Melodie Fowles

Melodie Fowles Feb 2018

Betrayal

I can't say sorry
Or take back the anger I gave you
It's a burden deep in my soul
That needs to depart
You broke me down
Ripped out my heart
And tore it apart

I hope she was worth it
Cause I know
I never deserved it

She was my best friend
You should have known
It would bring about the end
You both strung me along
Till your friends ratted you out
I guess you never realised
I was someone your friends cared about

And now here we are
You standing in the corner
Looking like a lamb
Ready for slaughter

I take a breath let it out
Then look the other way
To myself you are dead and gone
Yet the ache will always stay
And to the one I called friend
I can never speak to again
But that can wait for another day.

#poem #poetry #pain #hurt #betrayal #betrayed #dark #friend #love #cheating

Melodie Fowles Feb 2018

Confession

I'm not a saint
I must confess
When I'm done I hope of me
You won't think any less

It started when I was 19 years old
When I decided It would be fun
To swing on a strippers pole

Now it was fun
I'll admit that's a fact
But the happiness I portrayed
Was all just an act

Next on the wheel of disaster
Alcohol was the the slave
I sought to master
In the end I found
It was not the answer

Along came the drugs 1.. 2.. 3.. 4
I tried them all
And maybe a few more
But I just ended up lying
In a pool of blood on the floor

All my friends
And family I left behind
Just so I could lose myself
In my own mind
After a while the way I was living
Lost it's shine
And eventually
I had to draw the line

So from the dark
Drug filled place
I found a brighter
Cleaner head space

One where everything wasn't wrong
And where I truly felt I belong

Now I live a life
That is clean and pure
Cause from that mess
I found the cure
She is cute and sweet
It is her I adore
She gave me a reason to live for.

#poem #poetry #dark #confess #confession #drugs #alcohol #drinking #daughter #love

Melodie Fowles Feb 2018

Crossroads

So much
Is far and gone from me
And still I fight
For my soul to be free

I've taken chances
Walked a dark road
Advice I never took
And in my mistakes it showed
Now here I stand
At this forked crossroad

I can drop all my fears
Look this new future in the face
Or forever run in darkness
While my demons I chase

I close my eyes
Open my thoughts
And nothing makes sense
The splinters dig deeper
The longer I stand on this fence

My legs are tired and broken
From these circles I've paced
While these voices in my head
Leave me to sigh in disgrace

If the decision I make
Is to go forth and succeed
It may be what will
Set my soul to be freed

Or it could bring more darkness
Leave me worse than before
This is why my mind
Is constantly at war
I need to make this choice
So my soul can finally soar.

#poem #decisions #decision #darkness #dark #crossroad #crossroads #fears #change #free

Melodie Fowles Feb 2018

A Matter Of Opinion

Just because you learned something new
Doesn't make that information true

It was learned from someone
Or somewhere before
A chain of Chinese whispers
That has a lot to answer for

People like to get up on their high horse
Pushing their opinion on others
With aggressive force

The anger that arises
When they are opposed
Leaves the listeners minds
And thoughts closed

Question the validity
Of everything you hear
And in return
Some valuable information
You may just learn
And in your opinion
Others may yearn

But if you choose to be opinionated
And can't rise above it
Then you can take your opinion
And you can shove it.

#poem #poetry #opinion #openminded #learn

Melodie Fowles Feb 2018

Tragic Opera

**** it
I'm broken
All the pain I feel
Will be left unspoken
The tears they fall silently
In this tragic opera
Moments alone feel so hollow
And you're so far from me
I can't forget you
You've let a beautiful scar on my heart
And I really need you
Cause I'm falling apart
But I'm so alone
In ice I will place our love
Till I'm able to undo this spell that you wove.

#poem #poetry #love #heartache #heartbreak #pain

Melodie Fowles Feb 2018

Save Myself

I fall to my knees as you run that mouth
We will always crash and burn
When it's the truth we need to learn
Over and over the darkness spins endlessly
Taking a hold of the tension screaming in every nerve
Crushing it till you get what you deserve

I save myself from sacrifice
The blood that rains down won't be mine
I'll save myself from sacrifice
The more you cut the less I mind
You cry, you beg, it's you that bleeds
The husk of your soul that was never meant to be
Crumbles in the aftermath of all the ****** debris

Pointless dramas in a wasted life
Full of scars and memories stuck on constant repeat
These technicolour fuckups have never set you free
Tripping on your fear and hate in a sick twisted sea

I save myself from sacrifice
The blood that rains down won't be mine
I'll save myself from sacrifice
The more you cut the less I mind
You cry, you beg, it's you that bleeds
The husk of your soul that was never meant to be
Crumbles in the aftermath of all the ****** debris

So take these words and choke them down
The lump of your truth will be painful to drown
Your mind is now open to realities lies
It's you that is broken now open your eyes
I want you to watch as...

I save myself from sacrifice
The blood that rains down won't be mine
I'll save myself from sacrifice
The more you cut the less I mind
You cry, you beg, it's you that bleeds
The husk of your soul that was never meant to be
Crumbles in the aftermath of all the ****** debris

#poem #poetry #song #lyrics #truth #lies #blood #sacrifice #soul #scars

Melodie Fowles Feb 2018

Dancing

Sometimes
I hear a beat that reminds me
Why I love dancing so much
It's intense surge
Just like a lovers touch

My limbs want to move
In syncopated rhythm
I let go of all my fantasies
That are deeply hidden

Music moves through me
Like a slow burning fire
I'm filled with passion
And rhythmic desire

The tempo and pulse of it
The rush and pleasure of it

It touches me in ways
No other can
Makes me let go of myself
Like I don't give a ****

My heart beats faster
My hips begin to flow
Drowning in the music
I let my body go

My mind soars
My tortured soul flies
Keeping beat to the music
Always satisfies

I'm on a highway of adrenaline
That never stops
Not until that very last beat
Finally drops.

#poem #poetry #dancing #music #beat #rhythm