I must confess
Shock value amuses me
I like to watch peoples faces
As I pull their legs
Freak them out
Blow their minds
Pull the wool over their eyes
After all acting is an approved lie
I play the cop sometimes
CAN I SEE SOME ID!!!
I'll shout
The freak in their eyes
Is what I'm all about
I see a way to put a smile on a face
I love joking
Laughing eyes glaring
People dropping their defenses
Strangers connecting
Life is precious
Bull ******* is my special gift
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I am not a cog in this machine
As it rolls on mightily

I wield creative deformity
Navigating aimlessly

My passion refined
Primitively divine

My anger rips through my fears
With claws of resentment

My love for life
An immortal hunger

And I’m not getting any younger!

It's getting ever clearer now
the distortions in-between..
The clouds of thoughts
are only passing over
the surface of my being

Here I write in passion's bliss
a mused by all I see
comfortable in my pleasure zone
secreting dopamine!

This day I face myself
Fear is an illusion
I refuse to imagine some doom
I refuse to **** our conclusion

Through the force of good
I recognise all faces
Fear not for our human death
will only change us.

I could never desire
More than I consume
One house, one lover
One big garden in bloom
Dear Poetess I have room

Be kind to the weak
Give to the broken poor
Meet me here
I’ll give you more
Dear Poetess
Come home from the war
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without a thought
i began this life
somethings sure
to come to light
an't got no lover
an't got no wife
this is not
a rant oh no
nor gripe
deep insight
can free the soul
i loved her more
then you could know
perhaps we met
in a life time past
happiness
wasn't meant last
and yet
we spiral down
and start again
for next time
we are bound to win

Pardon us
Worlds apart

We didn't have
Your interests at heart

This isn't an apology
From the right or the left

This is simply a eulogy
Of democracy's best

We missed the oh cue
Scratched on the eight

Surely we should have seen
The flip side of fate

Yet to regain control
Can be so submitting

But on the greener side of the grass
   We hope to be *******...

Actually
I can imagine
Who I want to be
But could that ever truly be me
All the time and hard work
To cause a change within
Yet I keep on showing up
Acting like Tim
Perhaps to actually change
Takes a near death awakenings
And so we’ll finally learn our lessons
In the final quickening!

Her state of imperfection
sustains my desire's
Exploited are her curves
in scanty attire
Exaggerated are her depths
such invigorating designs
Dancing in a dreamscape
of intoxicating lines...

No other thought
can penetrate this trance
My heart beats a rhythmic
meditative chant
Enlightened brush strokes
of excited flesh
Rembrandt yet Van Gogh
Traditional abstract mesh...

Bought then sold
like Faustus Soul
We consult the Devil
   And the moment grows...

So much energy is spent attempting to explain the nature of depression.
Anxiety and anger can negatively affect family members. The outcome is a dysfunctional relationship.
We can’t thrive tiptoeing around these problems.

The solution is simple.
You are what you eat. An intermittent fasting diet consisting of only meat, dairy and vegetables.
Long walks, leave your device behind.
I guarantee you, your depression will go away within weeks and never return, when you change your lifestyle.

The compulsion of reality
Drives the spirit deep
Holding on to life and breath
Each challenge more unique

Sporadic the patterns of chaos
As the electrical sparks ignite
Less order in the cosmos'
And so I bid you fair good nigh
........

There was a certain genral
As shady as can be
His army and his
Assets
He turned upon me
The fight
Drew long
The arrows unkind
Battlefields
Of morals
The crossing of lines
I’m still alive
Trying to break free
Chipping at the wall
They built around me
......

As I walk into the storm
I leave my past behind
The fourth son scorn
The outlaw torn
The thorn within
Their pride

I exist invisibly
Deep inside their minds
A passing thought
A forgotten walk
Through bitter better times

If I go casing winds
I'll make my way
To you
Close my mind
Fall behind
Someday
When I'm through!

Way back when
I use to believe
Things got even worse

Assigning judgement
To all my grief
Such a deep regretful curse

There had to be
A reason why
So I said my prayers
And refused to lie

Wisdom comes
In burning flames
As the fire's of Hell
Consume your lame

And all that remains
Is a need to love
In a lifetime set free
From those eye's above...

I cannot be contained
in any social constructions..
Nor can I be indoctrinated into some imperialistic corruption.
I could never comply
with rulers that ignore our constitution nor with the unelected deep state’s evil solutions.

I’ll teach and preach ‘til I turn blue, my hands are tied, I’m counting on you!

I am safe within this moment
I invite you to feel as calm
pay no attention to all the chaos
the collective’s fear is strong!

