Being an actor or actress
Doesn't mean you are on broadway,
Or a star of a hit reality TV show.

Being an actor or actress
Means you step onto the stage
And give it your all.
You accept the spotlight
Not as a blinding piece of equipment,
But as a sun shining on you,
Bringing you to life.
When you hear the term
Break a leg
You form a grin,
Knowing it's not literal.
When the laughter
Of a crowd on opening night
Encourages you and gives you hope.

Being an actor or actress
Isn't about the flowers
Or the repetitive good jobs after a show.
Being an actor or actress
Is about the butterflies you get
Before you go on stage.
It's about the energy you feel
When you and your cast
Do something spectacular
On stage.

Being an actor or actress
Is an outlet from the real world.
It allows you to step onto stage
And forget about the boy
Who broke your heart,
Or the money struggles,
Or the bombs going off
In other countries.
It allows you to step into
A new and exciting universe,
Where nothing else matters except,

Being an actor or actress.

sadness and emptiness are two different things
emptiness is absence of feeling, and sadness is pain
emptiness is the feeling of no feeling at all,
sadness is the crippling enabler that makes you feel small
sadness has a cure, or so it seems
emptiness, however,  is a very unsolvable thing

What?

Midnight
Is my favorite kind of night
Even the dead is asleep
There is no witching hour at
Midnight
The wind has picked up
The trees are kissing
The moon is high
and glowing giving light to life that doesn't exist at
Midnight
The righteous sleeps alongside the wicked at
Midnight
as I lie awake

The butterflies*
        turned into ravens,
Feasting over
        my ***** feelings.

Your smile,your eyes ,your pretty voice ...
Brought me light ,appealed my soul to rejoice ...

I gave you my heart
and when you left, you gave it back.
(carefully; you tried not to break it.)
you did it so that I could give it
to someone else but my god, I wish
you'd kept it. (it remembers you
like worn-out furniture, it remembers
your shape, and no one else could fit
that way.)

I've always wanted you to expose yourself,
drop the shell,
show who you REALLY are inside-
show it,  just for me,
and I guess maybe I've realized
the shell is who you are.

if you want to be alone,
it's fine, I won't talk to you
I didn't talk to you last weekend either
I hope you're happy
I'm giving you a break
I'm not here for you,
I'm just alone tonight and
your sister offered to pick me up
and I want you to know I'm not trying
to be clingy
and I know you want a weekend alone
without me.
you didn't see me honestly all this week
and hopefully tonight you'll only get
a passing glance
but I won't isolate myself from my friends
just so you don't get ******* aggravated with me
. fine, I'll avoid you,
but my life won't go on shutdown for you.
It's not for you.
Nothing is for you.
Not anymore.