I write this , cause im in-between a wall . Of great hierarchy of course. In a world so judgemental of the way of things in due course.  But maybe , we need to kick and scream . As the path fought isn't what we want. More hurt with in a world so seemingly to be the one an only.  I laugh at humanity as we fight for something so fragile . Yet they call us intelligent.
United States might be great . But count it manipulation at its finest.  We as the people should stand for the freedom promised . Our homeland ain't to be ****** with as higher priority targets become visible.  I won't fight for the country,  as I seek to fight for my blood line.

Do you not agree that as humans , we naturally, all imagine the bad , expect the worst,  hope for the best? In a world without doubts of who anyone next to you is . It's up to you to prepare for the future. Cause even the smallest step can be the biggest stride forward.  Good or bad .

It's been a long time my friend , as we meet here again.  Reading passages of support and realization again . The dark times were planned , but never believed the wonders within. Ezekiel chapter 7 verse 5 . As the end is near I'll provide you with a safe place my child.  As a unique disaster is apon us.  Something we hold dear as the world around us changes . But a light shall be given in those moments . To give us peace apon our next journey. As these few years we have left , I'll give you love , passion , connection.  Everything you need to make those last moments feel well learned . As the next journey is a new challenge and environment.  Marriage of the souls is the only way to achieve eachothers company in another time . Life persists .Words are of evil . Conscientiousness is of another world .

<If life and nature is the ultimate creation of human intelligence,  then life and nature is endless . It can be formed and created in many different environments and laws of living . Though Intelligence isn't a cheap price , when it comes to value and worth of being here today . Experiencing sight , feeling, smell , hearing . Senses that all paint a beautiful living Experience in the minds eye . The view of every day after waking up from our daily slumber .>
-EC

Mom , in a world full of dismay , the only thing you can do is hold strength in yourself . Be as it ,you are a saint and I thank you for every service you have done for me as a human .the teachings you have gave me to love the world as it is and only hope for a ending better then the beginning . Many people fall short of gods eyes , but yet not forgotten . Even in the most disturbing of times . It'll only gets worse , I know that . But yet to live a life believing things are for the best . Well yea, for the best they shall get according to the woke humans .  Many are slaves to the unknown demon that is constantly nagging their neck . But yet we let these figures of physicality become the waking moments of our own reality . I'm over stressing , I'm over believing in a god that is misinterpreted into many forms . Really only you can open the door way to heaven . Self worth is humility , humility is self giving . To who you truly should be in this world of dismay . Only believe in yourself.

Ive diagnosed myself with psychosis . Which means I  believe that I  believe in another reality . That my nightmares weren't just dreams when I close my eyes . I woke up to a whole different but same reality . Multiple times has it been destroyed in front of my eyes before the wave of pain takes over and I close my eyes to see no more . But yet to wake up again in another body , not of my own . Waiting for the moment  where this body meets it's end .

Your presence has now become redundant and         superfluous . I'm tired of feeling furious over non-sense, over actions and feelings . A relationship with you,  isn't at all appealing . It's as if a succubus is ******* the very soul from my being . And seeing , a superficial world with a superficial girl , strikes me as insane . You gain , everything I lose . You regret everything you choose . So what's the use . Why make things the way they are , when you know how big scars are . Your a pretentious kind of  person . Ostentatious to say the least . Which means big in a logical sense . Oh well , sing the bell in my head . As I review every moment spent . Starring at you for some comfort and establishment . All to the more I, spending more time forgetting it.  You know what I regret ? Why I let people , other human beings , get so close .…….