The creaking boards, leading to the endless fog

The smell of salt

The crack of the waves, seem like a distant memory

The only noise comes from the boards and the birds

The smoke, white as snow, consumes me as I near the end of the peer



I could only stand and stare

I could rule the world
I could make the waves of life calm
The birds would chirp
The sun would shine
The world would be more alive
If you were mine.

Do you ever sit and think
About what goes on above?
How something could happen
Within a blink

But it’s not like you can tell
Or see what goes on
Between the stars above
It must be so swell

This begs the question
What IS up there?
What could be looking right back at you?
Do you have a suggestion?

It rattles my brain
Turns my stomach
Pulls at my soul
I can feel the curiosity crawling through my veins

The everlasting void of our galaxy
There’s so much
Yet we know so little

A shifting plane of alternate realities

The waves in the ocean
The uncertainty of the collide

Peaceful for a few moments
Then back to the war of a lifetime

A maze of thoughts
That you try to outrun

A deep and thorough rot
Paralizying you
Keeping you in fear
Giving you glimpses of hope
Just for another wave to consume it

A day in the life
Of an overthinker.

You don’t wanna leave

What might your family think?
Your friends?
Teachers?
Lovers?
But they don’t know how it is
How hard it is to wake up
Knowing today won’t be better
feeling life fill your stomach with bricks
your head
with poison
They will never know what it’s like to have the taste
of metal in their mouth
Their tears dripping down their face
But not hitting the floor
How close they are
To pulling that trigger

You don’t wanna leave

You just want the pain
To leave
And it will
So instead of holding the metal
Hold your sibling’s hand
Your friends
Teachers
Lovers
They may not know the pain you feel
But you will know
That they will experience it
If you relieve yours

Fight
Take a breath
And know that tomorrow will be better than the last
And that you will make it through

We were in love
Told me you would never leave
And I fell for not only your personality
Your welcoming smile
Your warm eyes
But also
For your lies
Your manipulation
You had my heart
And now
You have my happiness
Because like you
It also left
Without saying goodbye

Only fools rush in,
But those fools,
Have a better chance of getting to where they want,
Than those who procrastinate.

Guess that makes me the biggest fool ever... But not a day goes by that I don't love you less.