She lost her mind, only to find her heart.
She isn't crazy, she's just different.
She's no longer blind, now she sees everything that's in front of her.
She knows where she's going.
A man once deemed her "weak", only to not realize how powerful she really was.
How unstoppable she's become...how invincible she will be.
Strong enough to pick up the broken pieces, smart enough to know what she deserves and crazy enough to take on the world...with or without anyone by her side.

It's been 26 years and I'm finally letting out these held back tears
Of confessing to my family and friends of all my hidden fears
Another beer..a lack of drive cause I'm too drunk to ******* steer...the end feels near but I wanna be better than what ya see...who I appear
100 friends yet, they never call and call only when it's a need
I ******* bleed to please all of what ya need! But is it me? Of course it's me... I'm a monster who can't control his emotions that's why my 5 yr love decided to flea. Do I care? Will they always be there? Why do I repeat this *******...is life truly fair?
Fake success...maybe dress to impress...care a lil less and show your ignorant heart with your hollow chest! You can't impress people who already saw you at your best.
You're a poet, hell of a writer with the ambition to change the world! Yet your dark heart has made it impossible for you to remain with any girl...your mind twirls...your soul spins...gain a loss, forget a win...maybe it's time for you to finally look at yourself from within. Where have you been? Have you ever been honest? You can't escape this quick sand! TELL EM YOUR TRUTH! "Hi, my name is Bland" TELL EM YOUR WEAKNESS! I look in the mirror and it's ME i can't stand! "TELL EM MORE! AND DONT LIE!"...I tried and and continue deny. I'm a selfish individual who can't see things for what's right, so I pray selfishly to have "God" listen only to make everyone I ever spoken to a victim of my mission to do whatever the **** I want without permission...(I can't do this anymore!) FINISH! Okay! I'm not okay...I draw picture in my head, of a bed...of dirt and roses that say my name where I lay cause I have more issues than CNN and never know when the right time is to vent, cause I'm a self centered person who could honestly careless...and if it was your life I would probably Payless for me to no longer feel stress and sell you for me to come out best and invest in money power and false respect...I'd sell your soul for myself...I need help ******, .IM SORRY! Please make me stop... NO! YOU HAVE A LIL MORE TO SAY...okay! One day I woke up and told myself I may have nothing left to say and I can't stand the way how most people speak to me and the stupid **** they say so I pretend to listen and care but really I stare and am no longer there and I treat people like **** and use anger as a protectant so that no one can get close...my temper...please they won't dare...but I'm a little boy inside who is terrified and sacred and have no idea how to sleep peacefully because I'm addicted to the nightmares and I sit next to family in an attempt to fit in meanwhile look at my ******* skin...bottom line is, I'm nothing like these people from texture to within...I love to sin and I haven't meditated more than 15 minutes...I just say this **** so ya leave me alone and pretend to think I'm a good person and did it. Now I'm alone and possible insane! TELL EM BLAND! Idk what's wrong with my brain...I can't escape my mental cage...I feed off the world's rage and hate people who change. But I will change! Give me a chance, devil! Let me try to grow? You know what's best for me or you're a master of this manipulation? How do you know? Just let me feel something and be better than what itvm is...my past...let me seek the potential of being better than my dad. I'm not afraid! STF... NO! I'm not done talking, walking and following what it is I'm finally becoming! No longer running! As the alarm goes off and tells me to wake up and make up for my past and grow and feel the sun to warm my "cold heart" and see life for all its beauty, love in the air...seeing how a good thing last. I'm not afraid of your spew and all you do! And you trying to take your pitch fork and stick me of all the evil that resides in you! And yet, I will be something more of what I never knew id ever be! WHO THE ******* THINK YOU TALKING T... nobody, for once I'm talking to me Speaking to you as I continue and find what it is I can finally reach! Honesty, family, friends, love and myself...with everything else I always wanted to be! as I finally open my eyes and see...me.
I've kept a lot this a secret and had no idea it would finally come out for me to share...
No ones perfect...I just hope this doesn't change your perception of me...I truly changed...please...I need ya there.

I use to think I understood life.
It's easy right?
Get a job...aspire to make a lot of money! Forget the past and race toward your future!
Jump over road blocks, avoid danger and make it home safely.
Fall in love! Marry the person of your dreams and live happily ever after.
Accept kisses from the stars, ignore the burning of disaster.*
So easy...yet, not one of us can say it's something we mastered.
A figment of ones imagination to attempt the impossible!
To run without falling, to walk before crawling.
You can't skip steps, you can't avoid mishap.
You know no road has ever been straight
No person has always been great.
Flaws, detail our persona and mistakes create our aura.
We can't plan for what we don't know and can't change what has already happened.
Sometimes the way to your perfect healing is that nervous feeling of uncertainty that has us anxiously laughing.
Live through your dreams but never measure the clouds
Even the smallest accomplishments should be awarded, something to be proud.
Cause things just stop and friends sometimes leave
You're probably going to fail 1 millions times...before that 1 time you finally achieve.
So many people falling in and out of love...
One minute this person was your all,
Next thing...you feel nothing...you've become numb.
So we run...run fast from sadness and heartache..
"I do" for ever and always, "we'll never break." The real question should've of been..."if you truly love me...how much of it could you tolerate?"
Why do we leave...Why'd they find someone else?
Before you try to love someone...start with loving the most important thing...that's (yourself).

So many wild dreams! If you dream it you can have it!...No way we can be tamed! Yet, things sometimes get caught up...suddenly your dreams are stuck in a cage...
You can escape. No one said you had to be stuck...
Life to me is 90 percent smart hard work...10 percent dumb luck.
But that's just me...I'm insane. I see things with and open mind and closed eye.
I feel we can learn from the blind...they're the ones that can honestly see.
A distorted, ignorant world that we all ironically can "see".

Is it still "wealth" before "health"

Drop your pride...go ahead, ask for help.
One person can change the world, but first make sure you imply that change in yourself.
Life is a bed of roses...we take the thorns and we make do...
Life isn't a schedule...life isn't a plan...it's a feeling, it's a moment, it's...it's you.
So follow your heart, believe good comes out of your hardest situations.
Logic can take you from A-B...but you can go anywhere with imagination.
So my question is...do we understand life?
Nah, not at all...
It's the mystery of "what will happen next?"
It's our ability to learn as we go, and get up when we fall.

Never stop. Enjoy what have.


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