Humanity
Has lost its way
Forgotten what it meant to live
Greed rules the lands
Hate divides
And ignorance shackles

Humanity
Has began to die
Corruption reigns with an iron fist
Can't seem to find the light amongst the fog of evil
To give power to those that would lead to healing

Humanity
It means we'll all rot
To be herded by the lies of the media
Beauty is the only way
Thin is beauty
Shallow is beauty
Fraud is beauty
To be separated by outdated prejudice
Gays are sinners
White is the true superior race
Money can buy anything,
Even love
To be set on a road of self destruction
Poverty is for the lower class
Intelligence is for the weak
Individuality is for the outcasts

Humanity
Has forgotten what it means to be human
To find the balance
Love without fear
Fight the injustice for freedom of thought,
Freedom to be unique,
Freedom to live,
To live with a purpose

A purpose
That's what Humanity has lost

Sacred words etched in stone
These holy carvings engraved upon humanity
The burning belief leaves its mark
Division is born to bring about unity

A Dystopia disguised as an Utopia arises
Empty promises made
Retribution demanded
Damaged lives fallen in the name of "God"

Freedom shackled by the belief of hope;
To not feel alone, nations crumble
To not feel lost, millions slaughtered
To not feel weak, power is corrupted

Demons disguised as angels preach
An evil so ignorant it's innocent
A belief so strong it becomes reality
A hate so strong, that love fades away

Alas, this is the tale of a terrible poison
A poison that was once a sacred elixir
A poison that has engulfed the world
A poison so potent that not even death can cure it;
This is the poison of Religion

Daddy said to love him, all it would take was a touch
To not disappoint him, a kiss would do
That to be a man, first you have to know how to please one
If not, then he'd tell mommy and she'd hate me

Mommy drinks her days away
Doesn't see when daddy's too rough, when daddy leaves marks
Mommy's too busy seeing the pretty colors I can't see
Says the happy pills are our little secret,
That the silver water is to help her heal;
Tells me to go bother my big brother instead

My big brother,
Oh he's always ignored
Not even when he comes home with trophies and medals do they care
They don't even see the slices on his wrists...
Or maybe they just don't care
Maybe that's why big brother decided to watch me from above
Maybe that's why big brother gave me one last hug, one last 'I love you'
Before he closed his eyes for the last time
To sleep the eternity away

As for me
Oh the years have passed but I still have a smile on my face
Daddy's in prison being treated like how he treated me
Now he'll know how to please a man, I know I do

Mommy's six feet under
The pretty colors were too strong
The funny smoke didn't want to say good-bye
So it took mommy with it
And now neither can hurt my lungs nor my heart

But here I stand as I place flowers on the grave of my cowardly brother
How long did it take before it all became too much?
Did he please daddy too? Is that why daddy would beat and hate him?
Did he see the pretty colors like mommy? Is that why he fell in eternal slumber?
Or was he too weak to endure? To survive with the filth left from our parents?

Now I walk away, free of sin
Free of love
Free of pain
Now, I'm all that's left of my broken family...

Like daddy, I now yearn for the touch of a male, but a man, not a boy
Like mommy, I know see the pretty colors, but I'm not shackled like she was by them
And like my big brother I too have matching scars on my wrists

She sets the chess board up
Moves her Queen
Guards her King

I move my weak pawns
Sacrifice is what's needed
In a strategy that works

She holds nothing back
Conquers all with her Queen
Cares little about her pawns

I lose my Knights and Bishops
Even lose my Queen and Rook
But at the other end do my pawns go

She shouts Checkmate!
Thinks she has won
Doesn't realize that in the end, she's abandoned her King

I look into her eyes and say,
"Yes. Checkmate"
Point to my weak little lawns which now are ghosts from the past

On her end, the end which my pawns have reached
Lie Knights and Rooks,
Bishops and Queens
All surrounding the King she forgot

She sees her folly
In war rage and glee of victory did she forget her duty
With a heavy disappointed sigh,
She knocks down her forgotten King

He told to repent
Letting it go would be the answer
Forgiveness would save me

But I chose deaf ears
Allowed the flames to consume all
Destroying all that causes me pain

He said love was what made us strong
Letting people in
That's what would stop the storm

I chose to shut the doors
Slamming all the windows
Drowning in darkness

He tried holding me
To protect me from myself
That he could mend the cracks

I chose to fight
I abandoned who I was
Accepted this brutal solitude

He said he'd leave, he couldn't keep fighting for my sake
A heart could only make so much
That he couldn't love someone who was dead inside

I watched him leave
Shed silver tears that held the last of my humanity
As he walked away, he took what little I had left
He took his love

How do you mend a broken heart?
You don't
You can't
Just leave the broken glass alone
No need in cutting yourself trying to fix what won't be fixed
No need to hurt yourself trying to save a drowning soul

I'm dead inside. You picked a walking corpse as your best friend. While air passes through these lungs, that doesn't mean that a light shines in my dull eyes. With no fire to bring the warmth, I'm cold to the touch. I, your best friend, am the living dead cursed to roam the world with no goal, interest, or life. Not that I care, I am dead after all. But I pity you, you who must endure the company of the decaying, who hurts over the lost, who wishes he who is close to you would live like you do; you, who holds onto desperately to these decaying ties.

