Do I get seen by this world around me,
Or am I invisible to every person.
Only for boys to examine my frail body,
Just like another fish within the ocean.
Am I invisible to everyone around me,
For every one around to flaunt.
My body is invisible for all to see,
And this world it will not haunt.
For you will only find the reminiscences,
Of my despair and destruction of my mind.
Something that is unknown to science,
But somewhere I hope I'm still here to find.

I love how your hair cascades down from your head,
How the brown contrasts your pale skin.
I love how your eye are the window to my soul,
How it shows the pain and scars through its crevaces.
I love how your clothes hang off you like bags,
How you could wear anything else but you don't.
It's taken me years to start loving myself again,
Just a start but it's something.
I love how I'm not scared to say it anymore,
I love myself.

So tell me why I feel so alone
In a world full of 8 billion people,
And why music is the only thing
That rests my soul

Talking isn't dating
Dating isn't committing
Commitment isn't contentment
Contentment isn't forever
Forever isn't love
Forever is until they get bored...

1 + 1 = 2
But what if,
2 + 2 = 5
We are subject to belief,
That one way is the only...
2 + 2 = 4
But what if,
2 + 2 = 5

And i said,
At this point I wish I never met you.
You had told me you were emotionless,
But I hoped my words hurt you like you hurt me.

We use filters to cover up our faces,
I use them to cover up my tears.
After a long night of crying and trying,
Trying to battle again all of my fears.
My insecurities and anxiety,
The feeling that I will never be enough.
No one cares in this society,
About how you're life is really going.
You put on your smile again,
The only filter that you see showing.
When we aren't glued to our phones,
Trying to get attention from another.
When we aren't constantly up at night,
And our heads in pillows trying to smother
Our lives and the cries of help.
Trying to silence ourselves,
Hiding the blades on the top shelves
Cause we know that's were we can reach them.
I wish I was like that...
The one with the filter,
That covered her face for photos
For the next camera shutter.
The one with a filter,
On her mouth so I wouldn't talk out of line.
The one that can smile,
And not have to pretend that she's fine.
Not sure if it will get better,
Oh, I hope I didn't upset her.

You stand and wear your crown,
Up high.
You're always looking down,
From your castle in the sky.
You are on cloud nine,
Stuck in your little fantasy.
You are doing just fine.

Followed around by your heels,
By each one of your loyal servants.
Each hair flip reels,
One more person subservient.
You put others down,
"Sure your life's so hard."
To scared to take of the crown,
And let down your guard.

There's a queen behind,
Every princess.
There voice tyrant,
But that doesn't make anyone less.
Being above you can push,
Them all down, shove and shove.
But you are going to fall,
Like the rest of us.

So many connect to pain,
Than they do to happiness.
Can't say I don't feel the same,
But I don't like people feeling less.
I know is hard but please be happy,
If not for me
For you.
Please smile,
And spread it.
Like the disease it is. :))

Never again...
Will I let anyone in.
Never again...
Will I begin
To bring myself closer,
To being happier.
I will never move on,
For I've been done.
I will not wait,
No not in this state.
Nor even if someone
Was to find me,
And I start to be.
Never again...
Will I be sad
Or be mad.
Never again...
Will I let anyone in.
Cause when I've been
Broken,
There is no use for
Hoping.
Never again...
Will I make the same mistake.
And let someone in,
For my heart to break.

Even a blind man sits and says,
Ay I see
And the deaf man says,
Oh I was told by a little birdy.
For they understand more,
About the torment of life and love.
Yet the dead still live,
In the darkness of the light above.
Still dead in love,
And living in hate.
All the time in the world;
End it now?...
I think it's too late.
Everything's fine.

Black and White,
That's all you had to be.
You gave yourself to someone else,
And I got left with the darker
50 shades of your grey.

When I'm awake,
                                                          ­              All of my body shakes.
     When ever I'm in your wake,
                                                      My body will quiver and quake.
             Oh... how your smile would make,
                                          Words shift from that violent snake.
      Everything I knew you said was fake,
                        Plunge into my body that wooden stake.
                                   And I bleed from my skin like red on a snowflake,
Drown my body in my hearts tears that form thy lake.

They just do sometimes.
Whether its not telling me whats wrong,
to just acting so stupid.
The constant feeling of hate,
Then saying that they love me.
Or just in general...
Why? I Don't know...

Sometimes peoples words hums,
A nice little song.
And paints something vivid,
Shows me life's fate.
So people don't you see,
Being not confused is a struggle...
But it helps my words flow...

