No matter how we try not to cry,
The more we resist,the more it urges to happen.
Someone said,"Death is not a time for sadness,pain and mourning,rather it is a time for celebrating that our loved one,is with the Father.Our redeemer."
Well,that's some point well made.
But why are we even afraid of dying?
Is it because of the pain we might encounter?
Is it because of how much it'll cost us if we die without doing good deeds?
Or is it because we're afraid to be forgotten?
I am,afraid of death,simply because I am not ready for it.
I see this future ahead of me.
The daydream that i'll be able to fulfill one day.
Thus,I am told to believe that I live for a purpose.
Maybe this is,my purpose.
I am destined to live,to discover how to tame life.
I am destined to cry,love and be happy.
I am destined to enjoy the ride of this rollercoaster life.
I am destined to love my enemies,love the broken,love the most sorrows of life and embrace the life offered to us for a limited time on this land of misadventures and discoveries.

those were the thought brought to me by Him

I realized something,life is given to us to live,to discover,to prosper to whatever we discover within this puzzle.
If ever we die tomorrow,we know deep in our hearts we've done something right.Right for us.
We die in eternity.
Safely in His arms
With no regrets and no pain.

Writing to relieve this void,
But you're the cancer,
You're more than a void,
The heart break,
The three am screaming into a pillow,
The sobbing that racks my body,
Your abandonment has consumed me,
My words were suppose to make it better, but they're all jumbled broken pieces of 26 letters shoved and combined, into what was suppose to be a goodbye, but dad I made a shrine, out of this nothingness, I wish you would've been a part of my life.

and yet....
    everyday
I   F
       A
           L
         L
    deeper
Into Your Eyes
      Into Your Words
             Into Your Voice
    The feelings my heart.
            and mind
      have created
Leave me very little choice
          I cannot control
   the musings in my soul
        the desperation in my heart
     or the erratic thoughts in my mind
           That keep tearing at my insides
      Making me want to fall apart
                perfection
                         =
                      you
      Especially, in regards to me
I just wish you could see
          I know I sound crazy
     But, sometimes we just can't help
            how we feel
       It's too much to ask of you
   But I'm a fan of the truth
          and I know these emotions
      that I'm trying to conceal
          desire
               chemistry
                      love
        they're all real
  I tried and tried and tried
         but I just can't control
            what's deep in my soul
     and how my heart feels...


Just thought you should know...

As the winter nights became colder, so did you

We all have our own monsters
whose daytime face is calm.
Who’s so serene,
as if a dream,
reality’s glare; stark.

We learn to live beside them.
Raise no undue alarm.
Work as a team,
within the scheme
of boundaries left unmarked.

In the compromise, our loss
unnoticed in the park.
But know the thing
that waits for you
Sits grinning in the dark.

Its yellow eyes gleam madness.
Its teeth are long and sharp.
It is a slice –
your own device –
come calling you to hark.

And when the long day’s over
You stumble through your door
It wants you as
***** donor
to silence its deep roar.

So keep on compromising.
Pat it upon its head.
Be safe by day –
beware at night
Until it goes away

Don’t hold your breath, awaiting
release of terror’s spark.
Just know the thing
that waits for you
Sits grinning in the dark.

Lin Cava©

it only makes sense
that a girl who wants to die
should fall for a man who wants to **** her

I hate how crazy I get when my thoughts multiply
I hate how angry I get when my thoughts multiply
Where am I supposed to go to save myself from me

Where am I supposed to go now that you've left me
Please let me open my eyes and see you again
Please let me once again feel your arm's embrace

Don't forget the girl who smells like paper and ink

1AM
"Hello?"

2AM
"I miss you"
"Why did you let go"
"Was I not enough?"
"Do you have someone else to let you see all skin and bones?
    Someone who could see through all those muscles and enlighten your soul?
    Someone who would hold you until the morning light?
    Someone who could love you even with all your flaws?
    Someone who could love you more because of them and think that you're beautiful?
"I loved you."
"I still do."

"You know what? *******, ******* because you made me fall. Made me think that you would catch me but in the end I realized that you never to do so. *******, for wasting my time, making me think that you were worth my while. Lastly, *******, I am still inlove with you

7AM
What have I done.

1AM
*"Hello?"

pouring my heart out to your email at night –
it just doesn’t feel right
the love, the lust, the tears, the fright
is it really worth my time?
tell me it’s worth being apart
tell me it’s worth being torn apart
by the time and the silence
and all the secrets you keep in your heart.


but even if it’s not worth my time,
nothing you can say will keep me from being by your side.