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12.9k · Jun 2017
Bakit ngayon pa?
JuliaLazareto Jun 2017
Hindi kita gusto sa una nating pagkikita,
Ngunit, muli tayong pinagtagpo, at ito'y umusbong na.
"Ayoko, ayoko nito."
"Mahirap, mahirap ito."
Mga salitang nabanggit ko,
habang ako'y nakatitig sayo.

Simula noong araw na iyon,
nagtanong- tanong na ako, tungkol sayo.
Gusto kong malaman ang pangalan mo,
Gusto kong malaman ang mga hilig mo,
Gusto ko lang makaalam ng kahit ano, tungkol sayo.

Nabalitaan kong sikat ka raw,
Talaga ba? Marami raw nagkakagusto sayo?
Edi mas bumaba ang tsansa ko, upang mahalin mo?
Masakit mang isipin, pero ito ang totoo,
Masakit mang isipin, pero hindi ako ang mahal mo.

Nagdaan ang ilang araw,
Natuklasan ko,
Paasaa ka, pafall ka,
Pero mahal parin kita.
Oo crush lang kita,
Pero gustong gusto kita, higit pa sa kanila.

Isang araw nabalitaan ko,
Balitang dumurog sa puso ko.
May ka-M.U ka raw,
may nililigawan ka raw,
at ako namang si t*nga,
Hindi naniwala sa kanila
Mas pinili ko pang umasa,
Sa taong wala naman akong pagasa.

Pero nung makita ko,
Nung makita nang dalawang mata ko, yung paghaharutan niyo,
Napaisip ako, "Bakit ganito kayo?"
Nasobrahan ba yung pagka- bulag ko para sayo?
Nasobrahan na ba yung pagmamahal ko para sayo?
Upang ako'y masaktan nang ganito?

Pinilit kong ihinto ang pagmamahal ko sayo,
Ngunit mas lalo lang kitang ginugusto.
Hindi ko alam kung paano ako makakaalis sa sitwasyong ito,
Ang alam ko lang, sobrang nasaktan ako.

Ang sakit na iyon ang nagturo sa akin,
kung paano kumalas,
Kumalas sa relasyong ako lang ang lumandas.
"Ayoko na, ang sakit sakit na."
Ngayon, pinapakawalan na kita.
Susuportahan kita kung saan ka sasaya,
At yun ay sa piling niya.

Bumitaw ako, ngunit hindi ibig- sabihin non,
ayoko na sayo,
Gusto kita, tandaan mo yan,
Ngunit hindi ko yata kayang lumban,
Sa pagmamahalang, ako lang ang nakakaalam.

Lumipas ang ilang buwan,
Sinabi mo mahal mo ako,
Sabi mo, ako lang ang yong gusto,
Ano 'to lokohan?
Pagkatapos mo akong iwan, ngayon ako'y babalikan?
Oo mahal kita.
Mahal kita noon,
Pero binaliwala mo iyon.

Bakit ngayon pa?
Bakit ngayon pang ako'y sumuko na?
Bakit ngayon pang ako'y nasaktan na?
Bakit ngayon pang ako'y masaya na... SA PILING NG IBA?
3.1k · Jun 2017
My hero, My dad
JuliaLazareto Jun 2017
There's a story untold,
and that is, my dad has a heart of gold.
I promise you, I'll take care of you when you grow old.
Like how you took care of me, when I'm three years old.

He holds hammer, he likes gun,
and he will do anything for his loved one.
I'm so happy,
cause to have you as my dad?
I'm very lucky.

Peugeot, Porsche, Lexus, Ford.
You deserve more, more than adored.
With you, my life will be explored,
Without you, it will be uncolored.

"The greatest gift I ever had, came from God, and I call him dad."
I love you Daddy,
You never let me feel unhappy,
because you always do your duty,
and that is making me feel "Life is easy."

Dad, you're my superhero.
You know how to keep me out of sorrow.
With you, there's a beautiful tomorrow.
And with you, I glow.

I love you Daddy.....
663 · Jun 2017
Epitome of Over.
JuliaLazareto Jun 2017
I stare at you, every now, and then,
but my feelings for you remained unspoken.
I wish, I could just tell you what I think of you,
Cause if you only knew, and it's okay with you, I'll run to you.

I screenshot every picture of you,
look at my gallery, It's full because of you.
I didn't liked you since we met,
It's just.. like.. one day, when I saw you, It felt like magnet.

Ever since that day,
I'm always following your foot way,
I wanna know, who's with you,
I wanna know what you do,
I just wanna know more about you,
In every way, I can do.