I dont think you realised what poetry is,
It's words spilled out that couldnt be just said.
Its just not as simple as copy and paste,
Someone elses words will never show what you want.
But I wrote you the prettiest words,
Straight from my heart.
You copied someone else words,
Just to play your part.
And I knew at that moment,
That you never gave me your head or heart.

Can I say I love you?
I'm not very sure.
I've been hurt before,
That much is true.
I really love you,
But I'm not sure too.

Be happy,
You got through today.
Be happy,
I'll tell myself everyday.
Be happy,
Even when you're ******.

He knows my scars,
My battle wounds with myself.
He understands their story,
My broken body fixed by his self.

Star light,
Star bright.
The first star I see tonight.
I wish I may,
I wish I might.
Have the wish I wish tonight.

In the moment
Days are long,
And they seem
To Just drag on.
But when you look
At each day,
Time seems to be,
Slipping away.
But when I'm with you
Seconds, minutes, hours, days stop still.
And my heart and time
And my devotion you fill.

And if you look,
Hard enough.
Poets never get famous,
Unless they die...
Or,
Commit suicide.

It started burning,
Flames buried the ground in ashes.
Our hearts are churning,
Susceptible to the new heat flashes.

Earth's lungs dying,
It's dire dying last breath.
Wind is no longer flying,
Through the tree tops - Because there is nothing left...

And we'll be left standing,
Moping around doing absolutely nothing.
Thinking everything's everlasting,
When everything around - is disintegrating...

You didn't see,
But I did a little flip.
The words lit up me,
And now I'm just smiling...

In your own tears,
Swimming with a frown.
Becareful not to drown,
Swim you're heart out.

Just signing off for today,
My feelings yet again got in the way.
Made life **** again,
So going before my day begins.

Signing off again for a second time,
Cause I can't sit here and pretend I'm fine.
Too many people spreading s**t,
Too much time... space on my wrist to slit.

Signing off,
To sum it up... It's alot of stuff.
Hopefully this is the last,
And hopefully I'm out fast.

a puddle of love is what you gave me
and i drowned in it
while you avoided my crashing ocean
and didnt even help me up

What if I never get over,
Your touch?
Or your smile,
And your laugh?

What if I never get over,
My happiness?
Feeling whole,
And complete with you?

What if I never get over,
You?

You?
No, I will never get over you.

I love you till my hearts content,
I will love you till we reach our end.
And to death do us part,
Be extended till forever we will stay!

What if I call you?
The number you dialled is no longer available,
Beep...
The number you dialled no longer exists.
What if I call your name?
The person you are calling is no longer available,
What if I walk up to you?
The person you see no longer exists.
I'm sorry...
The person you are trying to reach no longer wants to exist,
...
The person you are trying to reach no longer exists.
But what if I yell to the stars?
Heaven nor Hell can receive your request.

When we kiss,
He smiles and looks at me with adoration.
Oh and his lips?
I don't know what they taste like.
Of course I've kissed them,
I just pay attention to the softness.
And yes I let him,
Kiss me.
Yes he promised me forever,
I'll love him for ever and ever,
But Idk if he meant it...
I could have said yes, no or maybe,
But we're only sixteen.
I want to marry him,
Maybe it's all a dream.

Sneaking out seeking souls to sleep with, holding hands with helpless hollow horror, waiting for wholeness and *****-ness to wisp wetness, vulnerable and vindictive vicious boys prey, and eat away at me and my "magnificent" attention seeking adored abdomen, ******* that broke boyfriends from girlfriends just to fill the fluctuating depression fracturing my frail heart.

why is it that when i start to write poetry about someone... it always goes south...

You are the pumpkin to my pie,
My cherry on top of a sunday.
You are the light to my eye,
And I will love you everyday...
For as long as I am alive,
You complete me!

Cheat on Fate,
Escape Destiny.
Write your own right,
Across and Among the Stars.
For thy Romeo and Juliet,
Might be a woe story.
None such as that,
Exist in reality.

For yes life is full of woe,
And tribulations and terror.
But live for what you know,
One thing can't stay in stone forever.

"I'm original!"
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"I'm not loved"
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Words...
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We are not original,
We will never be original...
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Smile, Love; Break again
The same way again
The same ending again
Make mistakes; Last chance again
Get up again
Get up out of bed again
Be happy; Love again
I'll give you a chance,
To let me love again
To feel my heart dance,
Because if I never stopped
Never stopped loving you,
There's never an again to feel that...

It's the job,
Its the friends.
Oh so thats why youre such a ***?
This just a means to old ends.
It's the family,
Its the money,
So that's the reason for your stupidity?
Everything just seems so funny.
It's me?
No, it's you.
Well if you'll leave me be?
I'll be happier, that's one thing true.

If you want change,
Make a change.
It is up to you,
To deam what is true.