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365 · May 2017
Prison of Illusions
Apollo Hayden May 2017
Someone said we had time
but it has always been slipping.
Saturn plays tricks on the mind, making things seem as if they've changed but it has never been any different.
Still we're here, under the same sun repeating old things as if they're brand new, feeling as if they've never been done.
Stuck in a prison of illusion; holographic in every way, trying to set fire to this merkaba so that my spirit can levitate.
And turn this cage into a spaceship to reach worlds I never could reach,
to steal the sands of time out of the illusionist's mind is exactly what I seek.
But I'll still be living, cautiously walking without haste across quicksand with a light heart, because a heavy one will just cause me to sink.
Someone said that we have time, but time has us and it is not what we think.
Destroy the barriers created to cause these illusions, and you'll find that they have always been man made.
360 · Feb 2016
Speed of Light
Apollo Hayden Feb 2016
You can hear a lot in silence.
The truth so loud, like sirens striking the ears of the heart
at light speed, love speaks.
Apollo Hayden Jan 2017
There are times I fall so deep in dreams, I have to break my own heart just to open my eyes.
Upon return, the world feels so different to me, as if someone has sped up time.
As I journey through the mazzaroth, I learn more about the signs, all while learning how to balance mine at the same time.
351 · Mar 2018
Turbulent Reflections
Apollo Hayden Mar 2018
Within turbulent reflections the sun can still be seen by an altered perception; the storm has already ceased.
In the mist we calmly drift to higher frequencies.


-Apollo Hayden
341 · Jan 2017
Free Dinner
Apollo Hayden Jan 2017
I lost my appetite last night when I saw the love fade in her eyes,
even though the mood was set just right, actions spoke louder than words.
Why am I even here with her?
Under dim lights with candles that surround, there's a one man band in the background strumming his guitar but I can't even hear its sound.
Nothing much is said but everything is felt, she treats me like a stranger and those tears only fool herself.
A little bit more silence, the lack of eye contact tells it all, she puts her glass to her lips as the tears fall and fall.
Why am I even here with her?
This wine has gotten bitter. Oh, someone please come bring my check cuz her cold heart is giving me the shivers and there's nothing more left to be said.
This is not how I imagined it, no it's not how I thought it would be.
It cost me alot to sit face to face, but for her, dinner was free.
341 · Sep 2016
In the Balance
Apollo Hayden Sep 2016
Tired eyes and weathered skin,
each wrinkle tells stories of days never to be seen again.
How much does it matter when all fades, when all returns to dust?
Will they remember the beauty of your spirit, or only speak no further than the body you were in?
Blinded by the outside, never thinking of the soul within, keeps the brain asleep; never to ascend.
Is it shoes, is it money, is it the mask you wear that is the only thing of value? Is it temporary things that keep you going, or is it the truth that gets you through?
Your life is in the balance of this world you've been clinging to.
Time to let go and let the lies die, to live in eternal truth.
338 · Oct 2016
Footsteps in the Sky
Apollo Hayden Oct 2016
Thunder rolls as lighting bolts create flashing images in my mind,
of bowling *****, falling pins and giant men walking around in the bluish black sky.
337 · May 2016
The Diver
Apollo Hayden May 2016
I say the most when my mind is turning and my mouth is closed.
Speaking with those who swim and dive deeper into the sea of collective consciousness.
To drown, one would have to live above the surface in a backwards world such as this.
Truth is the only oxygen.
333 · Apr 2017
Ink filled Heart
Apollo Hayden Apr 2017
You tell me to get out of my feelings
and so I let them out.
Tell me, who are you to tell me how to deal with this heart?
There's no way you could see within its dark, there's no way you could perceive so just read and don't try and pick it apart.
I feel it all, and with this pen as my sword I fight through the night, writing till I defeat these demons, until I reach morning light.
I won't ask for your forgiveness if you think it's best I keep some **** to myself.
I'm going to keep working this pen out to maintain my mental health.