Months, years, Decades, passed,
I still like you, I still love you,
You still like her, You still love her.
It hurts, it hurts, because I know, you won't love me, the way I do.
It hurts, to be bypassed by you.

I loved you for 10 years.
I know it's not your problem anymore.
But please help me,
If there's really no chance, tell me.
Cause I'm tired, I'm tired of getting ignored.
I think I can't do these things anymore.

I need to stop my feelings for you,
It will hurt more, if I'll continue.
Maybe you're not really my forever,
perhaps, you're the epitome of game over.
crushhhhhh????
648 · Jun 2017
Coincidentally
JuliaLazareto Jun 2017
Love is just a word,
Sometimes it's better to be left unheard.
Action speaks louder than word,
But sometimes action is a big blurred.

"What is meant to be, will always find it's way."
But fate will challenge you day by day.
All you have to do, is to deal, and play.

I believe that I met you for a reason,
Maybe you're a blessing, or a lesson.
Either you'll stay, or go,
I'll assure you, I'll still be loving you, wherever you go.

Did we met coincidentally?
Or, did we met because we're really meant to be?
619 · Jun 2017
You and Me
JuliaLazareto Jun 2017
I love you even though it hurts;
I love you even though you're the worst.
I just love you because you're you,
and nobody can dictate what I'll do.

I will fight for us.
I promise you, one day, we don't have to adjust.
Trust me, from this day on wards, I'll be your light,
and I'll trust you, you'll be my knight.

They said we can't be.
But from now on we're free
I don't care if they'll disagree,
because it's just you, and me.
575 · Jun 2017
Destined to be apart
JuliaLazareto Jun 2017
It's amazing how destiny,
Can change our harmony.
It can be our clarity,
It can also be our enemy.

Love is like an abstract art,
You have to figure it out part by part.
You have to be smart,
Or else you'll restart.

I thought you'll be my soldier,
When this world is getting harder.
I thought you'll fight for my heart,
But now we're falling apart

Are we destined to be one by heart?

Or... are we destined to be apart?
561 · Jun 2017
She's not the girl you see
JuliaLazareto Jun 2017
She can fake a smile,
just to suit your style.
She tried to be strong, she tried,
but she's still fragile in the inside.

She's hurt, broken,
but all of her pain remained unspoken.
All of her friends say that she's okay,
but they didn't know it's just a display, cause her life is totally gray.

She's crying daily at midnight
Her red eyes covered with makeup at daylight.
She don't want anyone to see,
cause everyone knows that she's bubbly.

Her mask hides it all,
all her pains, all her bawls.
She wants to go away,
but pain haunts her day by day

She's smiling to hide millions of tears,
She's laughing to get to your atmosphere.
She has a breaking heart,
She's falling apart
look at her closely
She's not the girl you really see.
478 · Aug 2017
Right
JuliaLazareto Aug 2017
I focused
on waiting
for the right time.
Not knowing
the right person
had already left me.
420 · Jun 2017
Mom, I love you
JuliaLazareto Jun 2017
You're the light.
Light in the night.
Light in the fight.
Light of my life.

When you're out of my sight,
I can feel the fright.
But when you're by my side,
I feel satisfied.

When I can't stand on my own,
you never let me feel alone.
So when the time comes, that I can be on my own,
I promise you, you'll never be alone.

"Tomorrow maybe too late." so before this happens tell them the three words that will never fail you,
the three most powerful words,
"I LOVE YOU."
375 · Jun 2017
I need to be fancy.
JuliaLazareto Jun 2017
He got fair skin, he got red lips, he got cold eyes,
and when he look at me, I got these butterflies.
He'd done nothing,
but why am I like this? I'm trembling.

You have no idea how fast my heart races when I see you,
I think you have this doll, that is named "voodoo".
cause you really, really pull me through.

I'm scared this isn't right,
but to have you, i'll let go of this fright.
I'll hold you tight, I'll be your knight.
but how can I fight, when I can't even see the light?
but still to have you, it's alright, to have no sight.

I love it when I caught you, staring at me,
But when I looked back, there she is,
your love, your baby, your honey.

I want to attack, I want to confront the both of you,
I want to tell you, "I love you."
I want to tell you, "I have a big crush on you."
I want to tell you, "It hurts."
because to see you with her? it's the worst.

If I confess, will you accept?
I guess not, you'll just left me wrecked.
I want to protest,
I want to be perfect,
so one day, you'll regret.

But I can't do these,
I can't do any of these,
I can't fight, because of my fright,
I can't confront the both of you, because I'm shy.
After all, I just can't have you.
cause I'm just a nobody,
and for you to love me?
I guess I need to be fancy.
crush problems? relate

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