Finally,
Under
Countless
Killings

My
Ending

words.
powerful ****

If my body was as broken of my heart,
there would be a million pieces of me everywhere.
If I was my heart, I would have scars all over,
I would be bleeding all over.
As if heartbreak wasn't serious,
I would be visiting the doctor on a daily bases.
If I were my heart,
I would be big but feel so small.
I would have trouble deciding my morals,
and I would have an attack every time I see your face.
I I where my heart,
I would struggle to keep fighting,
to keep breathing.
If I were my heart,
I would be dead.
I would be gone,
because she had my heart,
it was never returned.
I would be kept under lock and key,
not seeing a peek of daylight.
If I were my heart,
I would have cracks all over my body,
and one little sneeze would crash me down to dust.
If I were my heart.
Oh if I was.
I'd day after every mean comment.
I would melt at the sight of beauty,
and I would never let myself go.
Oh,
If I were my heart.

Im having the worst day of my ******* life.
No lie.
I sliced my hand open
I threw away about 30 bucks
Im ******* worn out already
Im *****
I tripped 4 times today
And i have a ******* headache.
I cant think straight.
What i need
Is a monster
A popsicle
And a ******* hug

power influences people to do bad things
power is the inevitable enemy
power ***** people up

"my life is like a horror movie.
With many twist and turns.

"My life is like flowers,
blooming in the daylight.

My life is like being locked in prison,
always so dark and cold."

My life sheds warmth
that covers my bones."

"My life is like getting hit with stones,
always a bruise somewhere.

"My life is like a box of chocolates......
i never know what I'm gonna get.

My life is like being trapped in a wall of fire,
surrounded by things that will only hurt and scorch. "

My life is like hot co-co
on a snowy day."

Their lives were so different,
yet they made it work
anyways.

worry fills my heart,
my soul,
my mind.
She was hit again,
god, what is wrong with her father?
How could someone hit,
such a good person.
How could someone abuse
the human not matched.
She holds the blade.
please, i love you, please
She stares at the screen.
I am scared for you.
Put the blade down, ***.
For me
Just keep holding. on.
That blade has no right to touch you.
I am worried for you,
do not do this
*please

I
couldn't
keep going
so
I
quit.

welcome to this grim facade.
Tons of work
Not to consider a perk.
welcome to this crazy
world in which we reside.
don't think
you can escape.
once your here,
your trapped
locked in.
Done,
shut.
This chasing wish.
Covered in a bright green dish.
These clouds will consume you.
**are you ready?

"cut my life into pieces,
this is my last result.
Suffocation
no breathing"

If you tell me I got problems,
**I'll rip your face off!!

Do not think i have given up.
Do not believe i am gone.
I have done neither.
I am just *done

one day
I will be able to rest my knees
on the ground my ancestors fought so hard for

Stay lovely

Coming to the realization
that I am depressed
is frightening.
I do not need a doctor to tell me, I do not need a father to pray for me,
all I need
is to be alone.
Process things for a bit.
And maybe,
live a little
****
Exotic
Paradoxical
Respective
Extreme
Super
Serious
Interestingly
Odd
Numbing


disorder.

Shhh child
*this world,
Its all a dream

I want to be your Superman.
I want to fly you to safety.
I want to soar the winds with you,
and feel your soft lips against mine.
I want to hold you up to the moon,
and watch it's light rival with yours.
I wish i could give you the world,
and not be a poor kid from a poor town.
I wish i could give you a night to remember
not in the ****** way.
I want to sit you down,
and in hand
and tell you all the things i love.
i wish i could write it all.
But the truth is worse than this poem.
The truth is that i am just a....well. im just me.
Nothing but a man holding roses in the rain.
You are everything i wish i could be...and more.
You are my loveliest dream.
a gift from the clouds.
You are my angel
my soul redeemer.
Babe, how i wish i could be the same.
But you and i both know that I am not good enough.
I am the lost boat in the harbor.
But i still want to sail.
Sail with you into the horizon.
And never. come. back

Please dont think change  is out of reach.
So many  have lost hope.
me included
But we cannot give up.
Look up to the sky
Or look me in the eye
And say
"im going to  be okay"
Hope exists
We only need to seek it

We have always been building up to this point
*you had to know it was coming

her beauty
captures my heart
the most beautiful part
is not her body
but her smile.
Not her curves,
but her spirit.
She is perfect.
Everything about her is.
Sometimes,
it is not the makeup that shows beauty,
but the spirit and the will to keep going.
Her beauty captivates me.
Her soul gives me rest.
It is not about what she has,
not her *******
not her ***
not her hips
but her laugh,
her smile,
her thoughts.
I love her
*I do

stiff shouldered
walk away
*what'd I do today?