We all have our stories and we've all been through some things,
I'm just trying to leave this earth with a lighter heart so I can gain my wings.
So I leave it on the lines, yes I leave it all to cleanse the mind,
for all this heart holds is ink as black as coal, and this diamond of a mind is what makes these words shine.
So just leave me be as I mix my ink with the sands of time, leaving it all here on earth because we can't take anything with us when we die.
321 · Dec 2015
Every word
Apollo Hayden Dec 2015
Let me write upon your skin, so that when the ink sinks in, you feel every word.
319 · Nov 2016
Give 'em Truth
Apollo Hayden Nov 2016
Find a way of delivering the truth to the wee ones without destroying their sense of imagination.
Speak it through it by creating a beautiful colorful world full of wonder and (amaze)ment.
Be there by their side, like an invisible guide; more like a voice of reason.
Give 'em truth, yet let them find their own way.
318 · Apr 2016
Insomniac
Apollo Hayden Apr 2016
I can hear 'em.
"Don't nobody wanna hear dat ****." But what that just means to me is, "just go back to sleep," in which I reply by saying "I can't because this  insomnia is serious," but I wouldn't have it any other way.
Eyes see through the night, so I'm never sleep walking through the day.
316 · Dec 2016
Faith in Love
Apollo Hayden Dec 2016
If our lips should touch it'll all come rushing back on in,
so when I use my imagination why does it feel like such a sin?
So much space and time has gone by, still I prepare myself for the climb
because you've built up your wall so high, making it harder for me to get back inside.
But I won't throw it all to the wind,
I'll pick my ladder up and try again,
since I saw tears in your eyes it let me know I'm still a thought in your mind that swims.
Don't drown me out with a cold cold heart,
Oh no,  don't let the space get so wide
to the point that you let me fall out your heart, and no longer care that I'm not apart of your life.
Still I climb with faith in love intact to fight the feeling of anxiety, to silence the doubts when I'm feeling shut out. Then your eyes eventually remind me that love is still present, by letting your emotions that you still keep towards me show, you humble yourself and let them flow out.
313 · Jan 2017
I try
Apollo Hayden Jan 2017
Days go by

You'd think I'd be doing fine
but I'm missing you more and more

Still I try and carry on
yet wonder if you'll ever reopen your door
and let me return
309 · Nov 2017
Through the Rain
Apollo Hayden Nov 2017
Misery disappears the more one becomes aware.
Tell me, are you willing to go deep past where the arrow has pierced
and sit within the storm long enough to understand the pain, to realize those tears you've cried helped you grow through the rain?
Before this, life was simple, quiet and easy, you were living without a care,
till an arrow hit your heart and flipped your whole world upside down, woke you up and made you more alert, so learn through the hurt now.
It is in our sorrows where we can be transformed.
Just don't give up even though your heart feels like its had enough; hold on because a new you will be born.
305 · May 2017
October Soul
Apollo Hayden May 2017
Till the day I die
I'll be getting high off life
tightrope walking way up high on every line that I write
Balancing these emotions with the energies of Autumn
299 · Feb 2016
Never gone for long
Apollo Hayden Feb 2016
Like ocean waves that hit the shore line
I come back to you every time
No I'm never really gone for long...
This space creates the muscles to our love.
Organically we've come to be; communicating with a high voltage of electricity. Even tho I know the telepathy's strong, it still shock everytime.
Always on my mind, yes you are always in my head,
I hear the whisper of your voice, and frequently smell your sweet aroma.
There's days I wish you closer, and I know there's days you wish that I was close to you,
but let our voices be the bridge to always brings us face to face.
Only just for a little while longer will you have to play the shore
And I will play the waves; coming back to you soon...
299 · Sep 2016
All you gotta do is breathe
Apollo Hayden Sep 2016
You can slow it down by just the sound of a love ones heartbeat,
you can come back down by just the  planting of your feet.
