Oncologist said that's illness
And it was evolved and hopeless
Hiding and appearing become skilled
The last o'er time before I killed

As flower in desert
Skinny and pale were sign
Pray and cry were habits
Saw the Lord's house so high

My crown is missing
Because I'm struggling
My dream is missing
Because I'm struggling

Put hand in beating heart
Believing God's bell
Put hand in beating heart
And said " all is well"

Blue is your smoky dream to keep me wonder
Why you stand alone while I am really want you
His beautiful pink smile is keep her warmer
Flowers will be bloomed by you, and you, always you!

Glasses that always stay in your eyes is Black
Even shy, wish his Brown eyes keep staring at me
12.00 clock – always get me hurt to love your back
Don’t give me Yellow, become slowly ain’t me

I saw this your tinny heart still Grey to touch
My tied heart tired tried to told your Gold heart to taste
Can I change it to be Red? We can talk in couch
Or may be I can start from Yellow to the best

I am mess,
Need some rest

I've tried,
But failed

I don't know what I'm waiting
But they ask me to keep going

I don't know why!
Even we fall to high

I've been waiting on you
Just waiting for something real

How are you – the answer usually used to cover everything even we are not fine.
How even we believe with stranger
Just see their face by cam
Or even they show their ****!

They thought every women like 9 inch
We reach man who has purposed for marriage
Not use it everything as a *****

Baby! Sweetie! Honey! Sugar!
As if the man who I used to know
Thy tip of finger make any satisfy
Or even make any cry at night

Harder, Don’t deny any beat!
Thou are feels good in every chat?
Cause love doesn’t need any cost
For someone that we love the most

In the darkness with emotion
Watch the light runs
With die soul as if no motion
I think God's hand breaks my heart

Silent with voice in my head
They come from inside
And exit by tears
I need new body with a certain eyes

But we strong enough to pray
And still strong enough to hope
When there is nobody stay
I thought they slept with belief

I don't have any word, please
Stop to force bodies without any soul!
Let it all go after we fall
Like what rainbow do as usual

Can I have a little time to break?
To think less
To worry less 
To feel less
After all, I'll running again till the end of me

I thankful everything into smallest things
My mistake
My tears
My unhappiness
To see and thank you to blowing my life line

After all, promise me
To the love you've taken away
To the trust you've broken
To the life of little girl ever dream