So disconnected
how I feel
nothing I loved was ever real

I'm so much more
than what they see
who judge
based on the little
that they think they know
of me.

dearly departed,
this is a word from the brokenhearted.
you slipped away
as was your right
but the ghost you left behind
still lingers in my mind..

understand me
see..
the curve of my cheekbones underskin
the relax of my shoulders
as I exhale and..
I don't ask for perfection.
but try..

anxious,
i shifted my weight
from foot to foot.
worried that
a mistake on my part
could cost the piece of your heart,
that I never had.
i should have realized
that love is unconditional..
or at least
less conditional than that.

I can still feel your eyes
Disregard my defenses
I wondered how much you could see
How far to the inside of me
You were innocent, but deep.
...Sacred