When a kid
I used to put
My boot
On the wrong foot!

A grown up
I put trust
On the wrong heart!

Help, please help me.
The reason is lost, I am feeling choked.
But I cannot tell them, they will not understand.
That every time, I have to drag myself up.

See, life plays its irony on me.
See, despite all of this, I do carry the greatest responsibilities.
That though I may feel dragged, still the anxiety has its greatest weights on me.

Help, a little purpose,
That is all I need.
A little purpose that tells me it is okay,
I can breathe.

But my heart is too broken to be broken by you
and I have bleed myself by cutting my skin for you
leaving me neglected is how you rob my value
yet that's just the way you **** me with no clue

You used to have a special place,
A special place in me.

Now the only special place you have,
Is your misery.

I am numb to the kindness they give me
But sensitive to the needles they ***** me with:
The ones that were supposed to numb all of me up
At once.

Girl, you deserve better
But, you keep making an excuse
Putting up with all of his nonsense
Haven't you had enough of his abuse?
He thrives on making you bitter
You often drown yourself in tears
Year after year, you can clearly see
That he was never really sincere

I wanna stop how I feel inside
and the thoughts of worthlessness and pain
I wonder why it has to be this way
and suddenly I'm reminded of you again

I wanna forget about that day
and about your body laying on the floor
I hate that I was old enough to understand
that you were gone; you'd walked through deaths' door

I wanna stop all the darkness
that tears away at my heart
but you're not here to tell me how
and that's the hardest part

Mummy, I wanna hold you again
and see you, just one more time
I can't stand how I've felt since you left
like the sun and stars no longer shine

I guess what I want doesn't matter
you're gone - never coming back
so I'll keep crying and walking
along this sad, dark, empty, lonely track

I'll keep going
until the day my heart ceases to beat
until I join you again
and life quietly whispers defeat.