Its quiet in the void today,
no soul came,
no soul left.
I felt the absence today.
No one to see,
no one to talk to.
I sit here crouched in my bed,
singing a lullaby.
Its quiet in my head today,
no thought came,
no thought left
                                                            ­                And here I am
                                                              ­             Among the thoughtless
                                                     ­                             Among the hated.
Its quiet today,
which most people beg for.
But not me.
I value the noise.
I value the chatter,
the useless

                                                               ­               Here I am today,
                                                          ­                with my inner silence

Here I am in this world of a thousand lies,
here i lay right in the middle,
watching it tear itself apart.
And tomorrow,
when i open my eyes,
and i see the destruction,
I will not weep.
I will shake my head in disgrace,
condemn the fallen,
and leave the world to eat itself in an agonizing conclusion.
Folks, we're reaching the end.

                                                 The silence is coming.

I wont stop thinking of you
til death
I love you
I hope you speak of me
til death
I wish  i could love you.
Give you what  you want.
What you need
What hasnt been given.
I swear i would love you til the end.
Death could not seperate me
Nor rushing tides that crush and tear.
My heart  is yours.
It is in your hands.
You are beautiful.
Smart as hell.
Love your words.
Love who you are.
I wish i could hold you
I want  to look in your eyes
And see life
My dear,
I wish i could be there
til death
But honey  
I just  dont know
I dont know if you like me
Or if things just appear this way.
God
you are perfect
Everything .
I cant explain this.
Im a terrible  poet
But i write for you.
I will write for you
til death
Even if i never see you
My vivid memory will provide  flawlessly.
Beautiful
Caring
Passionate
I see your need
For love
To be loved
Because you are
Like me

I love you.
Believe me.
I hope we can be together
*til death

So emotional
My body shakes
Constant tears.
My fingers grip knives.
Its cold.
And this angry feeling is getting so old
I cant take it anymore
My headaches claim my smile
My thoughts have become so vile.
My chest rises up
And back down.
I break concentration
And suddenly
black
*no tomorrow
Peace at last

I face the dark
*it almost always wins

You know what i like to do after a good meal?
*read **** good poetry

I came from a family of dreamers
Only to be thrown in a cell with haters.
I came from a house of love
Only to be tossed inside hell like a dog toy.
I cant get away
These shackles are too heavy.
With every look,
I burn.
I crumble to embers.
I fly away in the wind.
No one should understand
What I feel

One question
*does it explode?

my piano
plays a sad tune.
My piano
makes a rhythm that echos through my heart.
It sings and cries,
while confessing all its lies.
My shattered heart follows the piano.
As If there was salvation
in *music

she makes me feel so bad
*But it feels so good

I sit here,
listening to the lecture.
I sit here,
wishing to go home.
But then I really think about
home.
Your home is not the same as mine.
My house is not my home.
At home, memories of pain exists.
At home, the weapons used against me lie on the counter,
waiting to strike again.
I think of home and I cry,
not because I want to go back,
but because I never want to go back.

When a heart breaks,
there is no surgeon to fix it.
There is no medication to remedy the pain.
When a heart breaks,
no amount of duct tape can hold it together.
Why must it be that because I'm s guy,
I am supposed to not feel heartbreak.
See,
Life is love.
And without love,
What is life?
MY heart is tired.
It has been taken,
returned,
taken,
returned.
One more return and I think I just might die
This place we call Earth hurts.
It really is a ****** up place.
Heartbreak is painful,
I know.
I just don't want it to happen again.
I want to love someone,
who loves me
and who will hold me
for the rest
of my life

Children
stop your tears
this life
is just a diversion
This pain you feel
will end.
It has to end

life scatters in a million pieces.
The way not shown
the time not given
This life is failing me.
Can I cut open my veins
and let my soul run free

I spoke.
One word.
The beauty fell out like a sack of bricks,
my words
hit the ground like an angel meets fate.
Love has died.
I said "no"
no broke the barriers of sound,
yes, love broke ME.
I DECIDED TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT
is that so bad?
I made it clear,
i do not hate love,
but love had failed me.
Love had made me tired.
Love did not let me rest.
Love did not let me live.
I could not be myself,
because love is a critic.
Love has silenced me out.
When love said it wouldn't,
it threw me away despite my attempts to build something new.
Love had taken my heart,
and ran.
leaving me kneeling towards something I don't quite understand.

Terrifying.
Intellectual
Fierce
Fate.

Thus, I have died.
May I apologize for nothing.
Because love, you made me this way.
Love cannot stray me away from my faith anymore.
I am done committing a sin to please the feelings you crave.
Love, you have died.
Love, this is goodbye,
Love,
goodbye.

Bad jokes
are always the best

you whispered to my heart







*with your knife

If I was a bird
I'd  sit in a tree
And




Sleep all day

Its funny.
You spent so much time wishing me away
And when i did go away
Your tears formed a river.
"I didnt mean it!"
Well i did

no matter what I feel,
I must never go back.

shhhhhh!
she told me.
Through the hall of an open door.
Shh
they'll **** us.
So we hid
in the night sky
forever

oh ****.
i think I've done it.
I made the world come crashing down beneath my ankles.
You, my dear fellow are my vessel of hope,
Lets take this step by step.
I speak
you yell
you hit
you bite
you might
**** me,
please do.
i beggeth of you.
take e home *****!
But wait, i plead the fifth.
no no no
i dont want to die,
i dont know whats real
whats a lie.
but art though,
**** me now!