i apologize
for the burden i’m being
with my worthless presence
and my constant leaving

*c.b.

I must remind myself
that the universe is beautiful
scary, but so beautiful
I do not have enough time
to comprehend it
and neither do you
so just lay here with me
and stop questioning
why you what you feel

just lay here with me...
and embrace your existence

i tried assembling words
that looked beautiful on paper
describing what i feel

it took me time to realize
that there was nothing beautiful
about these past years

*c.b.

close your eyes
and you'll understand

what i see
and what i am

to be nothing
to see nothing
to feel nothing

a dagger is prying my bones
exploring what my skeleton holds

checking if i'm still whole
checking if i have a soul

*c.b.