Jiawen 张

Jiawen 张 Feb 28

I wish you can tell me that
I can just be ordinary in this life.
Just like that one dandelion
Growing on the side of the road
Quietly…

I wish you can tell me that
Life has more than hardships.
Just like that one dandelion
Enjoying the sunshine like a sunflower
Gratefully…

I wish you can tell me that
Wind comes from different directions.
Just like that one dandelion
Being carried away to the unknowns
Bravely…

I wish you can tell me that
I can land anywhere with my roots.
Just like that one dandelion
Landing its seed on the side of the road
Happily…

#wish #dandelion

Jiawen 张 Mar 2022

Perspectives

For who have overcome the saddest sorrows,
We will never wish anyone else to experience it,
Because we know how much it hurts.

For who have gone through the deepest darkness,
We will always be the light to guide you through,
Because we know how scary it is.

I want to ask you one question.
How do you truly feel after you hurt other humans
Without giving them a chance to explain?

I want to ask you one question.
Have you truly thought about what you have or haven’t done
Before you got hurt by other humans?

A coin always has two sides.
A road can always be traveled both ways,
Even when it tells you that it is a one-way street.

Hate will never end hate.
Hate will only destroy everyone involved.
Forgive or forget, and so you can have peace.

Even if you truly believe that
Your actions or inactions didn’t cause anything,
Please, still try to understand from different perspectives.

Jiawen 张 Oct 2018

Cold Rain

Walking up the hill
To my destiny.
Rain falling on my body
To my soul.

Will any human share
Its umbrella with me?
Will any car stop
To offer me a ride?

Patiently Waiting,
While keeping moving on
All by myself.
Only my body will become
Stronger than ever before.

Patiently Waiting,
While keeping moving on
All by myself.
Only my mind will become
Stronger than ever before.

Cold rain
Falling on my warm body.
I'm melting the ice
Inside of your souls.

To the day, I walked back home from university in the heavy rain, and nobody bothered to stop and help.

#thisisamerica #coldrain #coldblood #humanity #usa #immigarant #student #college #humans #ice

Jiawen 张 Apr 2018

Red Inside

We, the humans.
Born like pieces of plain paper.
To live is to paint.
Every single step adds different colors.

The Black.
Rich like the soil on the earth.
The beauty of colourful cultures.

The White.
Clean like the snow in the winter.
The beauty of pure winter wonderland.

The Latinos.
Sweet like the chocolate in your mouth.
The beauty of black and white.

The Asians.
Deep like the book in your hands.
The beauty of ancient wisdom.

The Natives.
Pure like the earth under your feet.
The beauty of nature as it is.

If white is added to cover all colors,
Everything will be white washed.
If there is only white in this world,
There will be no other colors on the earth.

We, the humans.
We are one species on the earth.
We all bleed.
Red inside.

From a colored female

#diversity #unity #white #colonization #colonizer #racism #races #cultures #history #humanity

Jiawen 张 Mar 2018

Mother, It Is Not Just Grief

You’ve been working so hard
To provide more than what we need now
For what we will need in the future.
Because we used to have nothing.

You’ve been planning so thoughtfully
For the next 20 years,
But you’ve never lived in the current.

You’ve been ignoring what you feel now
And saving your happiness for later.
But you’ve never stopped worrying about the future.

Now he is gone forever for both of us.
You lost your happiness,
Which had never happened.

But I lost my happiness,
Which had been making me feel alive.
It is not just grief of his death.

Now father is gone forever for me.
It is the emptiness in my heart
Constantly consuming me.

When I am nervous on the stage,
Who else will always applaud for me again?
Who else will always love my performance again?

I know you don’t care what I care,
And you only approve what you care.
But can you just look at who I am for one time?

I wish you can live more in the current
And worry less about the future.
Because I treasure every single second in my life,
When you are still with me.

Live in the current.
You never know what will happen next.

#rip #father #grief #yolo #depression #mother #onlychild #family #emptiness #situationaldepression

Jiawen 张 Dec 2017

Admit That My Life Will Never Be Perfect

Admit that I myself
Still am that insecure girl who is shy inside.
Then I will push myself harder than everyone else
To be independent and strong.

Admit that my parents
Will forever be kids finding the right way to love.
Then my heart can feel that
They really love each other and their kid.

Admit that my peers
Will forever be students finding the right way to live,
Just like how I am still growing up.
Then my eyes can see all of their unique souls.

Admit that it’s very possible that
My biological family members will forever be racists.
Then I will have the freedom to create my own family
Which is different from them.

Admit that it’s very possible that
Most Chinese will forever think I am fat and ugly.
Then my brain can believe that
People of other races do like my body and face.

Admit that it’s very possible that
I will forever be afraid of most Asians inside
Because I have been bullied since I was a kid.
Then I will appreciate how much I still love them.

Admit how much I am wrong,
No matter how much I want to say that I am right.
Then I will have some room for myself to learn more
And a chance for strangers to know me more.

Admit how much I hate it,
No matter how much I love it.
Then I will have the eyes
To see how deeply I love it.

Admit how much I love it,
No matter how much I hate it.
Then I will have the heart
To feel how deeply I love it.

You have to admit you are not perfect.

#admit #life #perfect #imperfection #independent #stereotype #peers #race #freedom #family

Jiawen 张 Nov 2017

I Choose, and I Love

I didn’t choose to be born in this world,
But I was born this way.
It’s my right to be myself.
It’s my right to choose.

I choose the culture I love.
I choose the society I love.
I choose the friends I love.
I choose the family I love.

I choose to start the new life I love.
I choose to learn the knowledge I love.
I choose to study hard for my dreams.
I choose to work hard for people I want to help.

I choose the life style I want.
I choose the hair style I want.
So I wear pink because I love,
Not because I am a female.

I choose what I love.
I love what I choose.
This is my life.
I was born this way.

#i #choose #love #women #girl #life #education #society #beyourself #help