcomed here
I see myself and it's my eyes to leer

The consequences of hate
Is a sour fate
Watching yourself become what you relate
Walking into your hells' gate

"I sit here stitching myself back together
Wondering if this time too, it'll break
or finally last forever."

If there's anything that you should know
Is that I never really wanted to go
I would have used myself whole
To help you, that's the goal

Then there would be nothing left of me
So, I had to leave you see
There just wasn't enough for you
I ran out and didn't know what to do

To come up with more pieces
I made deals with Demons like car leases
To full fill your needs
Responding caringly to every plead

The cost was my happiness
That made me a mess
I never got a chance to be alone
Away from you or my phone

I buried every anger and every sadness
Which lead to my madness
You never paid no mind to me
I can do this can't you see!

I was left in the dust
You were steel and I was just the rust
You only know what what I spoke
Or that too I make a joke

You never asked about my heart
So that's why I left, because I fell apart.

I'd rather you hate me
and move on dear

Than love me
and be stuck, I fear

"I find myself happy and free
Oh how life can be
But why not with you and me
Is there something we didn't see"

"There's so much I have to say, but maybe another day"

"The bullet struck the Kevlar, then making it so useless."

"You are now simply a dream, so it may seem."

Some people just don't understand
That I can read a face like the back of my hand
With an Inner Critic at the back if my mind
It judges and examines everyone I find

Along with every action I take
Are you sure that's not a mistake
With every person I meet
Lair, Lie! Flaw! Flaw! Don't even greet

But I'm the victim here
No one likes you, you're weird. Don't go near
But I can't always be alone
Just use your phone

It doesn't stop, it's forever speaking
Ruthlessly reminding me of my flaws
Into my hollow core it's forever peaking
It scratches the inside skull with claws

It belittles and berates
It remembers all the dates
That were your most bleak
When you try you can't speak

You unwillingly see the worst in friends
Your relationship bends
Then you are the one to blame
As continues the game

The Inner Critic, oh the mastermind
Quick as ever, one of a kind
You can't  turn and run
Help, it's no longer fun

"Your voice was a sweet lulluby, such a bittersweet goodbye."

I am yours
So let's close the doors
Sip a glass of wine
To cross the line

To a place between intimacy and lust
It's me you can trust
I'm the painter you the canvas
We'll both just practice

Lips tracing your jugular vein
All pleasure no pain
With everything to gain
The path is lain

I'll find that you within
That doesn't mind simple sin
While skin to skin
Once titatium now tin

Bending and moving with ease
I'll do all you please
I'll fulfill your needs
Every whimper just new pleads

"Tonight, I'll whisper to your ear, come closer my dear."

A note to the wise
That a Demon's eyes
Whisper sweet lies
To devour you like frogs to flies

Here I recollect
And simply reflect
Remembering a time
When my heart was coated in grime

When Suicide held my hand
Like something was planned
As if all my hopes turned sour
I only grew sadder per hour

At first you just accept
Suicide knows your adept
So you become okay with dying
It starts with that lying

When they ask your how you are
And you lie pushing them far
You start smoking and toking
You laugh more and start joking

But it's in the back of your mind
Death, equals peace, is all you find
No you can't rewind!
It's your body to be outlined

As Suicide holds you
Time to start planning what to do
As if it's totally okay
Suicide, always knowing what to say

But when you hold that gun
There is no more fun
Suicide is hungry and you're the meal
It doesn't care how you feel

You feel the weight
But also its power to warp fate
Is it too late
To re-open Heaven's gate?

There's only the Demon and yourself
Pull the trigger, just a picture on the shelf?
Don't, save your life and try?!
But Suicide asks why?

This is where you fight
You must know what's right
Get out and hunt for the light
Grow wings and take flight

I overcame my demons twice
Brutal but consice
You must be precise
It's a labyrinth and you're the mice

Nature hugs each step
Time warping through lush forest
Lost in Mother's abode

"My inner madness is the therapist for my inner sadness."

I've fallen into that inner void
That you'd do your best to avoid
All I find is a Jester laughing like I said the joke
But looking at a replay of my life
The King lights his smoke

Thinking of his past Queens
Looking at all the inbetweens
The rights and wrongs
The places where feeling belongs

But this void is angry and seething
Its a Demon and its teething
With a enraged disgust and distrust
Its a beast that hates one of it's own
Listen you simply must

I've seen the real you and you're no Skipper
You're no Queen, you were the Ripper
You were the Jack of all trades, master of them all
But only the ones that guarantee your King's fall

You just simply do not exist
Please don't resist
Just ride your white cloud into hell
You to me are nothing, as I can tell

The King puts out his smoke
In the end you were the Joke

I hate you
Yes, yes I do
Through it all and in the end
I choose to hate you dear friend
I don't lie
Don't look me in the eye
Pay no mind to me
Its you I never want to see

All you do is cause commotions
And drink love potions
To no avail the calm seas
Are now storming oceans

Created by the consequence of your negative emotions

The shivering snow
Crisp winds rustle the dead twigs
Bringing warmth to heart

I write these words from the heart
Bringing together what falls apart
In my inner nether
To the living, my words; the tether

"I don't remember what it's like to wake up anymore."

