I wish this world we both stand on wasn't yours, but only mine
you took so much from me but we still have to share the things I love the most
The moon in the sky I ponder at is also yours to look at when you please
The air that fills my lungs and allows me to breathe is also yours to inhale
The same water that flows from my faucets is connected to yours allowing you to drink
The earth i stand on is also yours to walk
The sun that basks me in its light and warmth is also yours to enjoy and savor
so far away...but never far enough

Driving at 8
Rain pounding angainst the windshield
The wipers are off
Faster and faster
Pressing the gas pedal till it reachers the floor
Pills aren’t working I’m not even tired
The bridge is just over the hill
****, roads closed
Flooded
**** it
Breaking through the closed signs
Sharp curve
Crushing metal
Pain
Blackness
Emptiness
Peace

Dear younger me I swear it gets better
Push the dark thoughts away and try to forget her
Dear younger me don’t drink the pain away
You shouldn’t be downing shots on a school day
Dear younger me stop taking handfuls of pills
There are other ways to satisfy those thrills
Dear younger me stop sneaking out at night
Take a deep breath it will be alright

Dear younger me those scars are permanent
It’s not worth it over an argument
Dear younger me stop skipping meals
It doesn’t feel good to be hungry, we know how that feels
Dear younger me don’t sleep all day
Get your *** up and write that essay
Dear younger me don’t give up
This is our only life, we don’t have a backup

Behind your soft warm brown eyes
your soul is cold and jagged
Underneath your perfect blonde hair
Your brain is cruel and unforgiving
Under your snug flannel
Your heart is rock hard and freezing

liquid courage
Burning throats
The smokey taste of cigarettes on our tounges
This summer fling has obviously flung
Drunk and filled with love
Your heart fits mine like a glove
But with your hangover tomorrow
You will start to weep with sorrow
I was a drunk mistake
And my stone cold heart that was warmed starts to break

Your soft kisses on my forehead give me butterflies
Your smile leaves me breathless
Your kisses leave me senseless
Soft traces of your fingertips
And firm hands hold on to my grip

Your scent lingers for hours
Your hugs leave me weightless
Your love leaves me ageless
Soft kisses on my neck
And firm embraces hold me tight