you say you’re not a poet but
with a girl like that,
how could you speak
anything less than
the stars?
-a.c.b

She said "I'm falling in love."

I said "I'm falling apart."

I've done it,

I figured out why I'm not able to be happy.

Its because I'm scared.

I'm scared that I'm going to find someone that I really care about.

I'm scared that I'm going to mess up and hurt them .

I'm scare that I wont be accepted.

I'm scared that I wont be loved.

I'm scared that I am going to get hurt again.

I'm scared that I'm going to hurt someone.

Grasping air and biting dust
around in dazed minds,
I've lost what it means
to be found
and sought what it means
to be lost.
Muddy waters
block my murky sight,
what is wanted is never
given voice to that
which isn't noticed.
Fly on, carry on,
my carrion dreams,
away from me.

Both can ****
        The only difference is
                      Cigarettes shatter lungs
         She shatters everything

            I remembered the first moment
my lips pressed the filter
     as I lit it up breathed it all
                savored every smoke
       as if we covered up painful lies
        in a container of painkillers

The same way  
we used to pressed our lips
     sparked something between us
           savored every moment we had
    as if our love was a rose
               in a valley of tulips