I saw him today
He seemed happy,
He is happy, you know.
So I'm happy, too.


--Eleanor

Nearly two years ago
You'd smile because you liked me,
Then you'd smile because you loved me.
God you'd even smile
Because I made you so angry
You wanted to **** me and kiss me at the same time.

What I mean is that you smiled at me
For so many reasons, countless reasons really.

Even now you still do it,
I mean, don't get me wrong
You smile at me

Out of common courtesy.


F.Z.**N

I smile so wide and ask her about
her boyfriend, how he's doing,
how he's treating her...
She smiles back and says
that they love each other.

Don't get me wrong,
I'm happy for her, really.
It's just that it's so weird
to refer to you now as someone's
boyfriend when you used to be
the reason I was breathing.


F.Z.N

I remember thinking about you and
getting glimpses of  heaven,
I remember looking in your eyes
and seeing my very own reflection
like you were glass and me
so desperate for your opinion,
like we were one and the same,
Like we were perfection.

And now, and now...
you are but a long gone stranger
I had spent years mistaking for myself.

I mean it's just funny,
for the short times we spent together
I certainly did believe
you were never going to leave.


F.Z.N

Entire universes could exist
Between two people, he truthfully said.


F.Z.**N

I have no earthly idea what love is;
It's divine.


F.Z.**N

I feel like a stranger
Stuck in another stranger's body.


-- Eleanor