i still remember the day where you asked me to please not **** myself
we were sitting on that couch you no longer have now
and just so you know,
those words meant everything to me and so much more

the way i saw you smile
when i told you that i love you
and you didn't say it back
but it was just the way that you smiled
that meant so much more than that

when this is all i have left
some paper and a pen
to sort through what's going on in my head
i have a voice that doesn't know how to act
how to be loud, only in this silence
and i'm writing to you to tell you
just how much you mean to me
because you no longer like to hear me speak
so this is all i have left
just some paper and a pen
spilling words until everything can make sense again

you slipped your heart into my pocket and told me to keep it
you told me as long as i have it, you don't need it
i kept it as safe as i could, though i am sorry for the days where i forgot that i had it
you asked for it back one day, as hard as it was to comply
it was already in pieces so i kept one sliver in my pocket, for you and i
so that i could never forget again

i enjoy my solitude
but i wouldn't mind
if you jumped into it with me, too

if it's any consolation,
i won't ask to see you again
if it makes you happier,
i'll pretend you don't exist
but you should know,
that i am never going to forget

so i said to you,
if you're scared of something
i think that you should just do it anyway
you didn't say anything
i forgot that we think so differently