I'm living in a broken world
A broken world
Surviving without you
A painful destiny
A destiny granted to me
To live without you

One Two Three breathe.
It will all be ok.
Just breathe I tell myself.
The voices will go away if I take the pills.
The thing is though.
Those little colorful pills the doctors gave me.
I don’t take them.
They make the voices go away.
The voices are my only friends.
Even though they tell me nasty lies.
But maybe if the voices went away.
Maybe just maybe someone will want to be my friend.
What am I kidding.
None wants to be my friend.
The ******* crazy girl with the voices in her head.
So, I stop taking my pills.
I keep my only friend.
Those voices that push me over the edge.
The voices that ended my life.

I think I have finally found my missing piece
And
That missing piece was you

The ocean

Is so

Peaceful and calm

I wish

I was

Like the ocean

He touched her ever so softly
The moans escaping
Through parted lips
Only he ever knew how
to touch her so right

She looked at him
He looked at her
The love in his eyes had faded
But her love had gotten stronger
He gave up on her
But she wont give up on him
And now she is getting smothered
Smothered by her own pain

The called her a monster
For what she had become
They called the devil
But oh she was
She became this way from the pain
The torture they had given her
She learned to be hard and cold as ice
For when she was soft
She got walked all over
They are the ones who changed her

I don't know why
Every time you walk past me
My stomach turns
Your smile makes me happy
Your eyes make me dream
Dream of looking into them
If only you would notice me
In a small English class we share

He whispered
In her ear
Well she melted
In his hands

I love him
He loves me
I hate him
He hates me

I
Sold
My
Soul
To
The
Devil
Because
He
Told
Me
He
Loved
Me

I
Loved
You
But
Now
I
Hate
You

The ocean
Is so
Peaceful and calm
I wish
I was
Like the ocean

I want to die
I remember the first time those words left my mouth
I want to die now
I don't want to die later
I want to slit my wrist and bleed
bleed a deep red showing I am human
and those words hurt that you speak
Maybe those words you spoke to me
I should carve into my legs and arms
For a reminder of what I am
A ****
A *****
A FAT COW
A *****
Maybe I should listen
Listen to those people
Who tell me to go **** myself
Slit my wrist and go bleed out
For I am not wanted
Not needed by anyone
Not loved
Not cared for
I'll carve those words into my legs tonight
Bleed a deep red
Leaving no inch of skin untouched
After that I shall slit my wrist
Like they have been telling me to do for years
I leave the water in my bath tub red
Closing my eyes
I am finally at peace
No people to listen to

Have you ever been afraid of someone you love dying
Them being sent away for war
With mountains and fields and oceans separating you and your lover
Waking up one day to a letter or a call
Of how your loved one was shot or blasted away
Their spirit either being sent up high or down to the mighty depths
When they leave you don't even get a goodbye or an I love you
That sweet voice you always wanna hear
Now will never be heard again
Wishing on the only faint star of the night to bring them back
Leaving you with all the broken promises
And all the broken hearts of the others who loved them
With nobody left to lay with
Grasping at empty spaces of the bed
Wishing for it all to be a lie
Laying their awake at night with tears running down your cheeks
Only wanting that one person to wipe away your tears
And kiss away all your pain and sorrows
Have you ever been afraid of someone you love dying
Well I do and I don't want them to be sent away

He told her
Not to tell a soul
So she sowed
Her mouth shut
With a
Needle
And a
Piece of string

I have started to notice
I am not the same
My choices have changed me
Into the woman
I am today
I have started to notice
I fear everything more
I don't want to walk outside
Anymore
I hate the world
For what we have become
A hateful Community
That is what we are

You told me you love me
But in the end you left me

You told me you love me
But in the end you left me

I have become
What I fear most
A
Monster

Why wont they leave me alone
These voices they scream for you
You stand off to the side
So close but so far away
You left me so why are you watching me
You left me but you didn’t really leave
You watch me with you devil eyes
Always tracing my steps
I want you to leave me alone
But you wont
I have tried to escape your grasp
But you keep pulling me back
I just want you fucken gone but you wont leave
Please just leave me be
I am begging you
Please leave

I am trapped
Inside my own head
Unable to free myself
From the awful voices
My mind it speaks
Of darkness and hate
Of death and sorrow
I am trapped