I never realized that when they say,
"All dreams come true if you have the courage to pursue them"
they truly mean you must have courage.
Nothing in life comes free.
You will get hurt.
There will be nights when you cry until you can't cry anymore.
People will be cruel.
Many won't have sympathy for you,
no matter what you're going through.
But you have to stay strong.
If you want to accomplish something in life,
you have to keep going.
Put those who truly don't care in your past,
keep those who honestly love you by your side.
And yes,
those who love you will hurt you sometimes too,
but you will forgive them,
and you will keep your head held high,
and you will have the courage to succeed.
Dreams take determination and bravery.
So be brave.
Don't let the world or the common mishaps of life stop you.

It's 5 in the morning.
I haven't slept yet.
I never sleep at night anymore.
Everything hurts to much.
If I even think about sleeping,
I end up soaking my pillow in tears...
as the pain in my chest grows harder to ignore.
All the flashbacks return.
I don't feel very safe anymore.
So I'll wait for the sun to rise.
Then I'll sleep the day away,
and wake up to face the night once again.

I won't say I told you so.
I won't mention that I told you drugs couldn't help the hurt.
I won't talk about the fact that I knew I wasn't good enough for you.
I won't remind you that I said to stop drinking the guilt away.
I won't speak of the time I told you that you'd hurt me again.
I won't say I told you so.

I'm terrified now.
Of absolutely everything.
Everything scares me so much.
I keep wondering,
"Who will lie next?"
or
"Who will decide I'm not worth their time this time?"
I'm just so sick of being afraid...