I think forgetting is the best thing ever.
I'd rather die than remember.

It's so much easier to lose who you are and where you came from. But no one will ever let you forget and that's the conundrum.

They constantly remind you of who you used to be and why you made yourself different. They make you regret.

All I want to do is run, say goodbye to all I know. I want to forget, I want to let go.

And even if it's the last things you say, remember me as the one who got away.

I was sad for a while, but here with you I can't help but smile.

Everytime our eyes meet, they lock for a moment and then it depletes.

The feeling you give me is like nothing I can describe. You make my heart beat faster, you make me feel alive.

I wonder if you feel for me too, your just afraid I'll hurt you if you let me through.

Can't you see you're hurting me?

I know what she did to you, but please just learn to trust. I see you now, opening up.

And as these thoughts circle in my head, I know for sure, my time with you is worthwhile.

And here with you I can't help but smile.

You're all I want

I need you here.

Don't you see, what I feel is sincere?

I finally got the nerve to say, what keeps me up at night, what haunts me by day.

And all you could express was that the feelings are unrequited. Something you've said so much it seemed almost recited.

But in the end I blame yours truly.
I kind of wish that you'd just use me.

What you don't understand is that I don't care how much it will hurt, because to me that's less than you're worth.

I would live with every moment of pain because I would have memorys of you to keep me sane.

So I'll write it again in a billion different fonts, just to express **you're all that I want.

I admit it, I'm afraid.

Darkness is coming, the pain is delayed.

I never thought my life would end like this.

A handful of pills and cuts on my wrist.

So sing me to sleep and ease me into my enternal rest.

I know there is nothing, but nothing must be better than being so depressed.

A ringing fills my ears and over takes the heart wrenching silence.

I admit it, I am afraid.

But I still don't wish that I had stayed.

And then I awake, moments later in my bed.

My breath is heavy and there's a pounding in my head.

I dreamt of what I wanted most, freedom.

A death without martyrdom.

But now I get up and start my day.

Yet I know, The nothing would be different if I faded away.

I've lost myself, my mind is dead.
I'm just a ****** up kid, lost in my own head.

You think you know me, you think I'm alright, but I think your mind would change if you knew what I do alone at night.

I want to end it all, I know I won't be missed. My parents say they hate me, my sister's always ******.

I'm trying to find a reason to stay, to live and love for one more day.

I'm sorry that I'm selfish, I know others have it worse. But it never stops, everything hurts, my blessing is my curse.

I've lost myself, my mind is dead.
I'm just a ****** up kid, lost in own my head.

Can't you see how hard I try?
If you were anyone else I would have let these feelings die.

They way she left you in your demise, but you still hold onto her and everyone of her lies.

I may be young, but I'm not dumb.
I may be alone, but I wont give up.

What do I have to do? Will you ever love me as I love you?

I know you've been through more than I could imagine, but I want to hear all your stories, no matter how tragic.

I want to know what makes you tick, I want to know why your mind is sick.

So trust me please, with your every secret. Pretend you care, don't become a regret.

I may be young, but I'm not dumb.
I may be alone but I won't give up.

You may as well be my epitaph, my last cry into emptiness. And trust me, I've always known and told myself, that to you I am meaningless. But that prefound knowledge won't make this hurt any less.