Us creatives have the task
of invoking our higher selfs
learn to sing in higher octaves
distribute our supplemental wealths

The pass is but a thought
the future we must imagine
I will channel my energy
in a moment of loving compassion

My soul’s
running raw
tonight
my love’s
an open sore
I’m drowning
in these depths
despite
my buoyant heart
needs more

She here to share
this world with me
our momentary
dream
she here
to fill my emptiness
she’s my one
and only
queen

I hold her tight
all through the night
a sedentary sigh
I’ll rise at light
to be the one
who's worries
carries
on my mind

And when the sun
finally shined
All the creatures
Were doing fine
The dark had retreated
With moon on display
There, on the horizon
A brilliant maze
Of mirrors and colors
Reflections of life
There I left behind
The blindness of strife
There the thankfulness
Planted a seed
To be alive
I am
Happy indeed!

It was a beautiful day
When I lifted the shades
It seemed as if things
Were going my way

Then I noticed the shadow
Coming up from the rear
It fell on a black day
My greatest fear

I'll shake it off
Sleep'in real late
That's how it goes
In a world full of hate
...

And there I was hanging
Eternity beneath my feet
One handed white knuckle
One tight grip on reality

And so I wonder where
My strength comes from
And who will catch me
When I lose my grip

I never knew I could fly.

Did you make a monster out of yourself?
Perhaps it's time to put your politics
high upon a shelf.
In the end we're all the same
invisible spirits playing our games.

Empty your mind,
put your narrator on pause.
When's the last time you pet your dog?
Hugged your kids or called your ma?

We are all forgiven for being slobs!
Now don't be late for your second job.

From here
You can only see
The brightest stars
Skies so dark
Between lights
Spread far

Way down here
Our existence stalls
Adrift this
Tiny little speck
Of a crowded
Conscious ball

Suspended in a portion
Of one of
One hundred billion galaxies

Down here it's not so clear
  What's going on up there...

You said it
She said it
No one regrets it
Death and suffering
Are at the Poets door
You've read it
A hundred times for sure
Think how many more
Poets and Poetess torn
War in their minds
It's rhyming time
Cuts and craziness
Are divine
Line by line
Bleeding is a sad sign
It would be different
If you were all mine
I would hold you
Until you were fine

The shadows flashed
Blurry in the darkness
Spewing black matter
As the universe started
Time set forth
In linear strides
Fiery hot sparks
Bursting new life
Chunks of rocks
In spiraling patterns
Gravitational pulls
From Suns to Saturn's
And so our existence
Became one big pattern

Putin and Xi Jinping
actually hugged!
Come on everybody
share the love!

A couple of rats laughing
In the height of rodent prime
Just inside the walls
In the panelling confines

Sour milk and cheese
The sent of rotten meat
It’s freezing in the alley
Behind the trash pile heaps

Dwellings made of boxes
House the forgotten meek
Closed face and forbidden
As we pass them on the streets

A polite yet impaired man
Stays deep in the forest down the road
I gave him a ride from his tent
In the woods to the store
Behind his eyes he was broken
As he spoke of happy things
He asked me to come back and join him
But I had to run away

to express my pain
I must abstain
it’s a toxic masculinity thing!

to express an ounce of doubt
I can surely do without
The universe feeds
our hope and dreams

to clarify this read
I will express my only needs
food, water, and shelter
from the storm..

But for now I must contain
‘cause I’m sounding pretty lame
It’s time to share a beer
and leave you here
expressing all the secrets
of your heart.

And when I hide
It's not from you
It's from beneath
I've been exhumed

Before the sheaves
Were gathered in
I faced the fire
That has no end

And there before
The thrown of lies
I was pulled back
From where I died

To be with you
We've traveled far
Exhumed and now
A burnt out star
...

Oh blind me now
To the ways of sin
So that I may bind
Myself within
Rip it out
This heart of lust
Take away it's
Conditional trust...

Deafen my senses
To unaware
Cast my shame
Into the air
Ruptured
Drowning
In guilt's despair
Bring on the numbing
Of all my cares
.....
With a bottle of beer!

Arrogant is not how
I meant this to sound
But by now you must realize
It's only one time around
That's as far as wisdom
Can stretch for the truth
Existentially speaking
Imagine no roof
No bottom too the abyss
Where we fall
Hopefully our ignorance
Can catch us all
.....

I no longer have to
keep them chained
now my demons are
angelically tamed

I’ve no need for a smoke
no drink nor poke
Ya see…
I’m not like most folk!

I believe
and so I am
happier then
I’ve ever been!!

