I knew the kisses weren't for me but they were for her lips
The "I love you" was supposed to be heard by her ears and not mine
When you held me, you saw her instead of me
Because you didn't love me
You didn't want me
But I was the "BEST" second choice
I'm sorry that I wasn't her
That you weren't in love with me
That I am in love with you
I'm sorry

I can't breathe
gasp
I feel the water fill my lungs
panicking
I can't see anything around me
Searching
It's overwhelming me
screams
It's surrounding me
breathes in
I hit my back on something
opens eyes
Something soft
breathes slowly
I'm okay
smiles lightly
It was only a dream

Remember when you said people lose people.

Yeah........

Well..... I'm ready to lose you.

Ok... I'm not holding you back.

Alright.

Then goodbye........

( I wish you could see my face when you sent me that message. I wish you could see me die when I realized you were right. We weren't meant to be and we were holding on to something that will never happen. It was just a hope, a beg. It was just a dream.......)

Me
I was blue
He
He was red
Us
We were lilac
Love
It turned gray
Pain
turned clear
His heart
turned black
Mine
turned white with speckles of red
Memories turned clear and invisible
That was the colors of our love

The air around me is getting thicker
So thick, that you could see it like fog
The sun is getting colder
So cold, that is feels like winter
The ground underneath me is disappearing
So quickly, that I might fall back
Everything is vanishing
So fast, that...... well you can't explain what it feels like when you get forgotten.

Stuck in the air
Need to come back to Earth
Floating above
I need someone to be my gravity
I need to get back to reality
I need to feel the ground under my feet again
I need someone to be my gravity

It is easy to see that I'm not happy..
Ok, well guess what..
I'm not going to be happy about losing someone i love.
I'm not going to be happy if you want me to.
Yes, I am going to cry and scream, ranting about how no one understands me.
I will reject everyone's help and stay to myself.
But leave me be because I am trying to recover being lied to.
Being brought down.
Being worthless and having someone step all over me.
I'm trying to forget about the memories but they just come back.
So if you want to help me
THEN LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!!!!!!!!

We first met on the bus.
I was dating your best friend.
You thought I deserved more than him.
You made me smile and made me laugh.
You made me feel loved.
The day you decided you would ask me out,
was the day I felt alive.
Its like you breathed air in my lungs for the first time.
You were my world.
I told you I'm not perfect or I will hurt you
You said that it didn't matter because you loved me.
You loved me
I believed this game you played for 10 months.
I couldn't see that our time was up.
I still loved you through the fights and arguments.
I still loved your flaws and your imperfections.
Then the day came,
where the pain just got deeper.
I loved you so much that I couldn't understand why you were with a girl,
that who you hated with all your heart.
So I let you go because I loved you.
I gave up my happiness so you could be happy.
I gave up my world so you could be free.
And there you are,
Showing me that you never loved me the way I loved you.
Flirting with every girl you see,
calling people names.
I just stand from afar,
watching the person I love,
torturing myself ,
regretting everything.
But I did it because,
**I Love You

Let me tell you about me

People look at me,
Like I am a thing that came from outer space.
They look at my height, my clothes, my wrists, my thighs, but not at me.
They say things like you are small or you wear really weird clothes.
Why don't you wear shorts or why do you have bracelets on one wrist.
But none of them ask me why I am me.
No asked me why I can be sad, but paint a smile on my face just to get through the day. None of them ask why my eyes are rimmed with tears but I say that everything is okay. That is the biggest lie, I am okay.
No one asked me why I don't fit in or that i need a friend.
No, they asked what is on the outside, not what is in the inside.
That is all they see, is the outside.