Once cursed and abandoned
Now looked for a second chance
But why should I give you a second chance?
You who showed no love
You who allowed me to explore the dark
You who left me to sink in my poisoned blood

Once feared and all powerful
Now weak and clinging onto a faded photograph
I'm no longer that little boy who you failed to see
I'm no longer that ray of innocence amongst the sea of alcohol
I'm no longer a flame to lead you out of the dark

Once lost and hopeful
Now on the right path too little too late
But why should I drown with you?
You who chose the bottle over me;
I'm no longer there to save you
You who forgot to love me;
I'm no longer there to love you either mother dear;
You who died to me long ago

Waiting for the bus
To take me away from this lovely ceremony
From this glorious day
Where we've spent so much of our life
It's all come to an end
As we toss our caps into the sky

Standing alone
Contemplating how it all played out
We impatiently waited
Couldn't contain our smiles as we crossed the stage
Beaming into the sea of faces as we held that piece of paper
As we all were one
For one last time

Holding back the tears
Silently hating everyone
Hating the loving parents who embraced their children
Loathing friends as they laughed with their families
Shattering inside as I watched alone

Pretending the next day
That nothing happened
Swallowing bitter accusations    
Forcing the tears deep inside
Lying,
Saying that yesterday was no big deal

Laughing at the irony
I've celebrated such day with a different family
Ate and laughed with people I barely knew
Receiving love from parents that weren't mine

Smiling
It's all I can to to not break down
To not drown in the garbage of it all
Holding the diploma that my family will never see
Never forgetting going alone and leaving alone from my own graduation
Never forgetting the day my family chose to turn their back on me
Never forgetting the day I stood alone,
Waiting for the bus to take me home

I fell from my throne of fire
Lost my crown
My subjects of hell reject me
My kingdom crumbles to dust

My palace is gone
With it the deep sorrows of darkness
This ****** land, no longer mine to command

I lost my power
Weak and renounced
No souls beneath me who fear me
No strength in my hands, these are no longer my lands

I fell from my throne of fire
I lost it all
Let me just burn
Let me just die

This Palace of Sorrow no longer claimed by me
These lives to rule, are now free to be
Let me just burn
I lost my throne
I lost it all
Let me just burn
To escape my biggest fall

They look down from their holy thrones
They pass judgement onto those that stray from the pack
To be different is to be unique
To be unique is to be a sin
And to sin is to burn

With venom filled words they whip our backs,
They strip us of our humanity
They toss us onto the wildlands
Just for being who we are,
We're nothing more than **** to them

The sacred boundaries they claim,
Have been defiled with our very existence
To love is to bring about hate
To hate is to commit suicide
And to die by our own hand,
Is just another proof of our sin of life

The robed men preach their indignity
Scream their hate
March their ignorance

Banned from a hypocritical dystopian
We're scared and traumatized
Divided and hunted down
Hurt and dying

To be a loving God, you must be Perfect
To be a holy angel, you must be free of all sins
To be human, however, you must learn to love

So now we ask you, the "holy" tyrants
If to be human, you must learn to love,
What is it that you truly are?
Perhaps, just maybe, you're the blasphemous sinners you claim us to be

He said to me once
"Why does no one love me?"
Then be cried upon my shoulder
Begging to know why no one wanted his broken heart

I stitched it back
Kept it from falling apart
He never knew the nights I wasted away
Mending his shattered heart

Then one day he said with joy
"I'm in love! I'm in love! I'll give her my heart! I'll give her my love!"

I smiled for my friend
Helped him woo his lady friend
He gave her his heart on a silver platter
But she threw it away
Far far away
And then it shattered

He came to me once more
He sobbed his eyes to oblivion
Asking why she did it

All I could do was hold him tighter as his cries shook us both

His cries pierced my ears till they bled
So much pain and suffering
The agony, oh how it brought tears to my eyes
So I took my own heart out
Gave it to him

It filled the black hole nicely
Beated strong and loud
He never realized that it was mine
When he cried out to me once more
"My friend! My friend! I'm in love once again! And this time, she's brought to life my dead heart!"

I gave him a sad smile
My oblivious friend never knew that the heart he has
Was always mine

Tis true, tis sad
He loves her with heart that's not even his
I gave up my love
To see him smile

I'm now dead inside
Without a pulse I'm the walking dead
I feel nothing
Can't feel love anymore
But my heart still beats
Inside my best friend who never knew he was loved all along

It's suffocating
Deafening within

Shielded within solitude
Safe from the harmful rays of life
Growing stronger,
Changing,
Evolving

This is what it's all been about
Why I've struggled
Clinging onto my pitiful existence
Why I've crawled, hid, fought and lived
To enter this protective prison

And now I'll break free
Struggling once more to rid myself of my previous life
To leave behind this chrysalis
Ever slowly breathing new life

Alas,
I'm free
I'm beautiful


I'll spread my new wings and soar through the light
Gliding through life
Because I'm no longer that disgusting caterpillar you stepped on
No,
Now I'm a beautiful butterfly
Flying away from your reach
Flying onto a new life

I'm lost
I can't find the road
I can't find the right one

I slip every now and then
But to their eyes it's all too dangerous
I'm not perfect they tell me,
Yet they expect so much from me
As did my brothers
My mother
My friends
And everyone else

It's a headache and I slip just once
My guilt, nothing compared to the disappointment in their eyes;
Sometimes we just need to cry
Nothing wrong with being human
I just slipped

I made a mistake, so please forgive me
But I slipped
I bled
I cried
I'm sorry