Self prophecies
Come true
Life laid out
Black and blue
Surely this time
Definitely next
I can feel it
With every breath

In familiar
Poetic prose
Heart is spoke
Time unfolds
Somehow
Our muses know
What's to come
Blessings or woes
...........................

Shaking hands
Demanding attention
Twitch of dread
Arms violently ****
Then the hands
Turn to bugs
Then the arms
And finally
A pile of bugs
Fall to the floor
Running in every
Possible direction
Because
  I want more...

I can’t take hate personally
For those who hate
Evolution came late
A mere push or shove
Cannot discourage true love

Behind walls
Difference is contained
Where privilege and pleasure
Allows for no pain

I dream in the clouds
I exist in the rain
Our spirits
Are exactly the same!

I'm sure by now
You have all felt
The unrest all around
A plague of darkness
Restless and ruthless
Lingering like gray clouds
A nagging dread
Seen in red
Through tired weary eyes
I can feel it in my bones
Shadows are passing by
.................

I've had enough
of all these living
breathing distractions
fused to my synaptic reactions
reminding me that I am but one
the leash of realization weighs a ton
in harmonicas hormonal perfection
it's easy to lose an election
It's a beautiful day
I never want it to end
but I lose my balance
when the distractions set in
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Haiku’s are boring
I don’t like reading haiku’s
Haiku’s really ****!
..........................
This is a haiku
The cow jumped over the moon
Was it good for you?
............................
Nature is beauty
Passionate aesthetic dreams
Haiku’s still **** though!
..........................

My government sells
Third world countries
Highly technical weapons
And introduce them
To brand new wars

Then they sick them on each other
The starving against the poor

Our rich are getting richer
Our politicians are getting paid
Isis is getting stronger
And the populist is being played
...................

Why would anybody
Actually
Gives a ****
About the misfiring
Neurons
Within some worn out
Poetic man?

So if you are...
Struggling to be normal
Striving to be sane
Remember
The tightest bandages
Tighten tight
Still life
Slowly drains

So loosen up
Let your words
Pour down
In poetical rain!

Not pretending that your feelings
are not what they are.
Do you love?
Do you love strangers?
Do you love invisible spirits?
What lie shall we believe
As great as the evil in your heart
you could never love me.

And if you choose not to decide
you still have made a choice!

Suddenly
A young girl
Was snatched
From this world

Eyes stared
Into the dread
Of the hopeful
Invisible places

Grieving strangers
Blurred sentiments
Still we shared
The same
Empty stares
With down troden
Human faces
....

Here, in the far north
It's time to plan for snow
What ever is left on bare ground
For the season will be froze
The birds of fowl
Within their coops
No longer to be noticed
'Til the nights of long
Have come and gone
On the flip side of the Solis

In a darken state
Of the Poetic mind

Abilities are frozen
To reason and rhyme

Frostbitten thoughts
Creeping sublime

Oh how we'll long
For sweet spring
Sunshine
....
....

I don’t judge people when they’re down for the count.
The wheel’s get spinning so fast, it causes a sudden karmic pounce! And life sweeps up the debris, every gram and every single ounce..

I for one am not ready
To expire in some final end
Imagine a futures
That somehow actually bends!

Multiverses?
Where our lost parts exist
Our over all identities
The parts that we resist

Without which we are far
From being whole
Across time and space
It is not a race
To come together
With our over all soul!

Love to me
Is but a spiritual matter
I am not married
By law of man
Or religious decree
And
After twelve years
With the same lady
I realize now
We are two
Spiritual beings
With choices
Perhaps
That's why we're still together!

These protagonists words describe
a worldview most people may not know. I do admit
I have a tendency of presenting new facts and serving them somewhat cold..
So even if for now you don’t believe, put it in the back of your mind and set it free..
Deep passion is quite luring
it gets the creative blood stirring.

But let your hardships go
Feel the freedom in store for you
No more guilt in tow…
No more regrets or worries
No promises left to keep
No one is worth more then you are
And now you are complete!

You can tell 'em that I was crazy
But I was just a harmless nut
My pathways are all corrupted
My neurons are all but ******
Committed to survival
White knuckled through this maze
Holding on can get really tough
When a Traveler tries to stay
.....

In the waist lands
Of wandering hearts
Love is lost
In unseen art
Unread poetry
Unfinished
****** of parts
Overgrown gardens
Meditate by
Statues of children
  That never die...
Tilted birdbaths
List in once mind
I never meant
To leave you behind
Another piece
Of mine
Guitars need new strings
The dusty shelf
Once an amp
Aching bones
Worn out mat
Yet still
A poet walks
  A poetic path!