ktle - Hello Poetry

ktle May 2019

It was always you by my side;
It was always us
Pulling the sun into the sky and
Taking walks into dawn.

I think it was always there
This feeling
Buried somewhere beneath
The contentment and “guarantee”
That you would always be there.

We never needed any words
Our silence spoke our truths—

I know it was always there,
I just wish I realized earlier.
I wish I realized that I love you
Before I learned what it feels like
to lose you.

Best friend,
I now know that
I never fell in love with you,
I loved you since the beginning.

to my best friend.

#romance #love #heartbreak #sadness #bestfriends #crushes #innocence #youth #lovelorn #time

ktle Apr 2019

to the one who rebuilt my sky

I took down my clouds and my stars
Exhausted and frightened of my pain.
As I began to pack my heart away
He took my hand and whispered my name.
He unpacked the box of night and day
Smiled, and wiped my tears away.

And like that,
I learned
to love again.

#love #romance #crushes #innocence #movingon #spring #joy #heartbreak #beginnings #secondchance

ktle Apr 2019

a new spring day

I swear there will come a day
When his voice doesn’t prompt your head to turn,
Heart pounding and insides dancing.

You’ll wake up one morning
To find the world bleak and greying.
You’ll see the ghost of him
in the clouds
And smell his scent
on your shirts,
But one day the sadness will get bored,
And one day, it will no longer hurt.

But the most beautiful thing will be
To find that you accidentally
left the door open and
With your back turned, in will walk
A guest with a smile and outstretched hand.
The moment you touch his skin and meet his eyes
You’ll be surprised to find yourself once again
Under pink skies.

Then you will think back and smile happily
At him, who once hurt you so painfully.
The morning spring will kiss your heart
And with a smile,
you will find
the strength to part.

spring has returned

#love #romance #crushes #innocence #joy #spring #happiness #newlove #heartbreak #acceptance

ktle Jan 2019

your place in my head

I’ve kept you in my head so long
That the walls of my mind
Are painted with colors from the day we met:
Clouds scattered against the bluest sky
I had ever seen.

The floor is littered with poetry
Some of the finest I’ve ever written.
On the side is a locked box
With a barely closed lid.
Inside are the words I have yet
Spoken and said.
And they will stay
Unspoken and unsaid.
I sit across the cold box
With my back pressed against the wall
Reminding myself that it’s time
To let it turn to dust.

Your voice won’t stop echoing
From the record player in the corner.
Dents on its side and
A fire under it
That refuses to engulf
The oil I spread.

The door in the back leads into a room.
Puddles of tears littered across the floor.
The record is barely audible as I approach
The center,
Which despite the pain and memories,
Still beats.

One day, I will be strong enough to paint the walls white.

#love #romance #heartbreak #youth #missing #regret #emptiness #memories #hoping #waiting

ktle Nov 2018

the friendship of 2 1/2

I love the number 2 because
2 people means no remainder.
bus seats, store sales, coffee deals,
are made for two.
3? Well, it's uneven.
and 1 will always have
the anxiety
of feeling alone and forgotten.
the burden
of carrying a forced smile
and sometimes faking a laugh
to things you dont understand
because you'd think that if you do
you would feel less left behind.
but when it fails and a laugh seems
too rehearsed,
the three seconds of silence
before they turn to one another
makes you think that they know
and dont care.
makes you think you're an extra piece
without a spot in the puzzle.
it's wasnt always like this.
I used to think that nothing
could be complete
if it wasn't us three.
but lately when I'm with you two
a part of me wanders off to think about
what you're thinking;
if I should memorize the words
to that song you're both always singing;
and what I can change about myself
so that you won't leave me.
And then, the three of us together
becomes two and a half.

"love and fear they're not so different. the things we love the most are also what we're most afraid to lose"

#friendship #doubts #worries #youth #relationships #sadness #anger #lonliness #friends #three

ktle Oct 2018

the unexpected smile

You don’t decide who
Will make your heart race.
The corners of your lips just
Upturn so suddenly
That you only notice your smile
When you step forward and feel
The cement pieces
Of a shattered frown
On the ground beneath your feet.

-what the first taught me

#smile #crushes #innocence #happiness #joy #unexpected #love #cute #change #smiling

ktle Aug 2018

false hope

Don’t call me
At seven pm and expect
That my heart won’t race just a little.
When you text like that
How can you expect me not to laugh.
Most of all,
Don’t leave her side—
Her, who stands tall,
With sparkles in her eyes
And chocolate hair—
For me.
Because, boy,
You’re a fool if you think that
I won’t smile even just a little.
I think that
The first (and the second and the third)
Taught me that when one steals your heart,
One also can rob all the love and warmth
That he crafted in the beginning.
They shatter it
And it cries, it wails with heaving sobs
And it hurts so **** much.
They taught me to forget
How a heart is supposed to beat
And that all men
Will be thieves.
So I’m sorry,
But please don’t run your hands through my hair,
Don’t call out my name in front of a dozen others,
Don’t leave her side for mine,
Don’t fool me into a million thoughts.
And don’t blame it on me;
My heart,
It’s tired. And bruised.
And afraid.

to the boy who makes me falter.
to those who were given false hope.

#love #heartbreak #expectations #false #hope #poem #poetry

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