you don't want me like i want you
you never do

he has no ******* clue
this is a one sided kind of affection

that cologne and cigarette smell fires my intentions
my heart can't take this rejection
it needs protection
been trying to escape these feelings but ****
we have such an intense connection

you have no idea how badly i just wanna grab you
look you in your eyes

into your ******* soul and spill it
into your heart, i'll fill it
with all this emotion that's been tearing me apart
lately it's been setting me afire
burning my insides, i'm spilling my guts here
this is exactly what i fear


i fear unrequited love
that feeling of missing someone so ******* much

it hurts my heart
feels like it's bleeding
but i'm proceeding
while you sit back and smile without me
don't give a **** about me

can't take this defeat

i'm tired of my love life being stuck on repeat

fatigued though i can not rest
because my thoughts are a jumbled mess
weary hearts like mine desire affection,
at 3 am i crave connection
the warmth of tangled legs and beating chests,
pressed against each other in a nest

a feeling of togetherness is something i miss
and the warmth of a kiss
on my forehead and on my lips,
tracing along my fingertips
rough hands intertwined
it feels as though i can rewind
back to that time  
when i felt like everything was fine

I feel a deep, deep longing in my soul
To make something more of my life
To turn my story around
To do something productive and of importance
I feel a deep longing to be surrounded by nature, in the calm of the forest everyday
To release all the creativity I've kept buried inside because of my lack of motivation
I feel a need, in my bones, to let all that creativity out onto a sheet of paper.
To let all those thoughts and feelings flow from my brain, to my fingers and out onto the page
I have a deep longing to be free
To be happy
Totally and completely blissful
And content with myself and life
I want to fall in love
Not with someone
But with myself
With life
I want to fall in love with it all
I want to notice the beauty in the small things
I want tears to flow from happiness, not despair
I want to live the life I've always dreamed of: a happy one

my head is pulsating
with the sound waves of your beating heart
that used to lull me to sleep
back when i resided in that
angry basement you called home

I'm afraid to talk
And to open up to you
Because people have always used me
like a cigarette,
throwing me away once they're done
and lighting a new one.

Darling I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what you and I could be,
your mirthful smile sends my heart afire,
when I see you in my dreams everything always feels so infinite,
like it could never end,
and when I wake up I feel as if my heart has been ripped from my chest,
I just wish you were lying next to me when I wake up.

What could it take for you to fall for me?
the way that I have fallen for you.
you are the upmost perfection,
a symphony of undiscovered dreams.
who knows if we could work?
for there is an unknown mystery that lies ahead of us.
but darling there’s only one way to find out,
will you be with me till’ heaven’s past?

Drowning in the memories of you and I,
Oh how I wish I would’ve seen this coming.
Our downfall was bound to happen; it was inevitable.
I should have known you would be the one to steal my heart away, smash it into pieces and leave me bleeding on the bathroom floor.
I etched your name into my skin and screamed into the night,
as the blood dripping from my wrist washed all the pain away.
I drowned myself in ***** just to forget your name,
but it wasn’t enough to cure my ever aching heart.