Let me smoke another cigarette
Say I'll quit
But never do, oh the regret
You are what I exhale and need to

Forget

The deed is done
And no one won

We both took an L
You the hardest I can tell
I hope things go swell
Wrapped up in your demons blanket
Just make it by saying fake it

Let's just say
You're simply news from yesterday

I'm a drunken slur
Our 9 months a blur
What's real and what's fake
I'll just love the reflection looking in the lake
I guess we'll just say it was fate
It definitely wasn't heaven there was no gate
I'm at a loss for words as of now
And I just wonder how
If I'll ever see you an human again
I get frustrated and in pain
When I hear your name
You're just lonely and lame
Afraid to face life and its choices
You're listening to the wrong voices
I've lost faith my dear
It's you I hate and now fear

Two bottles down
Tonight, I choose to drown
Come on mind, what do you have to say?
I mean it has to happen someday

You seem so quiet tonight
You're not yelling, there's no fight
But I feel fright
It's not a goodnight

There's no will to be dead
So why is it in my head
It's the Angel with the lead
And the Demon with the bed

Where I know I shouldn't sleep
But I can stay and weep
Is this really how I feel
So certain it has the King's seal

I'll just let myself drown
Tonight I crown a fragile frown

"My mind is chaos, burning rubble of my dead ambitions."

My mind is calm and clear
I don't have anything to hear
Just the warmth on my back
My demons don't give me flack
Thirty minutes of peace in mind
Slowly fading as the gears grind
For a moment I am not depressed or sad
I'm not overwhelmed or mad
Just satisfied that I got the will to not cower
To simply get up, and shower

What is love while you think of another man
I think you need to revise your plan
It's not working out
Your past clarifies that no doubt
Take that step into loneliness
And you'd stop being such a mess
Accept yourself and all your flaws
Only then your glow will drop jaws
Stop believing your self-deception
Leave yourself, go alone, and face self-reflection

Here I am again
With paper and a pen
To simply think back to when
We dove into the lions den
Why aren't we amongst the flowers
Helping ourselves grow and discover our powers
But we took on the embrace of being villain
Your thoughts got ahead of you but you were willin
To lie and manipulate
Which gave room for my anger to demonstrate
Where did all the good time go?
Honestly, we'll never know
So back to my poetry I turn to face
To write out all my anguish and disgrace

Apparently I sat in the devil's lap
Simple and lame
But it was disguised in your name

"The only words I head, speaking it's you I need."

The way I talk about you to my friends
Goes to show I never wanted to break ends
I sit here with a smoke and possible nap
Wishing I could take it in your lap

Without you I'm content with life
All you did was brandish a knife
And named it love, but the hilt was made of self-deception
That you'd go for like an interception
Just like you'd intercept my feelings
With playing the victim and all your dealings
With the demons you swore to never be
We'll see who you become when you can't leech off me

"It's at your side, that I should not have left."

Browsing women like a catalog
But I'm wrapped up in the fog
In the trail of destruction you left behind
You never look back so no knowledge you find
I think you need to just rewind
And learn to be kind
To yourself and all you consider a friend
Or you'll just be alone in the end

Let me tell you I still love you
You as in the things you are and do
I sit and remenice
About how badly I didn't want this
But the irony for me is you went free
I try but in the end sitting alone with a cup of coffee
And for right now as I can see
I'm only capable about writing of you and me

"It's a time of quiet,
when we would normally riot."

"Dude I am out,
Of what was hell no doubt."

"I just hope you know, I didn't want to go."

"Little does she know, loving her is all I know."

Glass Animals in my ears
More than ready to face fears
I can't let them whisper in my ears
My demon only nears
Each sip and drag a stimulation
To make everything a simulation
We have little in relation
Except in the act of creation

Rip apart all our clothes
Letting it all go to our foes
To fight our own battles
The rocking and bed clatters
Hair in complete tatters
We'll just remind each other nothing matters
Just follow my eyes
No need for hello and goodbyes

My friends passed out
And I have no doubt
That we'll see worse in you
In the things you do
Because that hammer will always hit your thumb
Saying you're young and dumb

"Waiting for the day, you stop hunting men like prey."

I remember how this feels
All of myself simply kneels
To recover from lost time
That's why I write in rhyme
Such a cliche write
But I will do what is right
It's time to focus one me
Hmm what to be
Should I just party
Or go to college and be tardy
Hungover from a night of words
Not to sing, chose the birds
I'll pick myself up from the dirt
Or this will just continue to hurt