my head scares me
yelling at myself in the car
I am so done
hitting the steering wheel over and over
I am losing it
salt water dripping down cheeks
food
food
food
makes
me hate
myself
it all comes
back to how
I am the problem
why feed the problem
starve the problem
its your choice
fat or thin?
I have so much to be grateful for
I dont know why I feel like this
I am fat
I'm just done

and it’s in these gloomy days where i find the most peace.
contentment at it’s best in still skies,
quiet clouds glide cooly through a gray space big enough to hold this sadness and comfort it.
a soft call echoes and flies off,
carrying away any worries,
though briefly, still appreciated.
i am at peace.

your the reason
my heart is beating,
without you im nothing
im gone, im a lifeless body
that everyone once new..
but no one cares im
gone untill its
too late..

Before you play with fire think twice.
Suga how you get so fly?

Sweet talking lady so far from typical, would u please give me your time?

Life's sweet seconds pass on by
Times like these it's alright
Rescue me or move on
This is Blue

undermy stormy eyes
filled with sorrow and pain
standing drenched in tears
falling like silver sheets of metal
like a hawk in the night I'm listening
to the sound of my pounding heart
tasting my own salty tears

pressing my face against my mirror studding
all the possibilities of what was wrong
closed my eyes silently like the shutters
that hung over my bed room windows
then very gently, I took another look
alone in this glass world wanting to scream
but I can't because every wall was easy to break

mind was struggling to escape from this darkness
it felt like a tightened noose around my throat
fighting for air I could feel my body falling
this is madness, insanity, I'm so confused and lost
all I feel is the pain like a fist in my stomach
I just stood there staring at the floor with tears in my eyes
I never thought my heart would break because I guarded is so well

Mirror cloaked in tears
I scream at my own reflection
Why couldn't you have just killed yourself at 13,
Like you always said you would?
You didn't know rejection.
Eyes glazed over, helpless red
Why did you have to stay on and be strong?
You could have found out if heaven were real
Or maybe you would just be nowhere instead
There, there little broke girl
I know you want to die
If I would have just killed myself at 13 (Like I always said I would)
I wouldn't need to be alive

I know you'll never know exactly what you've done for me.
You'll never know the light you lit inside.
You were simply being you,
And yet, you made me better.

With every smile you lit my world.
With every witty remark you made me laugh,
And through this laughter, I found my way.
Out of the darkness....I found the sun.

I know you'll never know exactly what you mean to me.
You'll never know the important role you played.
You were simply being you,
And yet, you gave me hope.

With your charming ways, you won me over.
With your beautiful heart, you made me fall in love,
And through this love, I found my strength.
Overcoming fear....I could stand alone.

You'll never know you were my strength.
You'll never know you were my light.
You'll never know you gave me hope and made me better.
I know you'll never know....but I do.

I know you did so much, by simply being you.