In the soil we can connect,  becoming one with the scenery, by sitting in silence and closing our eyelids and listen as the wind begins to speak.

All you have to do is breathe...in and out so deeply
till your feet become the roots, and the rest of you becomes the tree.
Whatever you do, get back, because this old world is fading away.
Raise your vibration; ignite your vertebrae.
298 · Dec 2016
Seasons of the Heart
Apollo Hayden Dec 2016
Forgive me for these words that pour,
turn not your eyes this way,
for I am stuck in a season of the heart, and all it does here is rain.
If you must look this way I assure you that the rawest to come out of pain is poetry for the senses that'll never leave you numb;
I know you can relate.
Can you hear it as it storms inside?
Will you stand with me in it as words continue to pour, and we'll wait here together for the sun to shine?
278 · Jan 2017
The ART in Living
Apollo Hayden Jan 2017
Thinking of your artic heart as I watch this winter wind blow over the water.
Emotions open leading me to sparks that I can build up to flames.
When silence is key and the heart is heavy, I leave what's in my head on the page, written in paint.
Writing through easy and hard times upon this canvas of a life;
still learning through living artistically.
275 · Dec 2018
Taming the flames
Apollo Hayden Dec 2018
Fire inside
like an uncontrollable flame
Emotions like Kerosene
The more I poured out it continues to rage
Started to rise till you could see it in my eyes and it brought on an irreversible change
Now look at me
Covered in ashes, tongue blackened with soot all over my face
I'm a wild fire when you push me
A sensitive soul but I ain't no p*y
If only you knew what you'd be getting into when you test me, maybe you'd tread a bit more softly
Even so, I know I still have much to learn as I stare at bridges that didn't have to burn...
Rummaging through ashes searching for anything left of any worth but its all just consequences in my hands
But I'm a loving man whose waters reach depth that one could never perceive, and so I'm misunderstood...
Just know I'm working on taming this flame inside
If you don't believe me, I wish you would...
Oh yeah, I'm cleaning up the inside
See the flames burn out in my eyes and the smoke begin to clear
IGNORance is ignoring the flames when knowing it needs tending to
but it's getting hot for even me so there's something I've got to do
So I quit fanning the flames and became the change by directing my energy to creative things
The fire is still lit but look what I've created with it
Words so powerful that they can rebuild a bridge
because the past is the past but this is the only way I can get over it...
274 · Jan 2017
Warriors of the mind
Apollo Hayden Jan 2017
To those with ears to hear, lift your heads up high.
Let the truth be the truth and it'll open up your eyes.
******* lines fill the sky, expanding till the blue heavens are covered in a vast ocean of white; weakening the sun, dimming beneficial light.
Keep your wits about ya and keep covered your king(dome) whenever you go outside,
It's a spiritual warfare and them lower forces are headed straight for your mind.
Straight for your mind to sabotage the divine that's been within you since the beginning of time.
It is there where you must stand on your square and be a warrior on the front lines.
271 · Apr 2016
For When I am Gone
Apollo Hayden Apr 2016
My spirit will speak to you through the words I write, and have written.
You will feel me in each and every sentence, so it doesn't matter if I'm here or gone. You'lll still hear my voice speak to you, even when it's time for me to return home.
264 · Dec 2016
Out of the darkness
Apollo Hayden Dec 2016
How can there be any real inner vision if you're afraid to be in the dark to let your mind shine like a prism?
263 · Dec 2015
One flower
Apollo Hayden Dec 2015
Turn the ears of your heart to these words that I have found in mine.
Though I am far, feel my presence draw nearer as you read each and every line.
Hear my voice speak these words; written down for only your heart to take, and as we fall deeper within each others, know that I will do all I can to keep you safe.
Though this world's on fire I pray that we don't disintegrate, for our love burns too; full of passion and each day it is renewed by hope and thoughts in prayer.
Wherever you are I am there. I place my words on a light wind and they are carried straight to your ears. If ever you need me look deep and see that I have always been there.
I am the twitch in your eyelid, I live in the circle of your iris; I'm in the wind that blows your hair.
In your silence, close your eyelids and open the ears of your heart. Know that we were seeds watered by experience that has now came to be one flower, and though the flesh will fade, this love will never part.
241 · Jan 2016
Untitled
Apollo Hayden Jan 2016
Like fluid you flow through me.
Starting right from the heart, floating in the brain streams of life-is what I paint for you from the EYE on the inside, diving deeper inside the ocean of love eternal.
Can you feel me swimming through?
212 · Sep 2018
Don't ever come back around
Apollo Hayden Sep 2018
You say I'm too cold.
Well I guess I'll be no use to you in winter when it comes.
Saying my responses are short if I respond at all, and its as if I've gone completely numb.
Oh, but I assure you that's not true, I don't even feel right being this way,
but it's all about protecting my heart at the end of the day.
Who but me is with himself twenty-four hours, three hundred and sixty-five?
I gotta take care of self, and keep a healthy state of mind.
And truth is you've become a broken glass in my eyes; so hard putting you back to the way I thought you were, I've cut myself a million times.
Once the trust is gone my whole world was torn like a punctured canvas of a beautiful masterpiece;
I've been doing my best in still trying to find the beauty that I once seen.
We get so use to things
until we're no longer true to things.
We even abandon wedding rings and forget all our vows,
but even when its falling down I'm Still the only one standing 'round,
getting hit by bricks when I thought we built such a strong wall.
The more we let things inside, the truth uncovered the lies in our eyes.
We were no longer who we were
so I keep silent cuz I've got nothing else to say,
and you do your best to let me know I'm still apart of your soul, in your half-*** ways of reaching out to me.
I guess it's the pride in you, so great that I hope one day it doesn't turn to hate
cuz I still got love for you and I know you know it's true.
But I'm protecting my heart now...
So if you dont come with truth and love, then don't ever come back around...
208 · Nov 2015
Never Change
Apollo Hayden Nov 2015
As Summer struggles to hold on I can smell Autumn in the air, bringing the feeling of tranquility.
Reminiscing, I fall back in time to a moment that will never leave my mind.
She was there with me, or maybe she was inside my eyes with hands pressed up against the windows of my soul, left in awe of what we saw, or maybe I was inside hers.
Whatever it was, we were one.
Standing there, surrounded by the forrest as the light of the sun flickered  through the leaves, we kept still.
The wind spoke to the trees, the leaves danced in the spotlight from the sun as the birds sung, and we, we were one.
Hand in hand, no, soul upon soul we stared down the path of where we stood as she heard my thoughts wonder if we'd always be, and in thought she stopped my wondering by saying that we would.
The path said "I am your love," the wind said "I am your emotions," the birds became our soundtrack in that moment as the leaves continued to dance without saying nothing.
I thought of Fall approaching and of how the colors of the earth will change, then I began to worry but my worrying was interrupted with a whisper of her voice.
She said "though we will go through many seasons, the authenticity of my love will never change."
207 · Dec 2016
Same Wave
Apollo Hayden Dec 2016
**** it's been so long since last I  seen your face; days can feel like months.
Now we sit here face to face, in the dead of winter you've become something like a warm front.
A few people sitting around but they've quickly disappeared from the sound of your voice; it can make my head feel so clear.
So much to say in this small café, I know I'll never say all that I wanted to,
so I rest my tongue more and listen as we sip on hot tea that sooths.
Warm already from your presence, it just satisfies my buds, and as I keep my eyes upon yours I realize that I've grown more in love.
From being apart, my heart sits inside barely beating, wondering when the next time it'll feel you near, or feel the vibration from when you're speaking.
You have covered up your heart so well it's hard to keep the connection, so well you've even guarded your head it's hard to get reception.
Just trying to stay on the same frequency so tell me where to dial in
so that I don't lose you through all the static in life, and we can surf on the same wave once again...

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